dReaMeR...tHiNkeR...fAte-beLievEr...

給我一個理由忘記

2012-01-29T16:53:00.002+08:00

When i heard this song.. I couldnt help but put in on repeat.

It has only been 2 weeks, but it feels like that faithful day juz passed. Still trying to cope with it... trying to sleep well again.

I had alwayz hope to bump into you at our past regular hangout. Each time i'm there, I will look ard.. waiting.. hoping. Just when i least expected.. our paths met. Fate? i dunno. When our eyes met.. i guess i'll never forget that moment. That acknowledgement, that smile. i juz had to go over to say hi.. maybe it was the drinks that gave me some courage. After that, i juz wanted to run away.. but i couldn't. The fastest way was to turn my back and get support from my company. It was terrible that nite.. really bad.

I told myself to be strong. I told myself to stay busy. but I never thought it would be this hard.

imu.. ilyd.

letting go of ideals..

2011-08-02T10:29:00.005+08:00

i'm back again... after so long. so much have been going on in my life and i juz can't find the right avenues to let out. been emo-ing quite often recently... like anytime going into depression. but not that major kind.. juz feeling so damn lousy inside.

we all have ideals... some expectations to reach these ideals that make us happy. somehow i think i have come to realise i not only have to lower my expectations.. i also have to let go of my ideals coz they are never reality. we want things to turn out a certain way... occasions to be celebrate in a certain way with some kind of importance. maybe its the dreamy expectations i have... so far i think the times i was truly happy was during the 1st few ones. perhaps the occasion i like best was 1st month. only then... i was really xingfu. maybe i shouldn't put so much meaning into dates and occasions because they come every yr. sometimes simple can be good.. but wat i really want... wat i really hope for... do you know?

not sure if all my thoughts have been affected by work. i have done crazy things this year that took lots of courage and i didn't thought i was able to do it. not once.. but twice. didn't know i could be so daring...? i have to figure out wat to do soon... otherwise i will be stuck in this spiral.

i now feel everything is going wrong. things i am unhappy about cannot be said... or even if i say it wouldn't be of any use. problems cannot be resolved and i am juz stuck. with no sense of security in any way. maybe i should not take everything so seriously.. i should go back to the happy-go-lucky me. times where even when i get hurt... it wouldn't mean much or i wouldn't even mind it. when i say i dun care.. i realise i dun mean it...coz can't do it. i really do care.

i really do not have job luck

2011-04-24T21:04:00.003+08:00

after much tolerance... i finally did it. 21 apr was the threshold. it was due to so many factors... no point staying and dragging on longer. I know i have been changing jobs quite fast. Believe me, i really hate it. i hate goodbyes... mostly its the colleagues i miss. thats all. somehow i juz can't find a comfortable and suitable place to plant my roots.

from my 1st... i really thought i could stay long. but after this 3rd.. i think i really do not have job luck. alwayz ending up in some shitty situation. its not that i give up easily. i truly hang on... but its alwayz that some things happen and i know i should treat myself better. or maybe i have not found wat i am destined to do. now... what shall that be?

thankfully, i have alot of support. family, frenz and especially him. giving me strength and hope.

kindly show me the way... give me a hint on wat's my forte. i am alwayz lost in this aspect.. alwayz searching for wat's the right path. or should i say.. the right company to be part of. show me the light pls.

this is the last & i promise u.

2011-03-19T15:21:00.003+08:00

Initially you had no ojections so i thought u were totally ok with it. but when the dae drew near... you sounded uncomfortable. but you didn't want to stop me as u knew i wanted it. your firm words earlier in the day somehow made me understood your stand. & bcoz of what u said.. i made a promise to u that this will be the last. a promise is a promise & it will be kept. i seldom make promises so this i will definitely keep.

17 march 2011.. another date to remember. after 1 & 22 jan 2010.. it's all complete. all i wanted and all i love. no regrets. although i was wishing you were there with me or even after i was done.. but its okie. your support was all i needed. i can live with that.

there are the usual expectations and unhappiness i still feel uncomfortable with. but hope time will heal and things will change in time. maybe i gotta learn to let go and not harp on unnecessary worries. dun think so much and juz learn to accept things as they are. coz i really want this to work. :-*

Am I expecting too much?

2011-03-02T15:45:00.002+08:00

I often wonder... Am I asking for too much? Simple gestures or efforts.. In this aspect is always missing. I dun understand. Its simple.. It's nothing much. I reason with myself many times.. And I can't figure if I am at fault. Maybe I AM asking for too much?

Maybe I should juz 4get it.. Juz accept the fact and face it.

Love Languages..

2011-02-20T23:57:00.005+08:00

I said it all. Things that were bottling up inside. I wouldn't wanna be a volcano.. Storing all I felt and never knowing when I was gona explode. Unexpectedly.. HTHT juz started... And I am so glad he understands and took it constructively. Perhaps he didn't know the expectations I had. The disappointment doesn't matter anymore so long as he knows what matters now. That's how we learn and grow together.. Right?

The theory abt love languages are well known. Each of us have dominant love languages which I couldn't figure when neo tested me. Becoz to me, all was impt and I couldn't rank. But after doing the quiz.. I had my love languages figured out...

Percent Language Score
27% Quality Time 8
22% Acts of Service 7
17% Words of Affirmation 5
17% Receiving Gifts 5
17% Physical Touch 5

Other 3 equally impt.. Guess I am harder to please. Hahha but I am juz glad that our top 2 dominant love languages are the same.. Juz the other way ard...

Percent Language Score
27% Acts of Service 8
23% Quality Time 7
20% Words of Affirmation 6
17% Physical Touch 5
13% Receiving Gifts 4

With this.. Guess we'll be communicating on the same note. =D

Coincidentally, ppgs' most dominant love quote is all quality time.. But 2nd ones are all different. But we guessed each others' love languages correctly prior to doing the quiz! Omg.. So amazing. Guess thru' all these years.. We really know each other really well. Love the ppg bonding.. And the HTHTs.

It's all good. I'm so happy... this simple but meaningful weekend.

Todae means alot to me...

2011-02-14T11:29:00.002+08:00

Todae is V dae and it may not be as important to everyone but it definitely is for me. Because for the past decade.. To me it was only a dae to celebrate friendship and it didn't mean much more to me. But this time.. There is something meaningful and worthy to celebrate. Spend last nite using my creative brain juices to complete my gift for him. Hope he likes the HEAT to HEART effect and the many 'pieces' I put together.

It's been a long time since I've done stuff like that. And somehow feeling so happy during the process and after the outcome. Juz hope he likes it. =D

Happy happy V day.

2011.. another year begins.

2011-01-15T12:11:00.004+08:00

haven't blog for so long... but gotta at least update this dead site for the new yr! life's different now. with more pressure at work... sometimes it juz makes each day like a battle. testing my limits on how much more i can take.

sometimes i think its in my genetic makeup... not like i love doing other pple's work... but i juz wanna make things right. can't juz let it go and say thats not my job scope! oh well... when a company doesn't hire enough & exploits the staff.. wat can i say? work is all linked & u rely on pple's cooperation. it gets fustrating when that does not turn out the way it should.. and i end up on the losing end. there's no fairness at times. even my buddie at work cannot take it aldy. things are so shaky... maybe i should be my own boss. but money is alwayz the issue. not sure if i will ever live my dream.

one thing's for sure... i have support and encouragement.. reminding me of my worth and not to be so selfless. i am thankful for his presence.. his wittyness. my life is definitely different now... with the choices i make & the words i say. its not alwayz a bed of roses... although its almost 90% of the case. hahaha at times... i juz wish there is more integration. i think i have done my part... juz hope for more willingness from your side. like a natural want for u to join me & things impt in my life. everytime i wish for that... i seem to be forcing u. guess its juz different expectations and way-of-life. i respect that... so i'll not force u anymore. because only when i see u willingly want to... then i'll feel the warmth.

when two pple come from different lifestyles... there bound to be changes in each's to compromise & work out a new route together. i know i have to make sacrifices but my principle of frenz foreva still remains. thank u for understanding that. i noe u are not as patient but i noe u are trying. the way we are... somehow i have a feeling that u are the one. :-*

2010 marks changes in my life

2010-08-16T21:52:00.003+08:00

have not updated this bloggie for long. getting kinda lazy ba. posts may get more rare as time goes by... haha

many things have happened this yr. 1)finally done what i've alwayz wanted to do... so satisfied with the results. something to keep for life... no regrets. 2)did wat i ought to do... still a great fren alwayz. 3)job change was a gd thing but not entirely great. realli miss my ex-colleagues so much... & the sort-of-freedom i had. now its OT-ing everydae... have not left office on the dot ever since i've started. but.. time past real real fast. shagness sometimes.

but most importantly... 4)i have (found) him... or rather he has found me. haha fate is funny in many ways. guess things realli happen for a reason. its been a long time... thx for being understanding and patient. there's so much more to learn together. but for now.. there's nothing more i can ask. =D

quarter of a century

2010-03-09T22:14:00.005+08:00

finally! i've reached the mark. quarter onli... chey! hahhaha celebrations this yr was as usual great! not as many though... guess it comes with age? well... the earliest was a combination bdae with my gang. new addition to the gang.. great chillout at reddot. next was movie at sinema oldsch, kissing cousins. surprisingly fantastic show.. left me dreamy again. although didn't get to go to timbre, had a great cc dinner. how cute they are.. whispering like as if i can't hear. haha

then it was combination with my fishy sis. had our fav rosti and so much more. followed by our routine party. time somehow passed so darn fast & it was midnite! not very high though but music was great.. so no prob having fun! its like they knew it was a special dae... they announced time extended till 6am. but it was almost impossible getting a taxi after that... argh.

actual dae was with the important pple. went for body scrub with bubblez, if onli blossomz could be there too. anywayz.. twin room was not much diff, door was closed most of the time & our faces down which muffles our conversation. beauticians also can hear everything we say. so well... it was a short but relaxing experience. dinner with family at seletar... awfully choc cake! mum's idea. after that some chill time at mac with cheebongz.. crapping. and a mission was planned. not 100% successful but 99% full proof. exciting & funny in the process. thks for the unforgettable experience. hahaha

juz when i thought all was over, and mondae would be a lazy day off, i ended up at bala after class. and later to df and boiler. couldn't resist the temptation, chic wings! anyway, poor jas was feeling so down... tried my best to console her. i believe a down alwayz leads to an up. she has to pull thru' this. hope our april appmt helps her thru' her pain, contradictorily.

todae was a sudden plunge into stress hole. think the accumulation of a day's emails and updates juz crashed all in. but slowly things picked up, as i say after a down comes an UP. my dearest colleagues.. all surprisingly came up to my desk to present their combined gift. so love them can! it realli makes a big difference to have great colleagues. and like it wasn't enough, big boss gave me a letter. not for cuttlefish of course, but a little increment for recognition. apparently, i am appreciated. unexpected but made my day a little better. =)

H.B. to me. another great yr ahead.

truely sorry

2010-02-26T00:42:00.003+08:00

i have done wat i should and want to do. so please respect my decision. i am happier like that. i need this.

don't make it harder than it already is.

all the best.

march is here again

2010-02-24T22:37:00.002+08:00

its the time of year again. 1 more year of experiences. another year to look forward to. reached a quarter of my life assuming i live till a century. life changes.. but i believe pple dun change so easily. oh well...juz hope everything's going well for all. too much sadness in this world. alwayz smile coz u'll never know who is falling in love with ur smile.

i dun regret the choices i've made. may be good, may be bad. i'll get my repercussions i guess. i believe everything happens for a reason so juz let it be. set urself free and move on. our paths may meet when the time is right. but i wun expect forgiveness.

happy bdae pisceans! life is full of opportunities... grab it.. live it to the maX! never turn back...look forward. only then u will find true happiness.

Best Wishes.

Serendipity

2010-02-04T21:42:00.003+08:00

--> Art of making an unsought finding...a fortunate meeting defined by fate and revealed by destiny.

i have alwayz believed in fate and destiny. all thanx to my dreamy nature. but recently, thru' life experiences, i came up with this phrase "Just when u thought fate begins, u start to doubt if it's fated to end". think its so meaningful. there's no answer to this.. but we can onli hope that its just a result of negative thoughts. i still believe in fate though... on what's meant to be. everything happens for a reason... that's how life goes on.

1st & 22nd Jan 2010. no regrets at all. anywayz, came across this article on starz. so interesting to know:

The star has long been considered a symbol of truth, spirit and of hope. Their very existence speaks to the struggle against the forces of darkness and the unknown, and their fixed nature brings the suggestion of order and destiny, and it is on this structure that astrology is founded. In the Tarot, “The Star” is the seventeenth card in the Major Arcana, which signifies hope and the uniting of spirit with matter though the mediation of the soul.

The five points typically represent earth, wind, fire, water, and our spirit, which takes its proper place above the four elements. People who are attracted to a five point star are usually very versatile, adventurous, progressive, and always striving to find answers to the many questions that life poses. Since the five point star is the sign of freedom and independence, these people want to be totally unrestrained, and know how to motivate people around them. Five point star people also love adventure, are apt to be multi-talented and happy-go-lucky, and have an innate ability to think through complex matters and analyze them quickly.

really?? oh well. light in the darkness.. realli need it. still lost in my journey called life....

new yr... new experiences

2010-01-31T12:34:00.003+08:00

its amazing how we experience different facets of life as time goes by. we start to grow and learn from such happenings. i've learnt the hard ways... no pain no gain. maybe that's y i can withstand thAt pain.. coz there are so many other things that hurt even more. physical pain is nothing compared to emotional pain. & i believe that i've not undergone the most painful emotions. hearing other pple's life experiences... i can't imagine going thru' that trauma.

but each stage of our lives... we make certain decisions that will change the future. be it good or bad. lets all learn from all around... to be a better person... to lead a better life. for urself and for those who care for u.

have been real busy... & i guess it'll only get busier. oh well... wat's life if its simple and boring. gotta add more life. gotta live it to the fullest. cheerz.

life's a climb.. but the view is great.

2010-01-09T15:52:00.003+08:00

juz watched hannah montana again... & still so touched by the story. juz love the above phrase. and her voice.. wow. not the very powerful kind.. but very soothing to listen to. chorus from the climb:

*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*

It ain't alwayz as easy as it seems. life seems simple & we think everything is alright. but deep down we all know that... there are some things we juz can't hide. look at things like it may be... but dun judge everything u see. these sudden flow of words... not knowing where they came from. but one can only see... life is a mystery.

Start of 2010

2010-01-03T22:57:00.002+08:00

2009 has been okie. more experiences, more fun. In this new yr, it started off both bad & good. Not sure wat to expect further in 2010. 1 thing is for sure.. once my mind is made up, its done. no turning back. that's wat make pisceans stubborn. gotta be cruel to be kind.

i achieved wat i wanted since sec sch. a good start to the new yr. symbolic. no regrets. a brand new yr... alot more to learn. i will be busy-fied with the graphics course. hope it'll be fun. hope everything turns out well.

wishing all the best to everyone. strive to achieve greater heights and be healthy to be happy. cheerz!

End 2009: Genting ends it well

2009-12-31T14:32:00.005+08:00

Its about time. finally went to Genting theme park. This yr end trip was a short but FUN one! Coach: Sri Maju. Date: 28-30 Dec09. It was a 3-day movie marathon as well. As a movie fanatic, of course i'd rather watch movies than sleep on the coach. Due to timing and journey, dozed off at some parts. Total movies watched: 7. watched till eyes wanna pop out le. hahaha Movies on coach: Max Payne, Windstruck, Happily N'ever After, My Girl and I, Transformers 1. Movies in genting cinema: The Princess and the Frog, Avatar. wooOoohooo shiokz.

Day 1: took 2 hrs to check into first world. 100+ pple before us. unbelievably crowded. think they should change their name. overall service at genting was quite terrible.. onli a few gems here & there. watever la. so we put our stuff in the small cosy room and went out for late lunch at 4+pm. Went to catch princess & frog, coz not much other things to do. i think it was nice, coz happily ever after and the ending was quite smart. had a quick dinner and later at nite went snow world. we were all freezing after 20mins. nose felt frozen and like dropping off anytime. but the slideS were super fun! our secretive photo-taking made it even more exciting.

Day 2: Halfway thru' my sleep... vinc called. they drove up to genting from their drive trip for some gambling! So me & neo crawled out of bed, grabbed a jacket and machiam sleep walking, went to meet him at casino. but wasn't allowed in coz didn't bring verifications. We must have looked damn shag but could tok kok a while before going back to dreamland. So morning ate instant noodles as quick breakfast before setting off for our theme park! Got the 1-day pass for both indoor & outdoor. indoor nothing much so spend most of the day at the outdoor park. weather fluctuated thru'out. drizzle, cloudy, sunny, drizzle, clear sky. the ride queues were long.. as expected. some rides were closed but we managed to play as much as we could. the coasters were so fun! personally love the flying coaster, which was a separate ride from the theme park. so glad i took that, otherwise i would have regretted. felt like i was flying. can't wait to go other theme parks ard the world...

Day 3: Got up early to check out. had starbucks for breakfast. watched avatar. really beautiful scenes... wish there were such colourful and magical places in reality. oh well. had a quick lunch before boarding coach back to sg.

It was a great getaway. a fantastic end to 2009. Tmr will be the start of a brand new yr. Stars symbolise a new start. light in the darkness. positivity, hope, dreams, freedom, high ambitions, ideals and even life itself. It also has mystical and magical significance. yes, 1 Jan 2010 will be significant. Finally.

time for pampering

2009-12-19T14:26:00.002+08:00

yesterdae's leave was fully utilised. went for regular doc appmt at polyclinic. as alwayz, waiting time was damn long. good thing for my nano's company. then went to hougang to get haircut & add some colour. its been a long time since i last dyed. feel so much lighter too! maybe i should juz cut it short short. but thats something i need more time to think about.

after that went to watch new moon. like.. finally la! met glad.. & she had the same sentiments! but i managed to tahan. i guess the wait made me even more excited. oh edward & bella. guess only me & qt enjoyed. like in our own fantasy world. i guess u'll only like the movie if u r dreamy. well.. can't wait for the continuation! after that we pia to butter as fast as we could. as expected.. queue for 1+ hrs & got in! so many familiar faces we saw. music a little disappointing though but company was gReaT! such a rare chance to club together... so happie! we finally got to dance all together again. =D

december rulez

2009-12-13T12:35:00.002+08:00

december is the month of celebrations.. xmas... non-stop outingz and clearing leave! its like we pia for a year... and this is the month for enjoying. not that the other months no enjoyment la... but dec is especially relaxed. work still continues... fri juz found out about a problem to settle. argh. hope it gets resolved soon. coming jan... i think the stress level will juz go back up instantly. heck la... will deal with it then. with classes starting... i see myself busier than ever. monotonous routine from jan - june. please be worth it.

yesterday went to jb to eat seafood. shiokz la. if not for my cholesterol.. i wouldn't need to stop. so yummy can! but good thing though.. indirectly forces me to control. hahaha after that was ktv... its been a long time! no voice.. but so much laughter! miss nusmc times... & drive trip!! can't make it... again! omg. cheebongz... come genting find me ya? i noe bighead wants to... big small!

i still haven't watch new moon... tahan very long aldy! hopefully when blossomz come back... we'll have a girls niteout or even a clubbing nite which des suggested? xmas coming... daes are booked. outingz are set. few daes left but able to fully maximise. come on come on.. its a season to be jollyyyy....~

cake decor class

2009-11-30T11:48:00.008+08:00

finally completed course 1. certified. spent much more than needed bcoz we learnt at a more expensive place. argh.. i overlooked the "materials provided" part. will definitely learn at phoon huat next time... coz all provided for.

oh well.. but it was quite an experience with BIY though. we had to go in search for materials and do homework before classes. with so much to do, i wonder how PH does it all in each class. anywayz.. finally learnt piping. have alwayz wanted to... & it turned out as fun as i expected! but the thing abt cake decor is.. its only for looking. can't really eat it coz its too sweet. here are the pics...

the rainbow made of stars...

clownies were fun to make.

my final artpiece.. that's it for course 1.

all students' creativity.

overall was realli fun. so much more to learn!! whether or not to continue course 2,3,4.. to be decided at a later date when financially able. for now.. juz gotta save up first. so lost now.. learning all sorts of things... but still not knowing what i wanna focus on. oh well... see how it goes ba.

saw a rainbow next to flyer last weekend. 1st time i get to see the real thing in sg. the other was in aust. made my day. dec is a busy month but i think it will be a real happy one.

everything happens for a reason. be happy. i sincerely wish u all the best. appreciate the good things in life. i do.

big hole...

2009-11-09T21:43:00.003+08:00

oh manz.. the hole is getting bigger and bigger. the one in my pocket, or should i say wallet or bank acc. sharks! this is bad. the class requires so much more than i thought.. haiz. its so hard to learn anything nowadaes.. its all about the money. but it has been fun though. hands-on is a totally different story. well.. hope the final piece goes well. can't wait!

another lumpsum was out for next yr's class. prepared for another blow becoz i will eventually need a new lappy and the software i guess. aAaahhh.... i need to save more. but how to save when my essential need is to go out?! its a big sacrifice to make. can i? will i?

oh well.. currently sorting myself out. searching the meaning in life, apart from juz enjoying it. need time for myself. alone. its for the best.. trust me. hope that its worth it.

emo affected

2009-10-31T14:22:00.002+08:00

recently heard many life stories. gathered lots of mixed feelings.kinda affected by these realisations. 1) some guyz can be such bastards. feel sad for her.. she deserve so much better. and it made me realise how idealistic i am. she was like me too... which is making me doubtful. i'm juz losing faith. 2) some guyz are crazy. yah but i dun believe in numerous occurrence. she is hiding stuff. telling some parts of the story. i've seen it, not surprising. i've felt it. felt wat it was like to be "lied to". not literally.. but somehow kept in the dark until realising later. feeling like a fool.

yesterdae was a rush of emotions. so affected but hidden. juz dun wanna tok. smile and go on. take away my feelings. i dun give a damn.

run run run...

2009-10-25T21:35:00.002+08:00

body acheing badly from the run. this time couldn't run 5km at all.. only 3 and no more determination. jogged some and walked some... so overall timing improved by a few minutes. i'm juz not the running type la... juz join for fun. had some htht with ppgs after that.. thinking back of yester-years. so much memories... good and bad ones.

at nite was qt & xw's bdae at 15mins. cool place... food alright. the "bright" theme did not turn out very bright though... but who cares. coz we had a grEat time at marina barrage... chatting about interesting stuff. new discoveries made.. thanx to our dear des... online pro. kekeke super quick bdae cake-cutting due to the strong winds. it was the 1st time we didn't sing song! haha pple chatted... i mostly listened. whenever my "sexy" voice came out... it was a natural joke. i know i sound funny... but maybe i sound funnier than i thought. its so easy to "zao sia" with this sore throat. hahaha i seem to loooose it quite often... guess i'm reAlly heatttttyy. the lifestlye. the food. omg!

oct's ending. nov will pass in a flash. dec... yay! busy busy busy for now... i need my voice back... quickly! can't talk to clients with this kinda voice manz. argh. where is my life heading... i am still searching. arrow.. please come out.

portfolio expanding..

2009-10-15T22:44:00.003+08:00

sometimes i dun understand. is there not enough job seekers out there? can't be. or is the boss's expectation too high? its so obvious how your staff is overloaded. i'm not realli refering to myself... coz there are others out there that are worse than me.. i know. but i guess i juz didn't expect my portfolio to increase so suddenly. oh well. i shouldn't complain. coz i still get to choose if i want to OT or not.. juz as long as i plan my time right. it sux sometimes.. having to multi-manage and not being able to produce good results. diminishing marginal returns u know?

last time.. i was so focused on 1 major proj. knowing it so well and producing gd results. now.. having 4 major ones and 3 minor ones. no doubt i feel my diminishing performance. i'll pull through... some are getting close. i juz hope no last min surprises. at least colleagues are nice... helpful and fun! thats already a good encouragement. everything's gona be ok. =P

so looking forward to weekends. next wk human race.. arghhhh! i'm gona run at least 5km if i still can... wahahha hopefully the full 10km, that will be an achievement! exercise exercise... how?! how to be motivated when i eat whenever i'm happy, sad and stressed~ omgggggg...

i know

2009-09-28T22:13:00.004+08:00

i know what to blog aldy. i know y i feel funny. bcoz recently weird things are happening. not to me.. but to frenz ard me. y is it that there is a similarity in all their endings? its not juz 1.. its like 3 pple ard me. omg.. wat's going on. is it bcoz of age.. that these start to get common? no.. i believe its not. it can't be. juz coincidence. now i understand my down mood. not that i'm directly hit... but that those ard me are. i'm the pillar.. here for support. if i can survive for so long.. i know u all can too. come on! cheer up~ life is GREAT, as long as u want it to be! hahahaha

been trying real hard to finish Wuthering Heights. chimology to the max. i'm juz not up to this kinda standard. but bcoz it is linked to twilight.. i will finish reading it! starting to get used to the language.. but it realli needs more effort than usual. omg.. how can pple actually write so abstractly. heard its the greatest love story ever... so ya. i'll try my best to comprehend.

yoga 1st lesson was so calm, no sweat. realli did the oHmm thingy.. but without the sound. was laughing inside but concentrating externally. we were a little giggly in class.. but controlled. missed 2nd class as i went for a little retail therapy with parents at JB. shiok la. anyway, went to another group's class instead, which was the 2nd last for them.. so the techniques were all so different and me & ting were actually panting. tiring lo! back to our own group this week... we need to progress slowly.

oct babies bdaes coming le. seems like so much fun. i juz wish i didn't have to work. argh! monday blues is almost over. but next week will come again. manz.. its a cycle. nvm... more outings to take my blues away......

aei..

2009-09-28T21:00:00.001+08:00

hmm.. what should i blog. wat should i blogg. wat should i bloggg. let me think longer...

time to upgrade..

2009-09-05T14:04:00.003+08:00

sometimes i wish i have a goal in life.. besides juz enjoying life. i'm constantly searching. who am i. wat i want out of life. as time goes by.. i'm aware of my interests. but sometimes the frictions to such interests can hinder the process.. and the many sacrifices and risks may not be worthwhile. there are cases where pple go all out to follow their dreams & succeed. but its a bold step to take. too bold for a non-risk taker.

i've chosen to take subtle steps towards wat may seem to be what i like. i can't be too sure though. coz things alwayz seem interesting at 1st.. but could turn out different when u realli get into it. gotta try to find out rite? have recently signed up for courses to upgrade myself. 1 that has alwayz been my fascination.. 1 is more of a group activity with my darlings.. and 1 more which is still pending. taking a cert may not be enough to qualify... but i guess i'll try. coz taking a diplo does not seem logical. gotta see if i have that creative element 1st. only after i've gone thru' them.. then i'll conclude if it is something i am fated to do. otherwise, wat's the worst that could happen... using some savings to learn a new skill? guess it'll be worth it. woohoo~

emotions unmatched.

2009-08-25T21:56:00.005+08:00

being easy-going is not alwayz a good thing. it can turn ard and hurt so bad. having low expectations can also have unexpected implications. i guess i wasn't aware if not for the drilling session last nite. sometimes i take things simply. but yet i think too much for all the wrong things. how to satisfy others' expectations or even my own? or how to make them meet at some point where it is acceptable for all. i have to find that balance again. have been lost in my busy life.. too busy occupying myself to realise wat's happening. sometimes i start to think if i'm juz trying to use up all my time & energy so as not to daydream or think too much of unnecessary stuff. but then again, maybe i juz love to go out. thx neo & leong. for making me realise... that i have to give affirmations. although not my style.. but i will try not to be too subtly indirect. =D oh. 1 more thing.. i'm realli not tired. everyone has different ways of relaxation i guess. diff needs, diff wants, diff piorities.

anyway, glad to clear things up. work has been hectic again. this time messy with diff portfolios and every place is of utmost importance. i will do my best, but dun expect miracles. last weekend's outings were damn fun. sentosa. chalet. makes me wanna chalet again. glad that many weekend PHs coming up. means long wkends. great!

oh well.. i wonder. is it wrong to try to involve someone into the fun? try to make them comfortable in a gathering. try to just squeeze out that smile which is so hard? & not hide in a corner, rather be with strangers than pple u know? i dun believe anyone can ever be so weird. especially when its ur cousin's bdae and so many others are your frenz. u say i dun understand, yes i dun. forever saying u dun like crowd. but i've seen you reacting ever so enthusiastically with others. its a choice. i've alwayz told you its your perception. but u still juz carry on with your reserved & weird acts. time & time again. why should i even try. i should not even care. everything depends on your mood. to think that i've ever considered the impossible. we are definitely from different worlds.

1 wk entitled leave

2009-08-07T12:59:00.001+08:00

actualli it is more known as medical leave. clumpsy me. but i guess it was a blessing in disguise. coz from the fall.. my injuries could have been much worse if it was an inch further. oh well.. a good break before i start on new projects at old office. dunno wat to expect.

i have another regret & i can't get over it. i should have given my blessings and everything would have turned out right. wouldn't be caught in this mess now. now i juz can't get out. i'm stuck. so lost. dunno wat to do. f* this shit.. f* these decisions to make. y can't it juz be easier. test drive? nah. i dunno if i can even bring myself to it. so much external pressure. even from music. it makes it worse that it comes thru' the lyrics. u wouldn't know wat its like to be me...

i'm a terrible person.

simplify things..

2009-07-19T21:26:00.004+08:00

sometimes i juz wish things are simpler. like how life was during sec sch. when everything is not given so much thought & circumstances juz turn out right. why is it that some see things so shallow-ly.. like how foolish they think i may be. i know there are some that are not on my side, even going against me for not making a decision they would most willingly make.

not accepting doesn't mean not appreciative. u can't imagine how agonizing it can get.. when either way doesn't seem right. i may be stubborn.. i may be selfish. but i guess i have my reasons for my decisions.. in which they may or may not be right. i wouldn't know. tell me who would.

believe me, i know very well how lucky i am. can't thank you enough in this lifetime. which all the more makes me wanna leave sometimes. why am i like that? there's something holding me back. not sure exactly what. but until i can let that part go.. then i may juz be able to take that step.

sometimes i question. & all thanx to my persistence.. i realise my intuition is right. how can i trust when each time something new pops up. but then again, u r free. everyone makes mistakes. but somehow it feels uneasy. the heart that is.

pls simplify things, so i can see more clearly.

b.o.r.e.d

2009-07-12T21:39:00.004+08:00

i'm back. haven't blogged in quite a while coz dunno wat to blog about. today feeling kinda wu liao.. so juz type something. anything.

life's kinda stagnant.. work play eat sleep. urge to go on holiday. maybe i should try to apply leave. i need a holidae! but no $$. argh. suddenly feel like studying overseas.. coz the thought of it seems so fun. but i know its juz a thought. coz i think i wanna holidae, more than to study. so i shall not cheat myself. working is better.. got earning power.

i should start exercising. now! frenz.. please pull me along. i have no self discipline. zZzzzz..

leaving again..

2009-06-20T16:17:00.011+08:00

juz when i was getting comfortable in the environment... its time to say gdbye aldy. as alwayz.. hate going thru' this time where u can't bear to leave the familiar. until now.. i still miss the good times at ny. life moves on. then later.. its the sports with colleagues in my 1st fulltime job. life continues on. now... gona miss OC days.. the nice pple and hectic times. wat to expect now? its not that i'm not looking forward to the next step.. its juz the saying gdbye part. its alwayz hard... and unbearable.

yeah.. we can alwayz meet up again sometime. but its the "working together" that i'll miss so very much. different places.. different experiences. oh well... changes changes. no choice. being sentimental has its price. i can't even cancel a phone line. argh! ridiculous. nvm.. lets juz look forward.

enough emo talk.. share some pics of my adorable nephew. so cUuUute!! its amazing how he changes my mood.

i'll be back... & here i am.

2009-06-01T22:40:00.007+08:00

wat's up with the title? terminator of course. the fake arnold was funny manz. action pack la.. dunno how come some pple can sleep. & guess who i met in the cinema. i think its fate la! hahaha come to think of it.. we almost changed movie tix coz we had a little too much time to spare. but.. no consensus to change coz seats too front. FATED. directly infront of us.. is cheebongZ jordieee & milaaan! was so shocked & excited can. long time no see liao! thank god singapore is so small... a little hype here & there is good.. brightens the dae. =D

that sat was like a super long dae. but fun! usually the gatherings are at nite... but last sat our outing starting since noon. it was eating & spending dae.. totally. soup spoon.. yoguru (i'm going thru' a phase of dessert addiction).. club21 sale madness.. jiaxiang mian... arcade.. pool.. bubbletea... popcorn/nachos. 4kg added and $150 minus. it was such a nice hangout dae.. if onli more of them could join. but guess some too busy, poor ann not feeling well and my bubbles is having loads of fun in aussie! oh.. how i miss the air there.

sunday last min found out i on duty. kinda sian-ified. but at least i earned myself a halfdae off. woohoo~ haven't taken any offs for the past 4 months. but i feel an MC coming. throat so sore after all the heaty food.. ankle veins misbehaving again after all the endless walking. argh. but i have to tahan... coz there's juz too much to do.. can't afford to miss a dae or two. pls make the pain go away.

ok.. better go rest my eyes. panda is coming. weekend here i come...

its party time...

2009-05-10T14:40:00.031+08:00

sometimes its great to have so much going on. although time juz pass by real fast... but u know u had lotsa fun. & thAt is juz priceless. its not juz simply enjoying.. its the appreciation of life and the gift of frenship which i treasure lots. coz i'll never know when this word "life" ends for me.

i'm not a clubber.. juz an enjoyer to the max. juz so happen... i found fellow enjoyers and its about as much we can do late at nite. hahaha but for those who find enjoyment thru' a different channel, i still luv u all juz as much. still many other activities we can do =P maybe juz a peek at wat's been going on.. from way back. feel it.. relate to it... and immerse into the mood.

can't get enough of it. more in the pipeline... cheerZ!

rehi

2009-05-02T14:04:00.002+08:00

i'm here again. sorrie peeps. thx for da feedback but i've been too lazy to update. i'll try my best to blog k. hahah

life has been alright so far. not at the peak... but also not at the bottom. thankfully for all the outings.. they keep me going. think majority of my salary is used to support my constant enjoyments.. luckily i'm not a shopaholic.

juz love watching my little nephew crawling ard. imagine a baby crawling with knees off the ground.. guess he can't wait to walk. & his constant giggling and cute baby sounds. haven't said his 1st word yet but soon.. coz he's got great genes. extremely adorable. think he'll grow up to be a shuai ge next time.

anywayz.. is the world gona end soon? for real? with all the talks about the solar theory and all. also, the flu viruses gets stronger each time it strikes.. when will it ever stop? no epidemic this time... pandemic! guess we all have to juz enjoy every single dae as it passes. no excuses, no regrets.

life goes on.. & on..

2009-04-08T22:22:00.002+08:00

work has been crazy.. & dusty. so many site walks and appointments. hopefully able to close my 1st 2 deals.. after they sign. & no.. i have no commission. better to work like this.. coz not $$ driven. dislike materialistic motivations as it changes work ethics. but i've also tasted my 1st let-down. they say its common in this trade. say until the sky so high.. promise to do a gd concept. i supported it although there were objections. & i presented so confidently on their behalf, only to end up getting a change of mind. oh well.. just my luck. it happens.

commitment is so questionable. you can say it but dun mean it. only thru' actions will you noe if its truly there. trustably there. i'll juz have to take their words more lightly.. dun pin so much hopes until they have signed on the line. well.. work can be damn tiring.. but at least time pass faster. they're making me choose.. sooner or later. i'm supposed to go back to where my headcount is.. but they are hinting me to stay. i like both. pros & cons for both. i realli can't pick. pls juz give me an order & i will follow. i hate making choices remember... argh.

all that aside.. long wkend ahead! tmr ah neo's bdae. she is miss mafan. but at least she makes the choices.. after changing her mind a few times.. like restaurant, present, cake. after that maybe ktv.. maybe not. maybe df.. maybe not. but fri definitely df i guess. sat will meet up my galz liao! so wasted.. could have met my little blossomz juz now but didn't see her sms in time. argh. nvm.. we make it up on sat k? with lisa.. i've been waiting far too long. kekekeke

following wkend got concert to attend. so exciting! but am i still invited? oh well.. things can change. the mind is fickle.. the mind is playful. i shall not predict wat others are thinking. the onli thing i can ask for is.. truthfulness. that's all that matters. =)

dreamz..

2009-03-29T22:18:00.003+08:00

been having lots of dreams lately. they say u dun sleep well when u dream. even for sweet dreams? not that i'm having sweet ones.. but at least that explains the dark circles. rough remembrance, faded recollection. dun bother asking wat dreams they were... coz i can't remember them aldy. maybe i should start writing them down once i wake up. that way, i may be able to decipher some of my subconscious thoughts.

are pisceans really tHaT dreamy? or is it self-fulfilling prophecy. sometimes i wish i'm realli not... so i wouldn't phase out every now & then. have u ever felt like there's something bothering u someway.. somehow... but yet u juz don't know exactly wat? well.. maybe that's the feeling when u're messed up or stressed out. either way.. sleeping is the antidote. come to think of it.. maybe the answers are in the dreams? oh well.. no one knows.

work has been crazy. hectic. appmts after appmts. site walks and lots of talking. time is moving way ahead of me. i dun belong to the fast-paced. no choice but to adapt. i wonder when i'll ever find myself. find my safe, comfort zone to tide me thru' life. when... how... where. pls show me the way... fate.

my bdae'09

2009-03-15T14:50:00.042+08:00

this yr's celebration was turned down a notch. no more hype about making it big... didn't seem that important for an official celebration. but there still was. most importantly is to meet up & gather with significant pple in my life. pple who made a difference in my existence.

the very 1st was with cheebongz. although kinda early.. but that was part of the plan. juz to gather & have dinner. no special occasion.. haha to me, thats enough. since last yr i didn't manage to fake it.. this yr i did! everyone's been quite busy now... especially when i've graduated. realli missed the times we had.. motoring club & all. juz have to look forward to next drive trip i guess. didn't want them to feel obliged in any way. so meeting up was aldy a great gift. giving me their time.. when i noe they're so busy! hahaha they never fail to make me laugh.

next, catered for a family dinner. thanx to mui's dad for all the yummy food. mum got all relatives and guests to gather but didn't specify the occasion. gifts still came nevertheless. noisy and hyper cousins.. cute nephew crawling all ard. great warmth filled me in this family reunion.

5th was a double celebration with my talented fren.. his bdae 1st then mine after midnite. went jewelbox for dinner... even the toilet was so nice lo. & not as expensive as i thought.

managed to catch the changing colour of the sky when it suddenly started raining. being so high up.. it was an amazing experience. wind blew strong instantaneously with the sky getting visibly brighter... and then slowly the rain came. not something we'll realise on grd level.

6th was glad's blue-theme 21st bdae chalet. unlike past yrs, couldn't realli celebrate together with her this time. coz her chanel cake with 2 big 1 small candle.. was too flattering.. u see?

had great arm exercise with wii... which vie is totally addicted now. wished i could have stayed over... but had doc appmt early next morn. sorrie glad... but i know u had a smashing great time. tiring ya? hahaha hope u liked the cupcakes! super sweet i noe.. but cupcakes are meant to be sweet la. hahah i juz love the tiny fishy... so cute! i wish i knew how to make... but i'm not as li hai as thea.. hehe

thanx u girls for the surprise.. i would have jumped if i wasn't distracted by didi's call. hahaha it was a hilarious moment.

so next dae was THE dae. ironically, went for doc appmt which took ages. spend some alone quality time... which is nice every once in a while. did the things i wanna do & bought the things i needed. so convenient to travel.. although rented. anywayz.. met up with my galz & guyz at mykii.

food was quite a letdown... but atmosphere was nice. our table too long.. as usual. the triple celebration was triple the fun.. more so towards the later part. watched she's not that into u.. my 2nd time but i still enjoyed it. so meaningful and touching. chilled at the preview lounge.. a "VIP" place all to ourselves. if only the tv was working. but then again.. less distractions.. more quality time.

juz simply love them.

sunday went for movie to fully max usage of car... before returning it. kinda gotten too used to easy travel that monday was so lazy travelling public. monday's supposedly sof gathering was not as successful. we ate waraku then snow ice! i wonder how come snow ice is not a BIG thing.. its so nice! love it love it. had a surprise gift from fesq colleagues... so sweet of them. didn't expect them to know at all. so, wed meet up with sharon for bdae dinner.. which she planned aldy. treat me too many sticks of yakitori & we ended up eating for like 2 hrs. but we did lots of updating. or maybe i should say gossiping. oOopz. gotta thank her for helping me to customise the fishy cupcakes. she's such a nice "boss"... hope she's still there when i return to that office.

thurs was with jc buddies. thanx to ying for the elmo balloon.. making me pai seh was her intention so i wouldn't feel pai seh for her. =P if it was any bigger, i would have made her hold it for me instead. had nydc as there wasn't much choice in wheelock. shared work troubles and all.. pretty much lots of talking. oh manz.. didn't take grp pic.. argh. i gotta start bringing my cam out. make it a habit. after that met up ny colleagues. since almost all of us left ny... sort of like a staff gathering. will never forget working together there... our 2nd home. but so much has changed there.. everything's different now. not as fun as last time. we've all moved on. more outings to come.. ex-nydcians!

then fri came again.. and its DF time! been weeks since we went. this time few pple turned up and songs were quite different. new singers? but it was ironically fun. maybe coz the boiler experience after that was too overwhelming. we entertained ourselves by watching those "amazing" dancers. realli dun understand wat they thinking. if they're drunk? or juz totally slutty & mad. they dun look drunk though.. so, oh well. wow.. it was realli unbelievable. hahaha

yesterdae went to watch movie again... road to witch mountain. enjoyed watching their supernatural powers... and "the rock" was damn funny la. went to catch man u vs liverpool at paul laner. so exciting.. i guessed big. should have bet la! 4-1 leh.. quite big lo. hahhaa man u realli not on form.. tzewin must be so sad. oh well.. win some lose some. this comes with life.

alright.. work is a challenge. every single dae. like fighting war when the mall's opening. let me continue fighting.. i hope my dreamy thoughts will not veer me off course.

time...

2009-03-01T13:39:00.005+08:00

sometimes i feel like time is passing faster than i am. somehow everythings is so fast-paced that i'm trying to catch up. will i ever be able to... given my laid back nature. i realli wonder...

realli wanna learn cake decor manz... which of course requires time & $$. i will... somedae. i have to. its one of the things i have interest in... but definitely too late for a career in. coz my life didn't go that direction from the start.. haha this kinda things need a buffer time... a time to throw $$ in & pick up from scratch. this kind of free time... aldy passed. maybe i'll juz have to find a way to fit it in someday...

twilight craze: i'm into my 4th bk of twilight.. can't wait for the movies to be out. came across some pics at a shop.. was somehow juz drawn towards them. think edward's stare is juz so breath-taking... & the beauty in bella... so much more real in movies. which makes reading easier to visualize. oh manz.. how was i ever so caught up in such fantasies. must be the movie characters... they're definitely famous now.. for sure. confessions of a shopaholic.. another must-watch movie.

oh well.. its the 3rd month again. yesterdae treat cheebongs dinner.. at least no obligations for them this time. i did it! haha watched marley & me.. its so funny & touching. its alwayz hard to say goodbye.. especially when its a chapter in your life. so true. been watching alot of movies recently.. cinemas getting richer. times are bad... i gotta remember that.

living on the edge

2009-02-22T14:26:00.005+08:00

sometimes feeling like i'm living on the edge... like everything's so uncertain. gona fall anytime. why can't life be more stable and absolute in some aspects. i hate changes. when one starts to get comfortable in the environment... changes will offset all the balance. didn't expect to click with my mentor so well... but then she'll be leaving soon. somehow feels like it all wun be as smooth as i thought. anyway i'm gona shift to another office temporarily. even more uncertain. haven't even sign on wat i was supposed to. new hr handling my case ah... haiyo. feeling so lost in all these changes.

but met up with ex-colleagues for ktv.. dinner... mj. went to HAD active day yesterdae. guess i wasn't prepared enough.. for all the recognition. was glad to see everyone.. saw so many familiar faces. reminiscing the good memories.... of course wished that i could have been part of it all. going there juz reminded me of how much i missed them & worklife balance there. oh well... there's only that much i can do now. my mind's wandering off...

was taken aback by the feedback. never knew my actions would imply something otherwise. some pple realli think too much. the mind's too creative. guess its tiring for all parties involved. how i wish i could reconcile the broken relations. the problems i didn't cause but are linked with somehow. i know its none of my biz... but i hate to be drawn in as part of the equation. there's realli nothing. hope its clear. no expectations pls. no judgements pls. my view on things didn't change... all the same. its all better this way.

precious weekends

2009-02-08T13:21:00.024+08:00

have been trying to tune back my body clock to office hrs. the 2 weeks break was too much of a heaven for me that now its kinda torturing. think i've gotta get used to this lifestyle. work's not gona end on time, as wat i observe. but time will past fast in that cubicle. its only the 1st week & i'm aldy reminiscing precious weekends.

well.. guess it was gd timing. went for D&D... kinda not prepared but it was a gd experience. speech & more speech. but the entertainment after that was great. the magician was incredibly gOod la. tricks were jawdropping & all were impressed.. by the sound of the wAhs & applause. the lucky draws were generous.. extremely. countless prizes which makes me think if the market was really tHat bad. no luck anywayz. food was ok.. but the free flow bread kept us filled. went walas after that.. our usual fri weekly affair. occasional change in venue. this time was so short coz held up. sorry babes.. will make it up next wk? hehehe

nus gathering was great. besides macho yiru... the rest were all the same. steamboat buffet was a little too much so we went for some walking after that. hiked up to henderson waves. great views and cooling weather. although not as breathtaking as the peak in hk, but still reasonably good for sg. wish i could have joined them for bowling but time was limited.

tricia showed us baby clips which i couldn't help but burst out laughing. this is damn cute la! think he is realli realli tired. finally at ease in the end...

and below is my ultimate favourite! incredibly adorable. never fails to brighten my day. =D

alright..dun be shocked but.. i'm gona do some reading. hooked onto twilight. dunno which other book can ever capture my interest this much. =P

another start.

2009-02-01T16:09:00.002+08:00

2nd feb marks the start of something new. so unpredictable. hopefully something better. not that the previous wasn't gd.. i realli miss the frenz, sports and worklife balance. this sacrifice gotta be good. this new environment will be totally different... i have lowered my expectations so as not to be disappointed. i will survive. i have to. don't wanna go thru' all that again.

anyway.. had a smashing gd time these 2 weeks. too short as alwayz.. but i shall not be greedy. gd enough. with countless outings and gatheringz after sun down. daytime spend time taking care of cute little nephew. think i spend sufficient time at home & outside... in my opinion la. i tried to balance ok. =P think parents are used to my absence.. so these 2 weeks is like added plus points to the filial daughter chart. yay~

too many pics to upload.. getting lazy. juz know that i had lotsa fun will do. hahaha i'm excited abt tmr.. nervous too. hope tonite's louhei will bring me luck. will be the 3rd one this cny... and 1 more with capna on tue. wooo hooo~ uncertainties make the mind run wild. 2 daes ago i was told of my 1st 4 months "attachment" to another office. oh manz.. y so sudden change. but it sounds interesting... i'll juz keep hoping. omg omg omg...

cny'09... mOo~

2009-01-28T16:20:00.003+08:00

had a simple tuan yuan fan on cny eve. finally the full family present under one roof. little jon brought us together i guess. bcoz of his constant attention, bro had to move back with us... juz in time for xmas onwards. its more crowded here now. babysitting can be so fun.. but onli sometimes. hahah its so cute watching him smile and laugh. the innocence and pureness in the laughter... something that gets lesser as we grow up.

anywayz.. reunion dinner was realli simple but with yummy and rare dishes. read more of twilight before going to simz place after that for more snacking and tv-watching. left at midnite coz she had to wake up early the next dae... so nice of her hosting us and filling us to our brims! next, made a trip to river angbao which ended up closed! how come so early? midnite finish? it used to be like till 2-3am! disappointed lo. so after much tu-ing.. managed to find a suitable movie & timing available.. & we rushed to the cathay. practially chionged there. managed to get there juz in time to book tix, buy popcorns & went in. inkheart... so fantasy! nice and touching i felt. missed a little of the front... so started off abit lost. but overall its nice.. of course with a happy ending.

chu1 was the regular visiting... greeting.. eating.. toking. was back after lunch... alwayz tired out after that. its a weird trend. had dinner home before popping by at river angpao for some snacks then going for mj session at vie's later. great start to cow yr... won a little. looks like not a bad yr after all the predictions. keke next dae had a hard time waking up. the usual morning visit to dad's fren's place on chu2. but rushing back a little coz expecting visitors. its fascinating to see relatives/nieces/ cousins all growing up so fast. u see them onli once a yr.. & u can realli tell the difference.

went to karen's place for our ny gathering... happens every yr. but this yr with some partners.. so not entirely ny pple onli. it'll be great if can gather all ny pple.. new, old, into a big reunion. how great.. but its alwayz hard to gather all together. oh well.. juz make do with the best we can. played wii while we waited for more to arrive.. then steamboat. food was great.. especially the cheeze toufu! too much excess though. wonder if they eventually finished them while we fishes went to pick up the other balance beam. keke ban luck... 2 rich bankers at the end. they realli in luck lo! its weird that not many lose... & they won so much? someone's maths must be wrong. haha went to catch wedding game at midnite... occupied the whole row. i expected the show to be meaningless... but it turned out not bad la. proves that lower expectations brings about more satisfaction. hehehe

more visiting this sat.. jc gathering too. last week flew past.. this week's gona end soon. argh!! i'm getting nervous. onli left a few more daes to enjoy! make the best of it! mOooooo...

its hard to say goodbye

2009-01-15T16:28:00.002+08:00

todae is the day. finish up the last bit... & went for a final lunch. it was supposed to be my treat.. but they insisted. oh well.. its my turn the next time we meet for catching up ya? i am bad at saying goodbye... i don't have parting speeches to make.. juz a simple quiet bye. so shocked to receive the 7-11 bolster i've been hesitating to buy... all thanx to my mentor. how sweet! & also the minnie & card i got from my TOs. so touched lo. it was realli a pleasant surprise. made it even harder for me to go.

previous nite doing duty.. walked around office to appreciate the environment. started to feel the sadness of leaving. todae.. got many wishes from them... & finally said my goodbyes and takecarez before i left. wat a day... of mixed emotions.

2 weeks is all i have. its long enough... but i noe it'll pass real fast. will meet them again...for sure. already made sure they include me in future gatheringz. can't wait!!! cheerz to a new start. unpredictable but exciting.

a month to remember..

2009-01-07T21:01:00.005+08:00

january is the start of every new yr. but this time its definitely a month like no other. a carefree month. its the kind that u can enjoy to the max and not worry about ur next direction. yet u wouldn't want this kinda freedom so often. if u noe wat i mean...

finally meet up those cheebongz. its like the longest time. they still as crappy.. if onli big head was there... wanted to kaypo and dig for some info. not that i enjoy suan-ing.. i noe can't win... but i want my revenge! over eat la.. fish & bo then b&j.. exploded. again again pls... pro organizer. =P yesterdae watched bedtime stories.. so fantasy la. although i expected more stories.. it was funny enough. realise got many movies out... too many! movies eat alot of my $$... i should start to control. but i juz love to watch movies... shitz.

starting to sleep late again. thats bad... but it also means i'm havoc-ing again. managed to maintain slp-early-wakeup-early lifestyle a few months back... but i guess i'm back to sq one. this month.. cannot la! can't slp early even if i wanted to. hah~ excuse me for this month k... i'll have to max out before i restart work. entering an unknown environment.. totally different from the comfort zone now. but i'll handle that challenge next month.

juz glad that no more restrictions on moonlighting in this new contract. back to 2nd home.. yay! familiar faces back to hv...keelim & eddie! but hope the shuffle wun mess everything up. well.. gotta see if got slots anyway... after so many staff shifted here. i miss working... serving customers and preparing orders. expect changes though.. new menu.. new faces. juz hope i've got free time to work manz. i certainly want to.. but time may not permit. oh ya.. 1 more.. hope she's ok. ban luck is realli addictive. cny coming... excusable.

start of 2009

2009-01-04T15:47:00.003+08:00

1st post in '09. this yr didn't think of any resolutions. juz another yr went past. ended '08 by playing games at lisa's house. veri homely and comfy. food.. alcohol... taboo... pictionary & dvds after that. its the company that made a simple countdown so meaningful.

another major change. '08 ended with a signature and '09 with a tender. its quite coincidental... how all these came about. initially planned for this process to happen earlier... but fate intervened on its occurrence by the switch of the calendar yr. its hard to anticipate the uncertainty... but its even harder to say goodbye. despite the bad economy... still gotta grab this opportunity. coz i know i'll regret giving up this chance. guess the scope would definitely be more interesting and less depressing. but sure to have different challenges. i juz wanna be more of myself. maybe this is my new yr's resolution.

sometimes i feel so bogged down with the complexities in life that i juz run away from it. i see it in the decisions i make. but i know i can't shun from it all... so i'll do wat i think is best.

ever felt guilty for something that u didn't do? like the situation has unknowingly rolled you into being part of it when u didn't even want ur involvement in the 1st place. all i want is to return to a familiar environment where i can identify with... a place where part of my life was & still is. but i guess my presence would cause unhappiness to others. hurtful.. but its not within my control. i respect that.. so i shouldn't make things anymore difficult. don't like the feeling that i'm the reason someone else is suffering in silence. i'm a girl too.. i know its never easy. but i assure u.. there's realli nothing. nothing to feel uneasy about. coz if u know me well enough... u'll understand. at that place... i feel we're all juz one big family. we're all there for the same reason. hope u'll all see that.

this christmas...

2008-12-25T14:13:00.010+08:00

dec is a month of outingz. lots of them. this month has been super fruitful. 7 bdaes.. 10km run... des's dance... zouk out... 4 other gatheringz... jc reunion chalet... 1 fren's wedding... 6 xmas gathering... and 1 job offer. so much fun & excitement... great way to end 2008!~ hmm.. but still haven't decided wat to do for new yr countdown~! gotta end it with a blast! =P

too many outingz to highlight.. so i'll juz let pics do the talking.

oh well.. yrs passing real fast. more memories... more fun. but also many obstacles here & there. juz pick ourselves up & move on i guess. its like every yr end... u look back & u realise so much has happened & changed. another path into our journey called life. so lets "get a life" and make the best of it! hahah each yr brings another mystery. where do we go from here? its a question left unanswered.

Merry Xmas & Have a HAPPY new yr~!

ding ding ding... hohoho~

2008-12-15T21:17:00.003+08:00

love the december feeling... bdaes, xmas, new yr countdown.. wooohooo~

its so hard to save $$ in dec... so i think i'll give up trying. too much things to buy & do! outingz.. gatheringz... and more get-togetherz. i alwayz want to be present for every outing... but there are juz too little weekends in a month. y alwayz clash... sighz. 1 thing i missed out the most... so much... drive trip! seeing the pics... i soOo want to be there! argh... chee bongz. so sian. shitz. go again lei!

sacrificed it for Foreign Bodies Production. des... u better feel honoured! but it was great la... hyper performers with a story behind every dance. well done! although couldn't go together with the rest... but at least i managed to catch the proclaimed last performance. keke hmm... seems like i missed out some info on that dae? to be updated this wed. yay~ galz niteout... finally! anyway.. zouk'out was the other reason for the sacrifice. it was interesting.. and not aa squeezy as i thought it would be. many stalls.. and the beach was bustling with activities. great experience of clubbing by the beach! worth it? hmm... dunno lei. i'm greedy.. want all. still wish i had gone with cheebongz. i noe la... too late la. added to my regret list. sorry nusmc. can see u all had a great time! i'm so jealous...

well... play aside. opportunities came knocking. hope i make the right choices. life's so unpredictable. many things happening... sad ones happy ones. oh well... life goes on. juz remember that things alwayz happen for a reason. fated. dun lose hope... gotta be strong k. still got us! that's wat frenz are for... that's wat i am for. =D

was struck by extreme headache last fri. so bad i juz napped in office... couldn't take it. that once-in-a-while strike i get on certain "lucky" daes. hate the feeling of puking. its crazy. am i the only one experiencing such long long time once attack? thankfully it goes away after some good sleep. chest pain was something new... but hope its juz discomfort. think my life expectancy not veri high... choi! but ya. i'm prepared somewhat. so gotta fully optimise my life. came across many inspirational emails. saying that most pple spend their time waiting. wait till earn enough $$ before filial piety? wait for the right time? wait here wait there. until one dae u realise that sometimes things change before u can execute ur so-called plan. guess this is wat subtly guides me... thats y i fully max out my energy every dae. both good & bad.. as everything goes. coz u'll never know wat's gona happen tmr. impt to plan ahead too.. but dun lose sight of things ard u now.

alright...time to dream... ^_^

i run?

2008-12-07T22:06:00.007+08:00

these are the rare times where i run. great eastern... shape... & now standchart. i hate running actually... but to run with my galz.. sure! no problem. apart from the nicer sceneries... the motivation and encouragement of running together juz feels satisfying. we have upgraded! from 5 to 10. wat improvement in our timing... for the 1st 5k. halved it! our accomplishment! amazing... we're getting fit w/o training? weird huh. but last 5k was more leisure & talk. if not for my limping... could have chionged with u all for the last few km. gotta go cure this prolong irritant for good.

somehow exercise realli relaxes oneself. after the run.. tired.. but later feel so refresh & energetic. had yummy lunch at xinwang hk cafe b4 some thawing at starbucks alfresco w/o ordering anything. simple but fulfilling sunday. maybe its the long weekend feeling. so glad tmr is PH! no mondae bluez. this december is moving real fast... many gatherings coming up~ time to go xmas shopping... wat to buy? lets countdown to xmas & the big 09!

numb-ness

2008-11-30T15:29:00.003+08:00

so numb towards these feelings. like a tape replaying the same track every now & then. reaches a point where i juz dun wanna think anymore. coz whichever choice you make juz seems so wrong.. & its impossible to think that anything is right. stubborn or intuition... can't differentiate its magnitude. y can't things go smoothly... y can't things juz be simple.

life is so unpredictable. some pple juz happen to be at the wrong place, at the wrong time. like the sporean in india. there's still so much ahead of her... but circumstances juz change like that. like the 20 yr old who died in an accident... with no witnesses to "avenge" her. she wasn't even given a chance at all. & yet pple like us... who have chances and opportunities right in front of us... choose not to take them. its juz so unfair.

i dun know what to believe in anymore. since when has simplicity became difficult. where do u draw the line of being nice to pple & yet not misleading them. i guess maybe there isn't such a line after all. coz the mind is wild no matter how pure the heart is. juz hope things turn out fine eventually.

KL getaway..

2008-11-25T21:12:00.015+08:00

it was quite a last min plan. but the short & fulfilling trip was so worth it. took luxury tours and travel's coach. damn shiok. chair big & comfy.. with individual tv to keep us occupied thru'out the 5-6 hr journey to & fro. so many channels! well... movie marathon goes like this...

On the way

1. She's the Man

2. Secret

3. Step Up

4. Just Follow Law

Coming back
5. Taiwan episodes with Ru Hua...hilarious!

6. Money No Enough 2

some mixed music tracks

although all movies watch b4 le.. but they were still so entertaining. reached hotel istana at midnite... & settled in. biggest hotel toilet i've seen... too bad we didn't have the time to soak in the bath tub. Saturdae was so packed.. luckily hotel was located centrally. after the wide spread buffet breakfast.. walked to Lot10 for quick window shopping. then sungei wang followed by times sq. sugei wang reminded me of lucky plaza somehow. pple say kfc is a must-eat in m'sia.. but we couldn't taste the difference. hahah managed to secretly buy a toblerone cheezecake for micky. its a simple surprise celebration for her... hope she didn't mind. guess she was more interested in shopping till she drop!

next, we went to times sq.. & was shocked when we saw the size of the shopping mall. at 1st.. we onli saw one side of it. like maybe 5 storeys. but when we walked to the other side... there was another 7 storeys up! it was amazingly huge~ & at another side.. there was a theme park within the mall. realli wanted to sit the roller coaster la! but we didn't have time~ haiz. must go there again somedae. so we shopped for shoes & clothes & more shoes. could see john's energy depreciating with time... kekeke we didn't manage to cover everything coz its madness... no matter how fast we shopped still canot conquer the whole mall. but at least we were satisfied with our "yield".

had cheap jap food for dinner & the waiter there was so nice. drew a map to illustrate our journey to chinatown by foot. so thankful otherwise we're quite lost. so we dropped off our stuff back in hotel & micky got her surprise cake from her daddy! he's so sweet la... made arrangements for the hotel staff to room service a pistachio chzcake! so yummy... hehehe daddy's little girl. =) then.. continued on our nite walk to chinatown. heard of the high possibility of pickpockets there... but we were prepared. it looked juz like our chinatown! same de la. but cheaper of course. we bought jackets & cardholders. great place to bargain. so value for $$... =D and we had herbal jelly & liang teh... so cooling~

after all that walking... we took a cab to sultan ismail. 1 of the popular clubbing area which was near our hotel. beach club... thai club... but we settled for aloha cum honolulu. rm30 entrance fee. went honolulu 1st. they was playing trance/house music. thumping loudly.. so much louder than the usual. & the lights... so nice!!

but the music was getting a little deafen-ing... so we went over to aloha. liveband! i'm alwayz impressed by philippino singers... their voices are so powerful & nice! they sang english & malay songs. enjoyed their vocals... even for the malay songs. sounded so meaningful... but left after some time coz didn't understand wat they singing... hmm. slept so well that nite. actualli both nites in the hotel... so shiok... no problem sleeping at all. juz went to lala land in no time.. while micky was packing. she's like packing every nite... u can imagine how many things she bought.

sunday was a short dae. after breakfast.. went to petronas towers. spend lotsa time trying to get the best shot of the twin towers. after many trial & error.. managed to take us with petronas! oh... didn't have time to go KL tower.. but we spent some time trying to "hold" it the previous nite. hah~

not easy ok... had to walk far & take from low. real low. wanted to go up for petronas view.. but the next tix available was 6+pm of which we would have been on the coach back to sg. should have bought tix the dae b4... too popular aldy! so nvm lo... went into KLCC for "ah-tas" shopping. machiam paragon. so we spend our time in the more affordable isetan. where john's shopping took place. his returns were the best la. the shirt... pants... clothes for his niece & nephew. all so nice! anywayz.. we were running out of time.. so did some food shopping b4 making our way back to hotel. got onto a taxi... rm15 back to hotel. along the way... the driver intro-ed this Cocoa Boutique to us & we managed to negotiate with him. choc factory and then back to hotel... still rm15. great deal huh. didn't get to watch them make choc... but we did some choc tasting & bought lotsa chocz back. the choc display was damn nice too...

had to quickly pack stuff to check out...so our lunch was hot instant noodles in our cold hotel room. shiokness. then... its back onto the comfy coach for the next 6+ hrs. jammed at tuas... so many coaches going back to sg la. so ya... home sweet home...reached at 11pm. went for frog porridge with long lost fren before turning in for the nite.

the trip passed so fast. missing it aldy. too much walking... feet sore again. lao mao bing. mondae on nite duty... so couldn't see doc. todae went to raffles tcm. wrong choice. usualli tcm is effective... so i thought go specialist to figure out wats the problem of my recurrences. to my disappointment.. juz 4 needles & a little heat. no medicine... no bandage. costing a bomb. $96 for that & not much of a gd explanation... felt so cheated. after some walking... pain was back. couldn't take it... ended up in polyclinic. muscle/ligament sprain. consultation so much better... clearer... mUch cheaper & medicine to rub. 2 dae mc even. oh well... guess i juz made the wrong choice. argh. great lesson learnt. juz gona rest... hope it gets better. oh well... the price to pay for walking too much or the way i walk? exert pressure on wrong areas? i realli dunno... haiz. wat's wrong with me... so much problemz.

everything's gona be alright..

2008-11-19T00:04:00.002+08:00

life is a mystery. u'll never know wat to expect. there's a saying... "yesterdae is history. tmr is a mystery. todae is a gift.. that's y it is called present." & so if i may... i'd change history to memory. coz watever happened before.. has brought us to where we are today. it is to be remembered and treasured (of course onli applicable to those worthy).

no matter wat happened in the past... stand back up. learn from it. & this is where the present comes. yesterdae leads to now & now will lead to tmr. we'll never know wat's gona happen tmr... so juz take it as it comes. i am not much of a planner.. but trying hard now to plan ahead. coz sometimes i feel realli lost w/o a direction.

enough nonsensical analysis on life. enough emo-ing. can get really tiring. but when the boat reaches the dock, boat will auto straight.. translate correctly? should be understandable la hor. anywayz... everything will be alright... no matter how tough. there's a solution to everything... its juz a matter of time. tmr gotta bowl again... hope we'll be on-form coz its the finals. after that gona mambo... its been a long time since we went there. so excited abt this weekend's getaway... not gona shop much though. juz go & breathe in some KL air. hmm... dec is approaching fast. can u hear the xmas bells ringing? i can.. =P

still in disbelief

2008-11-15T17:57:00.006+08:00

lies... deceit. trust? how? i am speechless. didn't want to find out this way. if it were to come out from ur mouth.. things would have been so different. its not the topic.. its the channel. i'm fine with the info... very happy in fact. juz dun understand who u r anymore. but i guess there's no turning back. this time... its realli deep.

pls readers.. dun get the wrong idea. my past posts are not meant for who u think its meant for. after hearing the news... utter disbelief and shock. yet feeling glad somehow. hurt? wat do u think? guess i've juz wasted all my worrying on nothing. things may have to change now? HAH.. sudden change in thinking? u caught me by surprise. feel so disappointed that ur reactions change so drastically. all in a single nite. i applaud u.

since circumstances have changed.. some things can't be said directly. so i'll juz blog it down and hope u'll see this. i sincerely zhu fu. i have alwayz wanted this day to come... u dunno how happie i am for u. but maybe if u were more truthful... i wouldn't feel so pissed and uneasy. doesn't matter now... this is the best it can get. u will be fine.. i noe u will. u have juz affirmed all my thoughts. thanks. thanks alot. for everything. all the best

choices

2008-11-10T00:07:00.005+08:00

life's a journey. many times we take the wrong path to find the right one. applies to all aspects ba.. work, love, watever that requires a choice to be made. which is everything u do. some don't have to trial & error so much... but some juz keep searching. in the end.. its the expectations i guess. but things happen.. & u may reach a point where both paths are wrong. somehow. so wat to do? juz pick one & hope it turns out fine... as time goes by.

pple say "change" is a powerful word. but i think "choice" is the ultimate. coz everything u do.. who u are... behave... and turn out to be... is all about choice. & whether or not u want to adapt to change is also a choice. change is inevitable... but choice is even more unavoidable rite? coz eventualli everyone has to make a choice for everything. even stuff that occurs unfairly to u.. & u had "no choice"... u'll still have to choose how u wanna deal with it rite?

i admit that i hate making choices. coz i'm afraid of making wrong ones which will end up in regrets. but i know i can't run away from this freaking powerful word. so i gotta set my mind straight. know wat i want. been thinking hard on wat i want out of life... wat i wanna achieve. although nothing ambitious... but happiness is the key. I would never give up who i am for wat i do. & no one else should.

there's alwayz a choice. make the right ones pls.

lovelorn...

2008-10-25T23:02:00.003+08:00

ever felt stupid for a moment? feeling like you gave so much emotional attention to something that's not even existent? suffering from unrequited love? pls think hard before it gets too deep.

wat makes u sure? wat affirms ur feelings? is it juz a beautifully painted scenario which doesn't coincide with reality or a chance not given to paint wat's to be. such don't come by often. but when it does... u wonder why it means so much. is it heart over mind or juz pure dreaming? either way... there's no reciprocation. maybe its a sign to give up.

is it fate or coincidence? the moment u felt that all should be erased.. a ray of hope appears. a sudden moment of pure happiness and craziness i might add. miracles do happen... but for reasons not anticipated. juz not as you hoped. disappointment makes u think if the miracle was ever a good thing. if the sacrifices and immediate reaction was worth it.

so vexed by wat can be.. should be.. and meant to be. why is it that pple choose the unattainable and doubt the given. it juz shows how selfish things can get. don't ever mix dreamz and reality. coz dreamz are hopes and reality can be so damn cruel.

untie this love knot.

expressions suppression...

2008-10-19T14:27:00.010+08:00

so many outingz... had tons of fun. so much to say. so much feelings. but somehow can't express. shouldn't say so much. realise that sometimes word can spread.. dunno when & how. hope it doesn't do bad. if its beneficial then i'll be realli glad. rejection is drowning my hopes. oh well.. i should stop this craziness.

with all the support and encouragement received. by surprise. thx. so touched. songs & letters...confessions & distractions... its all a mess. juz hoping for simplicity. still trying to read the signs. pls make it happen... or maybe its not my turn.

words can't express. pictures will. its not wat you do that matters... its who u're with.

busy? nah...

2008-10-12T01:04:00.010+08:00

this month is like the ultimate bdae month. 9 bdaes fall within the 1st 3 weeks of this month. overwhelming. lets relive the moments.... 3rd-5th oct: karen & althea combined aranda chalet cum bbq. 1st time no leftovers from bbq... simple one ba. slacked ard the pit... breathing in bbq smoke. and did lotsa catching up... especially with "mary"! hahha back in chalet... super shiok. got the "hotel" feeling and played cards for the 1st nite. slept early coz next morning had volley PSIG... which we tried our best but didn't go far. good experience though. love the jersey~ no. 5 pls.

so after volleying, went for a quick bite with rog & christian. he & his wife-to-be so cute la. so xingfu... hahah & saw their newly decorated house previously. white & spacious.. so nice! hmm... can't wait to decorate mine. still long way more... hehe anywayz... made my way back to aranda for a chalet all-to-myself as some went www and others went fishing earlier. played psp & enjoyed time alone... felt super relaxed la! kekeke went to nyny for dinner b4 catching house bunny. the huge burger... candy floss... oOoo. movie was real funny... not as bimbotic as i thought. kinda meaningful actually. wanted to mj that nite... but short of 1 leg. bdae gers were too tired anywayz... so all were lazy bumz & slept.

couldn't make it for kudus's celebration which clashed with the chalet. so sorrie manz! how i wish i could be split into 2 sometimes. haiz. so ya.. ended that weekend with another LUP duty. next was yeefi's turn on tue. me & veda met her for dinner to celebrate... can't seem to surprise her. i give up. hahha ended up writing her card in front of her. & she couldn't stop decorating the comment card later. had ok-food and superb-dessert. wed met up with yiru... her new perms & braces! still so pretty & motherly. keke had yummy bread for dinner... was called pani or something. can't remember. my memory is getting worse day by day. went to union sq... so interesting la! u see pple all enthu-ly dancing salsa. also saw that kiap-kiap dance... eEee.. kaoz. although i dunno how to appreciate such music... but the dance was nice. teacher yiru & pat taught us the basics... but i was still pai seh.. as usual. may consider learning next time... maybe onli. depends... hahhaa after that.. .me & mic had further plans... guess...?

yep yep... see the huge tiger? went to st james for some chilling! she hasn't been there b4... so we went touring for the nite! sat at boiler for a while... with the oldies performance and the funny gay man. moved to dragonfly for some canto pop. sylvester was not bad. loved the techno and r&b during the intervals. think dragonfly was like the best la. power house was good too... but too many pple. managed to danced abit... but we juz gave up after the squeezing. thurs went for volley training. wanted to stay for the 2nd part of training but had "errands" to run. ended up in miscommunication & i missed all the fun post-its. argh. but the final product was impressive. think jordie must have been so touched with his decorated "present". hahaha anyway... rushed off to a wake. ate peanuts and more peanuts. heard some supernatural stories which i found veri amazing. knew radio would turn up.. knew he would hide. maybe i juz wish it would be different. so.. to make things easier... had to leave. i hope it helped. sorrie.

fri was alex cum john's bdae at brewerkz. had huge servings by the river. sweet chocolatey liquory cake... which made some tipsy. nah.. not so exaggerating la. so the 2 bdae gays.. oOopz.. i mean guys.. took pics like as if its their wedding. went to lunar for some canto pop. loud & high performance on level one... and pole dancers on level two. too bad upstairs no space... guyz only could watch the pole dancers on tv. the singers were good... songs picked were nice... mostly known. we played games in our cosy corner & managed to finish the bottle. didn't manage to get alex & john drunk... but they were high. still remember the moment of shouting from john... it was juz hilarious!

sat met leong, kwok & chris for some angmo ktv. hope chris didn't feel left out when we spoke in chinese. poor kwok... i would be lost if i were her. go with the flow girl... hehehe after that went hv for john's bdae with nus pple. i had a feeling that dinner would be at my 2nd home... & it realli was. although i had my objections... couldn't voice them out. didn't wanna go against the bdae boy's wish. so ya... quickly ate & left for walas. the unexpected jammed... great as alwayz. her voice is so powerful la. didn't have seats... so didn't stay long. not in the right mood anywayz.

am i alwayz busy? no. bdaes celebrations aside.. juz making myself real busy to seem occupied. if u think i'm busy then that's ur opinion. quite messed up. accepting the facts. partying like mad. seeing u just makes me ponder about stuff i shouldn't. wat happened? i dunno. i hope u see this... coz guess this is juz how it will be. i'd realli like to turn back. but when i think of the consequences... i'd think twice. u'll do the same... don't say u won't. it's really hard.. choosing between wat's right and wat's good. guess this is the best. i'm not as strong as u. u seem to be fine. i noe u can be. thanx for the gift... thanx for everything. its my fault. i'm sorry that i appeared... i'll try not to ever appear again....

urge to find...

2008-09-28T11:20:00.005+08:00

woke up todae with a sudden urge of wanting to find the meaning in life. somehow demoralised by yesterdae's daytime work. thankfully neo & ying were here to up my spirits. did a little therapeutic painting. went for icecream after dinner... & watched mama mia. wat a light hearted show. makes you feel so happy after that. maybe that's wat made me wake up feeling like i've gotta do something about my life. stagnant... dreadful at times.

still can't make up my mind to stay or go. i've gotta do something about this part of me that's holding me back. wat do i want to accomplish in life? life is short... gotta make the best out of it.

spell check pls. =P

fun flies fast...

2008-09-27T12:06:00.005+08:00

obs was great. too bad didn't get to play those challenges that i wanted to... like climbing high, flying or jumping. it wasn't in the schedule which had to cater to the organization. but the games they prepared were interesting... not as crappy as i thought. veri meaningful actually... revolved ard "shared values". so there was evaluation after every game. the raft was the funnest! great accomplishment. pics of our grp f1.. crapz. (couldn't think of anything better.. hahah) then its a last shot b4 leaving obs... & all-in on the bumpy boat ride back. can't spot the trainers rite... dun need to try.

thought i could go back to rest... but was recalled back for work. but it was better than feeling bad i guess. anywayz... gona join lotsa sports. decided to go for badminton as soon as i get my worklife balance approved. volleyball have been great... so fun la. arms starting to season from all the impact. but can't wait for trainings... coz tournaments coming up. bowling also gona start soon... so rusty. 1 week is too short... really.

next wed is PH! tues will be real fun... can't wait kekeke librans' chalet coming up. it has been damn long since we chalet-ed together. everyone's busy nowadaes... difficult to plan for all to be present. but don't worry... coz it'll be great. take it as it comes... wat's meant to happen, will happen ba. when expectations are low... the satisfaction will be much more. so don't expect too much... otherwise disappointment comes. it will be juz fine.... =)

progression is slow... or is there even any? i'm subtly determined... but lack experience. pls show me a sign... pls return my efforts. i'll keep hoping......

1 way... or another...

2008-09-17T23:45:00.004+08:00

so amazed when i saw the new ipod nano. so light! its hard to imagine there's technology in that slim thing. totally amazed by how their products get better and better. its impossible to have the newest... so i'm satisfied with my nano. thks guyz btw. hahahaha went to some cafe near nus for dinner. alex must have had a great dae... getting punked by those goOd frenz of his. wahahaha definitely something to remember. was juz a simple celebration... at least better than the initial dun-plan-to-celebrate idea. i think bdaes are meant to celebrate. 1 yr once only. but presents are getting harder to buy! preferences... needs... wants... not easy k! especially the one whose bdae is coming. endless list of things that cannot be bought. argh. not wanting/needing anything doesn't mean we won't have to get u anything alright. no angpaos dun worry. u watch it... HA HA HA

yesterdae went for volleyball. despite daphne's endless nagging... i still insisted. hahahaha i didn't betray netball ok... juz so happen it clashes sometimes. by right it won't. but i'll go netball on other tues la... anyway i'm a liability there mah. kekeke i've alwayz liked volley. so fun! apart from the swollen & blue-blacked arms after that. parents got a shock... thought i kena abused. oOopz. oh well... not used to the impact ba. watching the pros play.. amazed. reminds me of the sega volleyball game i used to play so often last time. blocking the smacks... juz in time & in the right position. pple are so nice... coaching me along the way. i have so much more to learn. so.. after that went for dinner at kovan area. both indecisive... chin chai. so ended up eating hokkien mee & over-eating all thanx to the dimsum i ordered. time should have moved slower... wish i could have been more normal. unsure of the familiarities. kept wondering if intuition was true... that there's juz emptiness. felt it. pls tell me its juz tiredness.

is it the past that spoils wat can be? i'm impressed by how some can give their all. wat drives them... wat is the thing that hooks? wat makes them so sure? i realli want to know. karma is showing... but can only rely on fate. maybe its juz not meant to be.. juz maybe i hope. if you knew u didn't exist... will you try? even if it means falling again... will you even try? some admire the strength of pursuit. some are envious of the "lucky ones" whom are pursued ever so dearly. but others may not agree with the same "lucky ones" whom are seen as being the bad ones instead. i've tasted both sides & both are tough. its not easy to give.... when the other doesn't receive. its a no-no. its over. i should juz stop trying.

Nus-Mitsubishi Challenge

2008-09-14T22:25:00.004+08:00

It took months of preparation.. nights of hardwork... lots of brain power... tons of planning... & it was over juz like that! realli think the hard work everyone put in was so damn worth it. of course the credit goes to a selected few... who put their heart, soul & effort in it. made sacrifices... endured irritants. anywayz... wat's impt now... great job manz! well done. li hai. pei fu.

i couldn't help much during the planning stage... so tried my best to contribute during implementation. hahahaha fri night joined them for preparation to event dae. after some final logistics touch-ups at punggol... went back to sch to put up banners to beautify the starting point. when i heard mr president's bad news... i knew that sleeping was not applicable. so we quickly rectified the problem.. & it started to drizzle. spirits were dampened... but not for long. as the sky got brighter... participants started coming in and our enthusiasm automatically came. for me la. could feel the excitement of the big event. the wet weather made things a little messy... but i guess heaven was on our side. drizzled on & off but it was good weather way ahead. there was the usual car horn-ing before start off and off they went! while completing some administrative details... a phonecall triggered our safety taskforce. they sprung into action. an unfortunate incident but luckily no casualties. slippery roads... that's y gotta be extra careful when driving!

i subaru-ed to src for a quick bath. luckily milan was free... otherwise i would've been so late. managed to reach there on-the-dot 10am. was it his subaru? nah... i didn't speed. did the set-up and thanked the man-y-zer for opening gmax especially early... juz for us! nash & peiying came soon after... and we slacked for quite some time. the guyz there so crap la... but veri entertaining though. keep requesting for their free kopi. some early teams came at 11+am to get their courage tested. some were realli onZ. dared to play... willing to pay xtra (at discounted prices) and simply did it as a team. at some point we were like marketing gmax... manyzer even said we could work there. hahaha later ard 2+pm.. slam! teams came in bunches.. queues got a little long. but the hype was definitely there. screams were genuine & fear was felt by looking. free advertising by the participants... as their screams drew many viewers. it was realli interesting to see participants taking up the challenge. all sorts of reactions... expressions & sounds. the FAQ : "which is more scary? bungy or swing?" well... i couldn't comment coz at that time onli sat bungy before. and the answer to that question was realli subjective. heard some say swing is more scary. but judging by the looks of it... some thinks the bungy is crazy. really gotta thank the gmax pple. poor guyz were so busy strapping & unstrapping the teams... one after another. under the hot sun... continuously for hours. had to treat them kopi & large bottles of 100+ to make up for the lost energy. realli grateful for their effort. got many galz ma... so i guess they're willing too. oOopz.

number of team-mates taking the challenge correlates to the number of points. some teams made their decisions by analyzing the screams... the visuals... the feedback... the price or even the points. mingled with some to calm their nerves or while they're waiting in the queue. feedback were positive and could tell they were all having fun. after seeing so many teams going up.. i'll still smile when i see them take off... feeling so excited for them. i realise viewers were all smiling too... its a natural reaction. well... lucky for us. manyzer was so nice to let us sit foc. sat bungy some time back b4 the event. it was damn fast & sudden. & the guyz can be cheeky... counting 5...4... then off u go. totally unprepared. screamed like siao... felt weightless up there. sHiOk! as for the swing... me & my 2 hyper volunteers sat the swing after all the teams have left. wOw i tell u... being pulled to the top.. was onli the beginning. if u're scared of heights... i warn u to think twice. but peiying was very daring... coz she sat although she has that fear of heights. she had no regrets after the ride btw. for the swing... it was not so sudden coz its manually operated. when the green light came on... 1 of us had to push the trigger to send us "viking" downwards almost vertically. that initial drop was madness... but dAmN super duper shiok! it felt realli good... real fast.. heading for the trees then the river. then u'll swing and enjoy the great view. personally, i felt the swing is definitely nicer. maybe its the view and the swinging motion, rather than the bungy's vertical thrust. felt so relaxed after the ride. will definitely ride again... but only if its not so ex. =P

after that... packed up & left. too bad my volunteers couldn't join the dinner that night. so made my way to orchidville at mandai. buffet-style function. the place was huge & the food was good! minor hiccups here & there... but we covered them up well.. i guess. hahaha dinner.. sponsor appreciation... prize presentations. pOof. before u know it... it's all over! participants left and de-brief. we all looked shag but there's that sense of satisfaction and relief. i'm starting to miss it already actualli. lastly, we split into grps to clear some logistics before heading home for a good rest. it was a real fun dae. re-play pls?

music is my life

2008-09-07T22:45:00.004+08:00

been hooked onto some songs recently. maybe its the music... plus the meaningful lyrics. Here are some i'd like to share. tastes may differ... but watever. its nice to me la. --> Ina - I wanted you. Rihanna - Take a bow. Rascal Flatts - What hurts the most. Nina - Someday. Luthur Vandross - I'd rather. Deutschland - Cry on my shoulder. Taylor Swift - Teardrops on my guitar. Oh... so many many more. Thankfully for my nano... can indulge into emo-ness.

can't imagine a life without music. it has tremendous power... the next to "love". it soothes and calms... it hypes and excites depending on genres. it can exaggerate emotions... it can change moods. it can be used for all sorts of occasions... be it alone or in groups. it can make a baby sleep... but can wake others. it irritates some while enjoyed by others. it accompanies and expresses.. in moments of our lives. a mood determinant or even a catalyst.

i'm not crapping. simply reflecting. i juz love music...

not peaking...

2008-09-02T22:12:00.002+08:00

bad occurences... sad experiences. currently not at my peak... when have i ever been anyway. bad news came... juz hope its not as serious as it seems. having as much fun while i still can. sounding like i'm gona die soon? nah... not yet.

know wat? haven't had tHaT kinda feeling for a long long time. well.. i guess life's like that. wat u want u can't get... & wat u don't want comes knocking. some ups then went down down down. maybe it's all wrong. i've got it wrong. pls tell me i haven't. coz it seems so real.

lazy to update blog nowadaes... coz its work work work. i've gotta start to do work faster! otherwise.... consequences are dire. of course got outingz also la. but juz hope enjoying results in true happiness. not juz temporary pleasure.

outz.

body aches....

2008-08-28T23:47:00.003+08:00

wow... upper body is still ache-ing from last sundae's cableski! it was damn fun... would go more often if its more convenient. great exercise... whole body workout if can stand. the guyz & mich so lihai la~ how i wish i can stand on the water too! the knee board was easier. kneeling was a breeze... but it was enough to work the upperbody. so sUaN lo~! how am i gona play bowling tmr.... jialat ah. then sat got netball... we must jia you!

tmr gotta go clear my flooded office mail. 3 daes of absence = a pile of follow-ups. argh. i better go recharge now. at least its fridae.... wOoOo hooOoo~ something to look forward too. but pls dun pass too fast? =D

time flies...

2008-08-16T12:37:00.003+08:00

weekdaes in office used to seem so long. but now... its way too short. hours of staring at the screen... thinking of resolutions for other pple's problems... sighing. its satisfying to be able to help... but there are cases where i'm juz as lost. there are targets to meet... but that means being the bad guy. argh. actually it depends on the pple u tok to. there are cases where they realli deserve help... & it motivates me to help them. but there are others that are uncooperative & not-friendly-at-all. headache. kena scolding for wanting to help. haiz. now i understand y my colleagues say they think about work even when they're home. its like haunting u every now & then... when u're idling especially. hope it doesn't drain out my life.... hahahha but its good too... coz i see the bad side of life & it makes me realise how good my life is.

so looking forward to after-work activities. not only does it take my mind off work... its something to look forward to~! been exercising... netball onli la. bowling not counted. but better than nothing... haha still wanna join badminton or volleyball... but see got time anot la... 1 week onli 5 weekdaes... kekeke & my weekends are packed for the next few weeks... so much activities coming~! Next weekend going for AA's wheels'n'reels treasure hunt... 1st time joining these kinda game. so exciting! then kev's celebrating in batam... cableski-ing! i'm prepared to fall fall & fall. nus-mitsu challenge is coming too~! although i can't help in planning... i'll give full support on that dae! where will i be stationed? can't wait! i noe it will be a success... i can feel it! hahaha

so much excitement... i want the good to last & the bad to pass. things have been changing... i feel more free. enjoying is everything now... & it has alwayz been. everyone is busy busy busy... but remember to enjoy & take good careZ k! i'll try not to give up... even if i fall real hard. we all must be strong~!

i'm loving it...

2008-07-30T21:28:00.004+08:00

bdaes are so much more than juz adding 1 to ur age. not only u get wiser... learn 1 more year of "lessons"... its also a time where everyone gather & spend time together. all busy with their own lives. but every now & then... bdaes will bring us together again (even if we haven't met for a long time). well... ly's bdae was like a private party. we had pizza & golden pillows for dinner... while some engrossed in watching L. i was so looking forward to seeing fireworks out of her window... but of all saturdaes... there wasn't any that dae. how suay. see.. shouldn't expect coz expectations may lead to disappointment. wahahaha but at least we managed to catch the black knights performing in the sky. their display was so nice la... & the heart in the sky! wow~

had some successful photo taking.. with the help of the mj table. that explains the big smiles from all of us... chEeRs~! it would be perfect if ann didn't have to leave early. but its ok girl... we understand~ =) then we played indian poker... & some poor guyz kept getting wacked! hahaha its ironic... the ones kena hit are the ones who bought us all those souvenirs. hmm... wahaha now we all noe who we can't offend.. =P celebrated alex's bdae which falls on the same dae too... which explains the 2 cakes. durian... choc. both superliciously delicious~! i've gotta go find that shop manz! near my place... wooO hOo~ notice the blue thingy on the table? cookie monster! so cute ritE~ oh my god... we all starting to "wAh" upon seeing it. her family how nice... ordered this aga-aga for her! we enjoyed playing with the eyeballs after that.... =D

didn't want to disturb her neighbours.. so we convoyed to kevin's newly renovated house. so modern la! its like those finishes advertised on tv shows... so fresh~ its like an entertainment centre... catered for poker... mj & wii~! think it'll be our next hangout place? haha more pls...

pissed off by those pple...

2008-07-28T23:36:00.002+08:00

todae... i was happily listening to my nano on the long bus journey home. everything was so normal when i heard this irritating teh-ing sound coming from the other side of the bus. despite the just-right volume to cover any external sounds... this nOise made me remove my plugs to hear if she was realli tHaT loud. yes... she was. come on la... not everyone on the bus is interested in listening to ur conversation... mind u. if the bus was crowded & noisy... i can understand y u had to speak so loudly. but it was kinda empty... & obviously u will noe that ur own volume was audible to the entire bus. i dun understand why some pple can't talk at acceptable levels (like normal pple can) & realise they're the onli ones "barking". realli spoils the image of that category of pple. not that i'm intolerant... i usualli don't give a damn. but this was realli almost over the limit.

already experienced many incidents of the "wild" behaviour of this particular category. don't need specifications. if u've experienced similarities... u should know. i realli wonder... don't they know how to be the least bit considerate? haven't they been taught manners at all? s'pore... open door policy. i've got no problem with that... but not when they invAde and try to assume their culture and behaviours here. aren't they suppose to adapt to ours? maybe they juz can't. argh. i'm not presuming all of their kind are like that... coz i know there are still sane ones around. maybe i'm juz suay to meet those unpleasant ones... those that show unacceptable conduct. oh please, stop getting on my nerves....

thankfully for techno. it helped to calm my nerves (& to cover the loud blabbers). don't u ever feel so angry/sad/moody... & blasting techno actually helps? doesn't apply to everyone... but it sure does for me. ha ha ha ha. somehow... it'll juz make me feel so much more relaxed... free my mind... & juz cHiLllll. that's y i love techno... i hope u all understand. my frenz... pls go & try it? wahahahahhahaha then u'll know why i luv'em. its actually therapeutic... realli! =P more techno pubs/clubs pls?

nice niteoutz..

2008-07-26T12:43:00.005+08:00

last weekend went for pink party at attica. 1st time there... it was separated into 2 parts. the upper floor not directly above... but connected by an alfresco section. went there kinda early... so walked ard canary 1st. there was a pool competition happening at the core... not much hype actualli. so went for a quick drink at kandibar. we ended up taking so many pics.. coz of the colourful flooring. juz love it la...! kor even sent karen pics lo... make her gian. haiz... too bad she was elsewhere having fun...

then we went to attica. free entry for pinkies... that explains our dresscose. hahaha july babies were entitled a complimentary champagne that nite... but we were too late. it was "while stocks last" even though we were there so early. 2 bottles flew away...our july babies were disappointed... especially bryan. but at least the boss was nice enough to give us a jug of screwdriver on the house. so we bought the champagne & chilled in the house section for a while. bryan's bro.. feeling rich... treat us to b52 shots. creamy coffee taste... it was realli nice! 1...2...3....suck!

after bottoms up... went down to the r&b section for the nice music & some exercise. then they wanted lambo... but i had to run the next morning. so after much negotiation... i shared one with jasmine. was afraid of the reenactment of lambo. hahaha still didn't understand how jas could dance in stilettos... amazing!

next morning... almost overslept. qt's call was a reminder... but xw's call was a jump-up-the-bed. luckily mui was late too... hahahah so took a cab & met up with the rest... juz in time. there was a field of lime greens... all warming up for the race. this time's route was not as fantastic... not much nice scenery to see. maybe coz of the construction ard. but there were occasional upslopes & downslopes. this time i ran so much slower... maybe not enough redbull? kekeke more runs to come.... i'm not sure abt 10km manz. not fit enough. well.. didn't take pics during the run... but here's before & after.

work's still fun for me... still honeymood period as they all say. i'm like counting down to aug... where i take hold of real work. juz hope i don't say the wrong things... or get into trouble. argh! its such practical matters that makes it even more delicate. my work environment is realli like going back to sch. didn't realise until ppg discussion. having all sorts of sports... training courses... still all good for me now coz of my zero workload now. have been going for courses which have somewhat prepared me. looking forward to the orientation coming... & bowling! badminton... netball... snooker... do i have time for all that? how i wish. last nite was my 1st ot... but a realli fun one. was a great 1st-time-experience in this polling program. real lucky that my 1st experience was a huge pilot one. it was enjoyable... everything went well technically. juz a little crowded when vips came in... 1st dae i guess...expected. hope its successful... coz anyone in the right mind would realise that its an incredibly great offer. definitely beneficial. =)

anywayz... later going blossomz' bdae celebration. nice cosy one at her place. its getting real hard to eat out... especially for a table of 17 or maybe 18? eventually it'll reach 20 or more. on weekends especially. oh well... private parties at home's still the best... hahaha can't wait for lateR~!

officially graduated

2008-07-16T22:05:00.003+08:00

after 4 years of lectures... tutorials... projects.... lunchs/dinners in canteens... midnites together... mugging... it has come to an end! the final lap.... we've graduated! congrats to us~! An extremely fun experience in nus with all the great frenz made. each school... each chapter of our lives are so memorable in their own ways. although i'll miss the going to classes together & even projects where we pia-ed thru'... now we'll juz look forward to gatheringz... meetups & more outingz! with our great yiru+pat as organizers... i'm so looking forward to their plans! hahahahha many has helped me thru' my uni life... both academically & emo-ly. we've all grown together in nus... pia together & some even got together! =P

well... grad ceremony on 14th July'08 was so happening manz. UCC was super packed... & all rushing to put on our gowns & getting seating in the auditorium. in the dressing room... a little chaotic coz everyone is helping each other to hurry hurry hurry! kinda funny also... all busy but all smiling & laughing. so as the ceremony started...

opening speech by the founder before individual on-stage 'modelling'. wahahha 1st to model were the smartest of course. masters then followed by honours. Archi... ID... Building... then RE. some walked fast, some slowly... some waved as the audience cheered. so funny la. so.. of course i was the latest few. one of the few times going on stage... didn't feel like it was anything honourable. maybe coz of lousy results. some say study years for this moment... but to me it was juz a less-than-1-min walk.

y u look so pai seh... my fren said. did i? hahaha i noe i was laughing... but it juz happened so fast. juz remember thanking the chancellor and smiling for the camera... then faster siam. hahahhaa the fun-est part is after the ceremony! tons of balloons dropped from the top... taking us all by surprise coz we didn't even notice them. some threw their sq hats & lost them maybe? hahhaahha then went outside & the crazy photo-taking started. went in search for my parents 1st. it was like the game..."finding wally". amongst the crowd... i had to scan through & search for them coz reception was bad. everyone was busy taking pics with everyone else... so was i....

after that went to holland for sushi tei with parents... which i finally got the chance to treat them! with my own pay~ hahaha then i insisted to go visit my bro... coz i wanna carry little jon!! so cute can. sooOoOooo suPeR dUper cute!! possible to carry with one hand... but too fragile to. can't wait for him to grow up... then can play with him le! hahahaha if only bro lives nearer... haiz. anywayz... after that reunite with nus pple again for coffee... wanted to take more pics but we ended up talking so much that we 4got. great frenships formed... memories of a lifetime. =)

something funny..

2008-07-10T20:04:00.003+08:00

"Be Safe. Use protection. Know all the facts. When, where & how? For long lasting pleasure" What do u think of when u see this? obvious rite... but its not what u think! its actualli refering to sunblock~ 2 daes back.. bought this nivea sunblock from guardian. those on-sale travel pack kind. (juz needed a little to standby) & i juz realise that's written on the cover of its user guide. wat a way to advertise....

anyway... ren sent me an sms recently. about those find-out-your-personality kinda question. found it very true... so wanna share with u all.

"imagine u r very hungry at night & wanted to eat instant noodle. U finally found 1 last packet, but it's expired for a week, u will... (a)pretend never see, juz eat. (b)go out & buy a new one, or buy other food. (c)forget it la, dun eat."

so which did u pick? answer truthfully before u see the answer below. dun play cheat hor.. then more accurate. hahaha these kinda questionnaires are amazingly accurate at times... most of the time. maybe not exactly... but largely. isn't it amazing...? who comes up with them anyway. are the answers really so true or is it juz self-fulfilling prophecies? oh well... ok... enough dragging. i know u're anticipating. the answers are.. (a)do not understand that 'one can't love to order'. u will alwayz hang on in the relationship w/o any thinking, u juz wanna hang on. (b)liked by frenz around u & failure in a relationship never gets u down. life goes on with many other things. (c)u noe u need to let go when it's time, no point holding on to it, even though it may hurt.

well... dunno if u all think its accurate. for me... yes. & i thought of wat someone would have answered & its juz so true. anywayz... yesterdae went to try dragon boating. juz 1 word... tough. ache-ing all over now. & its not as easy as it looks. felt the mental strain of having to keep rowing when arms are so sour! realli a challenge of mind over body... i think its a sport where mental strength is put to the test. but i think its not the right time now... maybe not yet. coz the travelling and the inconvenience of watersports... think i'll consider going regularly if i ever have a car. oh well. guess i'll eventualli join netball... where practically all my frens are. tmr going for bowling... so excited! veri long neber play le... kekeke can't wait to see the fireworks this sat!! =D

love weekends..

2008-07-06T21:35:00.002+08:00

i'm realli loving weekends. although my weekdaes are not tHaT boring... but u'll really start to realise how precious weekends are in the working world. of course before i get piled up with properties and start working OTs... i gotta enjoy to the max. thats wat my colleagues keep saying. actualli i'm very blessed coz my workplace is not those typical do-sai-kang kinda work. they actualli let me learn 1st... & my mentor is helping to buy some time before i start actual on-my-own. giving me a little hands-on while i'm loading myself with all the policies. even the upcoming upgrading program... they didn't schedule me for the sat & sun shifts... so good rite! although i was kinda prepared to be called back on that weekend... but i was shocked when the schedule was out. =P so ya... i'm starting to see the good... & put aside the bad. kekeke

yesterdae went to celebrate bryan kor's bdae. me & dajie collected cake b4 meeting the rest of sof. we kept the cake with our later-in-the-night chillout place and went to CA at marina sq. poor kor was stuck in traffic... due to the ndp previews. heard fireworks but couldn't see it! btw... there'll be fireworks every saturdae this few weeks! gotta go see~ ate so full... & managed to bluff kor that there was no cake. we celebrated for him in the chalet at OCC aldy! but he still wanted... "too bad"~ hahaha so after glad joined us...went to do some shooting at the arcade before heading to paul lenner to chill. coincidentally, his bro was nearby & wanted to pass things to him. so his bro & gf joined us for the surprise later. the singers there were fantastic la. was so engrossed in their singing! the 2 gals voices were so bright & powerful. the guys' was not bad too... but he didn't sing much. seems like they sing everydae except sunday. will definitely go hear again someday. they're realli good! so envious~ & the service there was great. they asked me secretly for the bdae boy's name... & i said some not-veri-convincing lies to cover up. but blur kor didn't realise something fishy going on. then at midnight... they sang happy birthday! & the funny thing is... another table who aldy cut cake... thought that the song was for him lo! kaoz. he even stood up... wahahhaa but when they sang with "bryan" in it... i guess they knew. hahaha so abit spoil la... coz kor didn't know the song for him. when the cake came... he thought it was complimentary! oh manz. but later he realised the wordings "macho kor" & he admitted he got faked... yeah! we succeeded. hhahahaa it was a great experience... realli like that place even more. the music... the beer... the service... great! i'm sure kor enjoyed himself... we did too~

juz had family dinner... so much food again~ but couldn't eat much... tongue ulcer. took photos with them in my grad gown... but my bro & dasao couldn't make it. how i wish they were here. but its ok... guess its too far & timing is not right. inconvenient during this period. tmr got department orientation. dunno wat to expect... no idea wat we gona do. hahaha but at nite gona find gladys at her new workplace. lallallalallaa

catching up...

2008-07-05T14:27:00.003+08:00

wow... very slow in updates. have been so busy compiling my grad trip post... took so long to complete it! can't online that often nowadaes. anywayz... work has been alright. passed the thought of giving up. welcomed the idea of finding joy & satisfaction out of it. i juz hope to be able to make it! help pple... making an impact & changing their lives. sounds so great rite... easier said than done. i will survive!! hahaha

many outings passed. very fun ones. few weekends back... went to eat at Flutes @ fort canning park with my family. dasao's little one is almost out. pointed tummy and relatively big for her size. i'm gona have a nephew! can't feel the excitement yet ba... maybe when he's out? hope i'll get to see him often... jurong! aiyo. anywayz... had to walk quite a distance to Flutes coz we parked at the wrong carpark. its a stairway up to the classy black/white restaurant. good place for dating btw... take note guyz! anywayz... after that bro gotta get home early. so went to meet cheebongz for movie later.. zohan! it was dirty funny... but had a great laugh. vinc got his present thru' the window...he must have been so happy! next dae went sentosa with ny pple. supposed to be a morning event... but the weather dampened many spirits. but we went ahead coz i kept saying the weather will be good! i wasn't sure actualli... but juz stayed hopeful! so as we played beach volley... slowly our hands all got red and poor bernie... a little swollen. guess it shows how often he caught the ball. hahaa siloso has onli 1 volley court left... haiz. last time there were like at least 5 rite? but it was realli fun! got a little burnt surprisingly. after that went to robertson's bdae at Jalapeno's pepper. food there was great.. especially the yummy dessertS! service was damn good too... sorry we left so late... had to cut cake mah. kekeke

following dae after work... went for vinc's bbq. small party... great food. thanx to alex who was our chef. hahaha simple celebration but so fulfilling... rite bdae boy? planned an mj session that fridae. we played hide & seek in sengkang b4 that... reached weekiat's place kinda late... sorry manz. so there were the 'pong's and the 'chi's... i almost got the 7 '2's... how stupid of me. hahaha the next weekend was potluck at pat's place. it was a huge gathering... think almost 20+ pple... so crowded! was like a "market" as some point. hahah all thanx to pat for organizing & coming up with the grp ICs. hope we'll gather again sometime. next dae was bryan's chalet at occ... the room was huge! so comfy and relaxing! played a little mj before going out for dinner at some famous zi cha stall. near sembawang park. damn nice can!! the lala... in wine sauce.. something different from the usual chilli lala. very crowded.. so the food took very long.. but sure worth it! so we stayed over coz next dae off. next dae me & karen juz watched hbo the whole dae.. real couch potatoes. supposed to go home that nite but juz couldn't resist the temptation for "holidae stayover". so ya... kor drove us back to pack stuff... & there we were back in the cosy "hotel". mj-ed that nite till 4+ & the consequence is... low energy the next dae. i'm still getting used to worklife. gotta sleep early... but trying to make the best out of my non-work daes. keke

yesterdae met up with neo, leong & kwok. hougang mall changed so much! had ichiban & walked a little. talked alot alot alot. its like the first time we talked, discussed and analyzed so much. i realli enjoyed that quality time together... should have all these again manz. i seem to be documenting all my outingz in one shot. but juz gotta keep a record of my life... coz of my bad memory. so this blog acts as my virtual memory. =P

Auzzie Frenzy....(melbourne)

2008-06-15T14:11:00.001+08:00

19th may... short flight towards colder melbourne. leong's aunty & family picked us "home". it was already nitetime & little brendon was suppose to be sleeping... but he came to welcome us! it was freezing outside... but i enjoyed blowing smoke. natural kind... not the unhealthy one. so as we stepped into the warmth...their house was so huge la! with the typical western layout. not very enclosed...doorless kitchen... a veri open & spacious concept. uncle briefed us on the directions of our road trip... can see they did alot of planning. they're so nice la... even prepared comfy beds and thick blankets for us. so we settled down & tucked in....

next morning... aunty brought us to nearby boxhill shopping centre for breakfast. grain asian cafe... had congee with timsum... yuM yUm~ then we went to rent car from budget b4 aunty went to work. made our way to warrook cattle farm. paid aud25 for the farm tour... & the nice lady gave us complimentary coffee/tea while waiting for the rest to finish their lunch. got on a farm truck and sat on hay blocks... to see cows. fed the aggressively hungry baby cows... all snatching for the milk bottles. then saw some baby sheeps who were so timid... kept running away from humans. then everyone had the chance to milk a super obedient dairy cow... as said by the guide. it was warm and so fresh! didn't have any weird raw taste which we thought. kekeke the freshiest it can get!

next, we went to pick up 2 sheepdogs on the way. the younger one jumped up the truck... with no trouble at all. the older one needed a lift up. both so enthu... to start working. with the voice commands from the guide...they gathered the sheep. english educated dogs! hahaha its amazing. they ran far and fast...brought a herd of sheep towards us. guide explained to us how great the dogs were... and that the whip was used previously to gather herds. when she whipped... the sound was loUd! we tried...but it was so difficult. she sure had alot of strength~

then we walked towards the sheering hut... where sheep's wool was sheered. the sheep sure felt so much lighter after the shave... hahaha it's a real tiring job... working in a farm. see the amount of strength & effort put into farming. although its a laidback lifestyle... its certainly not an easy one. next, we were given food to feed the kangeroos! so excited~ there were so many of them... and they were all tourist-friendly. so cute la... as they nibble off our palms. & there was a pond full of ducks living with them in that park.

then neo wanted to try... so she took over the wheel. i wasn't confident on being the driving "tester"... but she was steady enough.. except for the last min turn into wildlife wonderland. pHeW. hahaha we entered at a cheaper concession rate... nice pple again. how lucky are we! we were allowed to walk freely.... but didn't expect that much freedom...

the curious wombat was so excited to see us... so cute la.. like a huge fat guinea pig. then there was some kind of wolf dog... can't remember the name. we thought that was all... coz they were all enclosed. but then...there was a closed gate with huge kangeroos behind. didn't noe if we were supposed to go in... coz they looked kinda hungry & we didn't buy any food. so after the owner told us we could go in... quite scared coz the roos were looking at us. while hesitating... we witnessed a kangeroo fight. 1 roo made the other angry... and it stood up real tall... attacking each other. like what u can imagine... kangeroo boxing. it was onli a short while but it made us even more afraid to enter the gate. eventually... we entered slowly... and walked passed all the kangeroos. they were like hoping we had food... but luckily were not attacked. we were hoping to carry koalas... but onli managed to spot 2 high up. hugging onto the tree...sleeping. couldn't even see the face... dissappointed. then there were emus and alpacas!

if u're wondering wat's alpacas... its those 2 walking towards us. so scary can! never see them b4... & didn't know if they'll attack us. so we slowly walked... and they passed us too. it was a real close-up experience in this wonderland... something quite unlike what we've thought. but it was all good.. that moment of intense. imagine all the fun we'll miss... if we hadn't enter the gate!

so off we went... towards phillip island. its a common sight to see cows & sheep while driving. they're like everywhere. even horses were seen wearing "clothes" haha it was leong's turn to try... & its all fated. she drove...& as i enjoyed the scenery..there it was! rainbow!!! oh manz... its the 1st rainbow i've ever seen! in real life! & its a full one~ realli made the dae even better! so we stopped over at the information centre to check penguin arrival time... b4 i continued the drive to penguine island. thanx for giving me a break from all that driving... i noe they were guilty... kekeke

we stood by the beach... with freezing wind...awaiting the penguins' arrival. they came in groups. black & white dots moving... so tiny! thanx to neo's binoculars... we saw lots of cute little penguins waddling away into their hideout. didn't have any close views.. until we walked back to their "homes". we saw them shaking off the water... warming themselves up on land. & we're so lucky coz we caught 2 penguins mating! so funny la... the penguin on top kept flapping his flippers up & down at an extremely fast pace. no cameras allowed... so no pics to share... haiz. our drive home was so dark... luckily managed to stop in time as a rabbit hopped across the road. had a good night's sleep... b4 the next adventure to great ocean road!

sort of got used to the long drives... coz traveling 1+hrs is actually the norm there. it was a 3hr drive... with mountains on one side & an endless stretch of ocean on the other. the great ocean road is like the ultimate scenic adventure. along the narrow journey round the mountains... we stopped occasionally to enjoy the wind and the smell of fresh ocean breeze. we settled at apollo bay for lunch. had fish & chips and creamy pasta. next, made our way to the 12 apostles to see how many there's left. according to non-pro judgement... i think there were 7 remaining? not sure actually... coz don't know which are the ones that are counted as apostles. so maybe there were more...? hahaha the pic on the right is loch ard gorge where huge waves rushes up the shore. almost got washed...i mean wet..

drove a little to thunder cave (pic below on left) where water gushes thru' the cave... sending roars like thunder. that explains the name. so then the high-speed water swirls roughly to the dead end (pic on right) and splashes around the blow hole. guess its this force that creates the blow hole. no tour guide with us... so we gotta figure them out & hope our assumptions are right. hahhaa

before sun set... we went to see the fallen london bridge. the original arch was formed and eroded by the waves. with only the two sides remaining. pretty soon the other small arch will fall too. its amazing how nature forms and breaks down nature. these are sights that can never be caught again. each different at their own time. & the sun... i juz love how it blends with the sky and clouds. the common light/sky blue... the orange/red... and occasional pink/purple skies that are so pretty! i kept asking them to take pics of the coloured sky while i was driving... coz its so special! travelled to warrnambool & checked into comfort inn motel. we were quite tired and it was too cold outside... so we ordered piggy's pizza. simple & cheap.

sunrise.. made our way to tower hill reserve to see volcano craters. hiked up the hill and walked around the crater. quite tiring for a morning exercise. nothing much to see actually... juz a hallow center with browns and greens. with wild emus and kangeroos.

as we drove out... there was an even larger crater at a higher view. i pieced up 3 pics to form a complete picture... although not perfect... but u can image how huge it was! there must have been a great eruption many decades ago...but it was still eventually all browns and greens.

next, continued our journey to halls gap aka grampians. had lunch at black panther cafe... delicious capricciosa pizza and cooling alfresco dining. despite the cool weather... we shared coolas ice creamery.. some mixture of unique flavours. started our grampians sight-seeing at boroka lookout which was all the way up. it was freezing cold. we ran to the viewing point... took photos at the fastest speed possible and ran back to the car. that was how cold it was. drove down to the reed lookout also known as the balconies or jaws of death. had to trek a little in order to reach the viewing point... so along the way took pics at protruding rocks with the open backgrd. we look so tiny as compared to the wide background. when reached the jaws... a little disappointed coz that's all we see after treking quite a distance. can see the jaws rite?

the last stop was mackenzie falls. but it was quite a task. quite a walk to the top of the falls.. followed by a long steep flight of stairs down. it was a tall waterfall... but we were all too tired to be hyper. going down the stairs was no problem... it was the climbing back up... that i almost died. figuratively speaking. hahaha see how high? so tired can! the cool weather prevented humidity but increased throat dryness. i was so glad to be back in the car... drove all the way back nearer to home & had a quick kfc dinner at 10+pm.

next dae... it was a foggy morning. 4 degrees aunty said. ate vietnam hot bread for breakfast while did some shopping at victoria market. took the tourist shuttle to queens bridge for some photo-taking b4 heading to melbourne museum at carlton gardens. guess wat... nice pple again~ gave us concession rate... free! the museum was fantastic la! so educational. separated into human, animals, underwater, and a few more. we didn't have much time to spare... so didn't manage to see all in detail.

took the city circle tram to federation square to see melbourne's landmark. that's flinders station. took pics around that area before uncle & family brought us to sofia for italian dinner. it was very crowded... but didn't have to wait long for the food to arrive. food was so yummy! brandon was so excited and couldn't wait for his dessert to arrive. 9 flavours ok.

next morning aunty brought us to garage sales. had outdoor-cooked hotdog for breakfast... simple & yummy~ went to 3 different ones... selling books.. toys... accessories... furniture. practically anything that's not 1st hand? some look realli knew... but some are expectedly old. antique? it was a good experience. guess this is part of their lifestyle... socializing and enjoying their weekend. happy faces all around...

next, we went to view house auction... but there was no action. no bids. but i got to see how it was carried out along the roadside. afternooon, uncle drove us to mount dandenong to enjoy breath-taking views from skyhigh. u can even see the city outline through the clouds in this zoom-in pic...

there was a wishing tree with a story behind it. saying that someone looked through the hole & make a wish... it came true. dunno fact or fiction... but i was busy smiling for the pic that i 4got to make a wish. there was a long structure... its the australiana tree. carved with many animals all around. think there are more than 15 of them on that thin "trunk". & yes... we sat on the giant's chair... looking like dwarfs. went for teabreak at cuckoo restaurant. supposed to be a short one... but we ended up hanging around for quite some time. they had a great big cuckoo clock... the only one left they said.

the waitresses were dressed in traditional dutch outfit.. so pretty rite! her face was flawless la... never seen such smooth and fair complexion. so xian mu! there was a singer entertaining everyone there... he's so funny! making the whole atmosphere so fun! & the tea-time buffet that we had.. the best was the pancake!! think we shared more than 6 of it. we were hooked onto it. although its simple... but the taste was juz scrumptious.

met up with my uncle & aunty for dinner at brunelli... brought neo & leong along. glad they enjoyed themselves... coz they found my relatives so hilarious. i caught up with my cousins... like a mini family reunion. so glad they all could make it for the dinner... coz i haven't seen them for very long!

cambodian breakfast was what we had the next dae b4 going to st kildas to shop! its like a stretch of stalls alongside the jetty. also known as esplanade market.... we managed to buy souvenirs there. neo & brandon playing with puppets...

then went to the city for some shopping. there was a stationary horse carriage there... kinda smelly though. didn't do much shopping in the city coz saving for next dae's shopping. while walking... we chanced upon this alley full of graffiti.. both sides of the wall are painted with art. so nice la~ then sat at hudsons coffee for a break while waiting for uncle to pick us up to go crown casino. we registered for the membership card which entitled us some credits to play! so we juz tried our luck at one cent jackpot machines. apparently... i'm not lucky. neo & leong are! they both got win abit leh. juz anyhow press...very heng lo~ ahhaha wanted to have buffet dinner but the queue was incredibly long! so we went back nearby home to eat at 'the booth'... some taiwanese gourmet. the food was yummilicious to the max!

next morning, had our usual congee for breakfast b4 going to DFO for cheap shopping spree. another rush shopping dae again... coz wanted to go chadstone shopping centre to shop too. after a dae of shopping till we drop... we went to tah bao red rooster and sushi back home. have a warm cosy simple last dinner with the family which took such great care of us. had heavenly ice cream after that and played our last few rounds of wii....before flying back to spore the next dae.

overall... the trip was so memorable. realli had loads of fun & so grateful to sylvia & leong's relatives for taking such good care of us. we 3 graduates are real lucky to have had such a fun and safe trip at australia! thanks~

Aussie Frenzy... (sydney)

2008-06-08T20:58:00.016+08:00

it's been a month since i'm back... but haven't got much time to blog. that's y taking so long to complete this full-of-pics entry. onli half of the trip here... the other half will be up much later... wahahaha eNjOy!!!

11th may'08 was the start of an amazing experience. morning flight.. many were there to send us off. thanx for coming ever so quietly... it was expected. so it was movies all the way thru' the 6+ hrs air journey. arrived at sydney ard 6pm to meet sylvia. a step outside was like natural aircon. ever so cooling! went to have pancakes on the rocks for dinner. the choc pancake goes so well with vanilla icecream... yummy~! then we followed the sounds of fireworks... & there it was! so lucky la~ next, went back to sylvia's place for an early nite.

next morning sylvia took us to town for some authentic vietnamese food. later, bought expensive taco bubble tea... its realli good! the yam was thick enough and neo was hooked onto it. hahaha made our way to no bird to rent car before making our way to bondai beach. it was sunny but cold. the sand... soft and cool. it was so beautiful....

walked around the shops nearby b4 they close. it gets dark realli early.. like 5+pm. had hurricanes for dinner... huge long ribs. they made us wear bibs... wahahha thats the result of 3 carnivores... neo is the chicken-only-almost-vegetarian. haha

Then we went back home and sylvia boiled bitter gaud soup for us~ my 1st! soup was realli good... but i didn't favour the gaud as much as leong. haha then played noisy taidi and jenga in our cosy "home". even had barley with fu chok that filled us to our brim... courtesy of sylvia's good fren. they realli pampered us... kekeke

3rd day morning... road trip to blue mountains! the drive was a long few hrs... but they kept me entertained. neo handled the navigator while leong kept the back seats neat. so much stuff... but she managed to "secure" them. she was the map reader too... in case the navigator went crazy.. which it did.. a few times. hahaha stopped along the way to enjoy the scenery. reached wentworth falls after guidance from nice pple... we had to hike a little in order to reach the falls.

made our way to check into YHA backpackers... ate cheap dominos before walking to 3 sisters. along the way... saw bowerbird gallery and thought it was a place to see birds. but it was some art gallery with lotsa great pieces. had to run to 3 sisters... as the thunder came. probably due to the high altitudes... weather changes were extreme. a while later... it got this dark. then came the mini hail... like tiny ice balls raining on us. so everyone there took cover in the souvenir shop. after some time... the sky cleared... & it was all nice again.

again.. the weather switched... so we ran to the bus stop... wondering how we're gona get back to our cosy room. we were freezing by the way. then the bus came & the bus driver offered to drop us off near YHA! how nice~ he said it was on the way.. & said "hop on!" so we reached the town near YHA and had a nice hot choc. fish & chips dinner before going back. so we juz slacked in our room for some time before we eventually knock out. YHA is highly recommended. great backpacker's inn... clean facilities. so much better than we expected. it was so comfy but too bad it was onli a nite there.

next morning had tune bread for breakfast before making our way to scenic world. took the railway ride down... which they refuse to sit in front! it was so slow... but steep. then went on the cableway to go back up... above mountains, trees & clouds. sight-seeing mostly... look at the clouds! we're soOo high....

then stopped over at blackheath for sandwich lunch... before travelling to megalong for our 1.5hr horse ride! it was a horse farm... with a parrot who couldn't stop saying "hello" each time we walked near. got our "leggings" and helmets put on, awaiting our white horses. it was a damn farnie ride. starting off was alright... but many hilarious things happened along the way. like horse like rider... especially neo's. hahaha her horse kept eating along the way. leong's was quite naughty and the first to "go toilet"... like an open tap. mine was quite steady... juz following ahead and shit-ing once. both rider and horses exercised... according to the trainer. so true... coz our legs ached a little after that.

drove to the toy museum... but it didn't seem veri appealing from the outside. entrance fee was too high. so we entered another gate which says... "best view" but was a little disappointed coz its juz ONE nice view. and so... we tried to make the best of it. they couldn't stop jumping..

so we left blue mountains and drove back to meet sylvia for dinner. too bad she's got classes... couldn't join us. went for dinner at makoto restaurant. typical jap conveyor belt kinda food... but only nicer! Next dae... went to the ever-so-popular sydney fish market! there was a wet market.. and eating place. so much variety... all sorts of seafood. it was such a shiOk meal! had my fav salmon sashimi.. so fresh and cheap! yUm YuM~ walked along a short jetty with boats anchored ard. juz love the weather.

went to paddy's warehouse... something like bugis street but much bigger, spacious and cooling. lotsa cheap stuff there and then shopped at market city. review had great clothes and was having huge discounts. i bought a top which cost 30+ after discount but the nice shoplady charged me aud10 onli coz it was the last piece and with some makeup marks. now its clean... & so worth it! ate neo's fav Nando's for dinner... then went to a huge 6-storey supre outlet. they have late nite shopping every once a week. but its only up to 8+pm. normally, shopping stops at 5+pm. that's something i can't get used to! although there's nite life... its realli a huge rush to shop anywhere. anyway, after that went to y2k at "chinatown" for some desserts...

the mountain-like thingy is actually egg white with ice cream inside.. really nice! the egg white is like eating foam... very special. the chilli fishballs were so spicy! and that's some doufu ginseng pie. hmm... some sweet soup inside with a unique taste.. but didn't realli like that though. kekeke

6th day. had quick breakfast and went to the nearby macquarie shopping centre. did a little shopping while waiting for sylvia's class to end. went for a chinese lunch at hot pot before more shopping at direct factory outlet (DFO). so it was rush shopping again... but we made the best of it. went darling harbour to enjoy the cold winds and city lights. next, went to star city... theatre and casino place. girls in gowns & guys in smart suits with bowties. all so formal & well dressed! manz... we felt kinda out-of-place... so we didn't stay long.

sylvia planned a nice italian dinner place called Sapore in leichhardt. yes... two "h"... i didn't spell it wrongly ok. hahaha its like a "little italy" in sydney. ordered to share amongst 5 of us.. including sylvia's sis. had the oh-so-yummy risotto (most left) which is like mui-fan... chewy-type of rice. then it was some pastas and salad. the squid-ink pasta (most right) was nice! juz that it doesn't realli look appealing coz of the colour. gona make u all drool now...

so after dinner... we drove past kings cross to look-see. its something like geylang... onli more westernized.. keke next day was another short road trip with sylvia's frens to hunter valley. on the way, ate hungry jacks aka burger king for breakfast. arrived at this happening open field... with lotsa pple dancing, gathering, drinking wine & relaxing. its the wine fest! wanted to see vineyards... and maybe the process of wine-making. but all were dried up...wrong season. so we did a little wine tasting before heading to tatler for lunch. kinda high class kinda food... coz sylvia & her frenz were upperclass rich. but we all shared... so the cost was spread out...pHew. hahaha oh... the choc pudding dessert was supeRb manz. too nice to be trueeEee....

then we went to a cheeze factory nearby... but was a little too late. 4+pm... the cheeze-making tour was over. so we juz roamed about the products...hahaha tried some different chz... i've finally tried bluE chz! took a tiny weeny piece...its soOoo salty. so it was almost 2 hr drive back... went eastwood village to eat at some chinese restaurant. typical dishes with rice... ate while watching the terrible china disaster on tv. words all in chinese... wasn't fast enough to understand... so i juz watched the visuals. haiz... so dishearting. these are things we cannot fully relate with. although it aches internally somewhere in the left chest, can't say i totally noe how they feel. but still... hope they're strong. can only help financially i guess.

sunday.. we all wore new clothes! decided to dress up coz going to opera house (outside) and habour bridge. had blueberry bagel with cream cheeze for breakfast. i'm so hooked! u can't believe how nice the combi is... sweet bagel with the cheeze..oOoooOooo i realli miss it! anywayz... took a bus and continued in a double-decker train at epping station to central. a little more walk... and its Rocks market! a huge tentage with many many stalls. accessories, art, food, choc, honey, nuts... so many stuff! had yummilicous corn.. so sweet & salty~ and then choc coated strawberries. so sweet la... the strawberries. went to watch sweet-making process which took almost an hr. the nice shop owner gave us each a big heart-lolli... FOC! see... i told u aussies are nice pple.

headed to opera house and i tell u... the wind was the coldest ever! so strong that it was difficult to walk! the clouds there are especially nice... & i couldn't stop taking shots of the sun. see the rays... more to come later. hahaha didn't climb the bridge coz its damn expensive... couldn't go in opera house too. so juz walked around and enjoy being blown by the wind...

as we walked to catch the cruise to manly beach...we still ate baskin robins coz we were craving for it somehow. so cold still eat icecream? hahahaha yes. thats how much we craved it. so the boat ride was not long... reached manly almost ard sunset. had some max brenner's hot choc on the way. by the time reach the beach... it was dark. so couldn't see much. grabbed 2 big-sliced pizzas and took boat back to central. on a nite boat ride... its a totally different experience when u're out on the deck. extreme bRRrr. its realli like a huge aircon blowing non-stop in your face... ur nose and ears go cold in seconds. i wanted to take photo of the flock of seagulls speeding beside the boat... but it was total darkness. it was a nice sight... but can't tahan long outside... gotta take cover~

went for dinner at seoul-ria. one thing about australia is... their food is all authentic. korean restaurant ran by koreans. not any tom, dick, harry. even the italian restaurants were so italian. hahaha anywayz... that kimchi soup was so spicylicious! 1st time i'm eating something different... other than the usual bibimbap. after dinner still quite early... so its the usual... lalalalllaalallaa at greenbox.

monday was the last day in sydney... went to have another of my fav bagel before sylvia brought us to this tea cafe called TenRen's tea. the beef noodles was so tasty! and i had greenbean tea... which was not bad. their drinks were nicer... can't remember what they were called.. hahaha later in the day, made our way to krispy cream which was near the domestic airport... and had my veri 1st kk donuts! so sweEEet... and now i know why leong kept saying the original flavour is the best. i agree!

Yep.. so this is only the sydney part. more to come... domestic flight to melbourne. off we go~

1st job

2008-06-04T21:26:00.002+08:00

haven't got time to blog on my superb grad trip... will be up as soon as i can! ever since work started... it feels like i've no more life manz. maybe coz of the 8.30am-6pm restriction... or even later when real work starts. can still enjoy at nite but i'll be real tired the next morn. its realli taxing to get up so early... especially when i'm soOo not used to it. gotta pull myself up every morning... haiz. well... juz hope my body clock quickly get used to it.

1st day of work... report at hq. kinda hoping i'll stay there... bUt...was posted to yishun branch. oh well... no choice. at least its near home. so after some briefing... made my way down to yishun. more briefing... too much to absorb! pple there are nice so far... hope it continues. so spent my daes going thru' the databases... its amazing how much info is in there! like everything can be found there... juz need to know where & how. but i really gotta enjoy these daes 1st... coz i felt the pressure of what is to come. took a look at ONE of the incredibly thick file... the thickest file i've ever seen. & i realise how come my colleagues are so busy. haiz. got a little cold feet... but parents' assurance helped alot. so i guess... my "enjoy life" policy may have to be altered.

weekends are packed... coz its realli enjoy or no life. gotta adapt to all these sooner or later... juz can't bear to leave my no-sch-no-work life. i hope i'll find the joy in this work... like what i've found at ny. miss ny so much.... i'll visit u all when i can!

5 remaining days

2008-06-01T12:03:00.005+08:00

after the fulfilling getaway... it was the last few daes of ultimate freedom. precious and never enough. can't get pass the thought of 2nd june. y 2nd june... should have been later! but as it gets nearer... i feel the excitement.. the nervousness of not knowing wat to expect. this new chapter of my life is gona begin. so, the last few daes were fully made used of...

Wed met neo at amk hub for some necessities shopping. later, had meeting at starbucks with some mc pple. 1 suntec... 2 starbucks... argh. so shocked that they had blueberry bagel with cream chz... which i was craving ever since i left aussie. but its not comparable. aussie's still da best. missing it aldy. after meeting.. it was the usual 3pax crystalbelle... llalalaalaalalalllaa. sang to our hearts' fill. all emo-ing... especially 3.5..oOopz. Thurs slacked in the daytime as couch potato.. b4 preparation for sde dnd! thanx for the fab dress yiru.. at least we have something different to wear.. keke but i think the response was real bad. graduating students who went were only those from our clique. so sad other close ones didn't come. the atmosphere wasn't realli there. where did the rest go? many unfamiliar faces... doesn't feel like its "our" nite. so well... some pics of the graduates-to-be... i thought Fri was gona be slacking... but leong wanted to shop too~ like as if we didn't shop enough in aussie. hahha gss... great timing. incentive to shop. the feeling of being able to shop slowly till 9+pm felt realli good... after the 5pm closing experiences. we bought so much! shoes... clothes.. & a last min dress~ impulsive? nah. we thought for quite a while after hesitation. kekeke

Sat went for regular blood test. when i saw the young nurse... i had my doubts but i kept it to myself. true enough... she tried 3 times b4 the sample was collected...argh. like my arm didn't have feelings. collected my photos and had a hard time assembling 300 b4 my galz reached. it was GNO and it was grEaT! so long neber see them le... lotsa catching up to do. went to organiCafExperience after dinner.. their yogurts were delicious~! and their drinks made us feel so good although not sure about its effectiveness. there were slimming tea... flat stomach... oh well. organic is good i guess. hahaha went to watch Sex and the city! its been a long long long time since we caught a movie together. & it was soOoo nice!! funny... touching... so girly!! i highly recommend this movie to all the girl cliques out there. its like the fundamental depiction of how impt girly-ties are and that they are so irreplaceable. glad i've found mine. =) great GNO...more of these plz.

Todae is family dae... gona be a different one with aunt irene & uncle peter joining us. anticipate some screwing... haha tmr is the day. welcome to the working world, lena.

i'm back back back!

2008-05-28T12:15:00.003+08:00

17 days getaway was great. so fUn! love the weather in aust. got a taste of something near winter and lotsa good food. the scenic views were so nice la! but think overall 1/3 of the time spent on eating and sleeping, 1/3 travelling and 1/3 shopping and enjoying. healthy lifestyle there... coz shops close at 5pm.. so early! but nite time relaxed and enjoy the aussie air. hahaha slept early and woke up early... hopefully this continues back home.

will update again when i have the time... so many pics to choose from. feels good to be home too. it was a satisfying grad trip. =) tmr got sde's dnd. next week start work! feels rush... but so happie!!

gd news

2008-05-10T12:49:00.003+08:00

this is one oF the best times of my life. no more studies. job confirmed. grad trip tmr! can u imagine the rUsH and eXciTement in me?!! wOoOoo hOOoo~ its care-free.. stress-free.. super duper free! gotta make the best out of this coz when i'm back... its gona be busy busy busy.. then start work! maybe i shouldn't have chose such an early firSt-dAe-of-woRk... but i guess its better than slacking and spending even more $$ which is currently at all-time low. argh~

yesterdae was yy's cum ave bdae. pizza place in raffles city was not bad! small but busy. watching the waitress was like playing "diner dash". hahaha reasonable price and great food. the strawberry shortcake from some bakery was so yummy! different type of cream... so nice! after that went to take flyer (again). but this time... it changes colour! so much better than the other time... where it was all blue. blue until all the pics turned out so bluey. so ya.. apart from the colour changing.. everything is pretty much the same. hahaha the problem with taking pics inside is: use flash - can capture faces but not the nite scenery. no flash - faces too dark but can see outside nite lights. so, better to bring a good camera. hahahaha most felt the flyer experience is mediocre... no shaking. the most steady ferris wheel i guess... coz s'pore is safe! haha but i still enjoyed it, soaked into the atmosphere. love the feeling of being so high up, with aircon and a nice view. would like it to be longer... more time to relax and spend quality time with whomever u're with. thats wat dreamers do. hahha have to go london eye... within this lifetime. too many places that i wanna go. slowly ba. earn $$ 1st then say. =P

australia... here i come!

3hrs of burning...

2008-05-01T13:48:00.011+08:00

nego paper last sat was abit screwed. for the calculations part... the right method came across... but i ended up using another. was it the time constraint or was i juz not thinking right? argh! so dUi! u noe? that feeling of knowing the right method (but yet didn't use it) is much worse than not knowing it at all. went to meet mich for supposedly shopping but she was not feeling well. so i "made" her go home... b4 her face turned pale white. hahah after she left, i was supposed ti go starbucks to study. but since i brought out my metro voucher which i have neglected for months... i thought i'd see if it could be of any use. & then it started. from paragon metro to taka and wisma. i juz continued walking & buying the stuff i needed for my grad trip. retail therapy. realli works for me. maybe its an excuse.. but it juz made me feel better i guess. later passed ray the tix... & ly popped in front of me! so shocked. thought she was resting when she got back from italy. so went bugis street for a walk. later went harrys to watch soccer... most of the time.. i was locco roco-ing. that game is so addictive... cute fat bouncing thingy.

anyway... about the burning heading. sunday went to watch the drifting event at changi. don't be fooled by the blue sky. the sun was unbelievably scorching! heard that the weather nowadaes hit 40+ degrees. it was crazy. we were not prepared. thought there was gona be shelters... argh. there were car exhibitions but no air con! wanted to stay till the finals... but the sun was draining all our energy. sorry galz... got u all into this burning. if i knew it would be this bad... i wouldn't have asked. the drifting was fantastic though... but the viewing conditions was unbearable. it was an experience ba. seeing decorated super cars... seeing and smelling burning tyres. couldn't catch the drifting on video... too fast manz. some picz..

god is fair..

2008-04-24T22:47:00.003+08:00

i realli believe in it. look around you... people... lives... it juz soothingly concludes injustice. although sometimes it may seem like all is so wrong for some... there are definitely positiveness somewhere... somehow. this term is not a form of self-fulfilling prophecy, although it does somewhat eases oneself.. i believe there's much truth in this saying. it gives a good feeling that... not all is bad. that there's goodness in exchange for faults.

last mon.. upon see-ing a "C" for my gps essay... felt pure disappointment in myself. expected at least a "B" but came out worse. so it was hard to accept the fact that i've gotta say goodbye to my 3rd class. wasted a year... if u work out the comparisons. so down... so dampened. but later while studying... received a call. an interview has knocked on my door. delightful. it was like a ray of hope. finally after so long. although its not my number 1 choice... i'm juz glad i'm given this opportunity. gona see what it offers... & hopefully its suitable. (& i'm suitable for them) i'm not ambitious... so juz see how ba. if it works out well... i'll have an easier time during my papers.

well... i alwayz turn "tomato" in presentations. hope interviews won't turn out similar. never experienced such double anxiety.. going for interview the day before a paper. kinda nervous. argh. i really want my 3rd class! at this current point... its the best i can hope for. i need a miracle...

projs end...exams come.

2008-04-10T23:34:00.005+08:00

here goes the cycle again. can't wait to finish up my case study, gps essay & nego proj. by tue... yes. all gona be done! then its time to staRt mugging. but this time... the cycle's gona stop there. yay + haiz. kinda glad that i'm finally graduating... but definitely gona miss it big time! been studying.. been going to school all these years... & now its a total change into real working life. can't imagine wat its gona be like...wat to expect... wat's gona happen...w/o any idea on my job-to-be. i guess i'll juz look forward to enjoying my grad trip for now. i can smell the blue mountains nearing.. .woOo hOOoo~

but 1st.. gotta do mc stuff.. grab hold of sponsors soon! with the confirmation of full carpark given... think its a start towards our road to success! next week's big shot sponsor meetings... damn crucial. the meetups are new to me... never done this kinda stuff before. so far those i've went were quite alright... but the requirements at the end was all the same. next week gona meet more challenging ones... as i've heard. abit intimidating. in order not to say the wrong stuff.. sometimes its better to keep quiet. hahaha argh. hope they'll juz confirm it manz.... trust nus mC! come on come on. with your collaborations... we can start doing lotsa stuff aldy! who's very rich? wanna sponsor our event? u're very welcomed to contact us! hahaha let's have faith.. with passionate and dependable members... can de! I'll help out while i search for my job... and even after i've found one k? hahaha

tmr celebrating ah neo's bdae! so long neber see her liao~ minds cafe... yeah~ gaming time! this weekend... gotta squeeze time for nego. oh manz... analysis again. statistics is not something i'm good at. those pple who invented those softwares... i think they're incredible. so complex until pple get lost in it. oh well... too technical.

alright... serious now. i'll go finish up my work. pOof~

long time no blog...

2008-03-30T14:12:00.003+08:00

super supa duper dupa long no blog... endless report. have been working on my case study... analyze... dinalyze... trinalyze... & it goes on. reaches a point where i think i'm juz crapping. when i review back... what i wrote juz don't make sense. oh my god... wat's happeRniNg to my engLand! getting pple so do my survey is aldy kinda hard... now the analysis is worse. with vinc abusing that honour! u think everyone gets the honour to do my survey meh! be thankful that ur opinions are captured in my survey analysis ok! =P aiyah.. pai seh la... bo pian ma... must do means must do. i also help pple do so many~ thats sch life la... haiz. dun worry... that's the last of it all. time to throw the square-ish hat.

got a bad feeling about this last sem... case study seems to prove nothing significant. dunno if the marker will get lost in my confusing thoughts. i have a problem expressing myself... argh... wat a goner. exams coming... end of april. lost touch with politics readings... still working on nego assignment. the time will come... where i juz shake head and sigh. admist all this... no interviews yet. subtle waiting. application thrown to one side? or kept later for review after grad? y y y... i dun understand. maybe its a sign... maybe its not the industry for me. but wat is? lost lost... give me a sign! typing time.....

feelings of indebtness

2008-03-13T16:07:00.008+08:00

ever felt like u owe someone so much that u'll never be able to repay in your lifetime? not implying monetary of course... in terms of kindness and graciousness. its that pure heart and makes everything worse. the indebtedness i feel towards this good fren... the inability to return the gratitude i feel... sometimes can be overbearing. its not easy on the receptive side... its not a good feeling to know u "owe" but yet you can't "return". anywayz... i'll juz focus on the tangibles, and as much intangibles as i can. thanx 4eva..

the last of my bdae celebrations was with my dearies and guyies. after event at rp.. rushed to pick some of them to romano. luv the bread sticks there. affordable italian food. it was a long table, hard to talk to the other end. maybe we sould opt for circle tables next time. which restaurants have huge round ones? besides chinese i guess. time to source for some.

i thought the sim guyz wouldn't be joining for our nite planz... but they gave me face! feel so honoured lo... they had papers coming soon... but still so oNz. thanx manz~ so we made out way to marina at keppel bay... where the new chillout place is. some champagne and beers to fill us while chilling at gastrobar. there was a function that nite... so kinda crowded. the staff there all very frenly... great place~! the bridge behind us changes colour! so nice la~ qt wanted to take the different colours... but each interval too long le. hahaha i feel so glad to have found so many great frenz. i'm not a lucky person... i'm juz lucky enough to have found so many great frenz to share my life with. cheebongs included. so... thanx to everyone who celebrated my bdaes with me! & the presents.. oOo.. even more indebted. tHanx thAnX thaNx! i don't feel old... i juz feel so happy & fortunate to have pple around me who care. so rou ma... but true! so many of u has been with me thru' my ups & downs. helping me emotionally.. mentally... physically... acedemically.. socially... and simply juz being there for me. lUv ya aLL~

don't believe it...

2008-03-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

is it the vehicle? is it the date? or izzit juz me? i can't believe how suay i can get. its like hit-and-run. wth. culprits run... victims suffer. life is sad. monetary difficulties. argh. i can't wait to work... gotta clear debts. wat an entry to 23rd.....

23 and counting...

2008-03-08T12:52:00.010+08:00

the 23rd day of my life was not exactly normal this time. it wasn't a good day. how careless can i get. split second occurance... irreversible time. eyes should never wander. argh. i've regretted. i've sinned. but have learned. after that... the dae was kinda spoilt. the guilt. good mood turned mono mood. after much sighing... grumbling... and self-blaming... i slowly accepted that things had aldy happened. jordie's humour helped alot too... thanx manz! was so late for dinner at asian kitchen.. so sorrie to make them wait. luckily the other bdae ger entertained them...keke food was yummy... the suan la mian was so suan & so la! good good... better than crystal jade's ba. then it was cake time! 2 big for fish mei & 3 more small for fish jie.

big O yum yum~ after that... not all went clubbing. really wanted kor, shirlene & bernie to join us... but they had to work next dae. haiz. glad's mood slightly dampen too coz her other frenz put aeroplane. since st james music was trance... we switched venue. so apparently, the 2 pisceans were kinda down... but we consoled each other and that when we reached double O.. things will get better. maybe 7th was not a good day... but glad's theory that 8th will be better... was true! we came to a conclusion that... we should never expect too much out of something coz if we do, it hardly turns out as expected. better to think that things will be alright... & end up enjoying much more. tested & proven! hehehe

anywayz... O bar was shiok! & the best thing... got popcorn!! my fav! the dj was best manz. he's hyped-up & professional. songs he played... none boring. non-stop hits.... especially towards the end. hopefully lost some chalories there. haha double O was euro-dance, between trance & techno? i also duno nice or not... coz like abit techno abit not. luan... hahaha the rest didn't want.. so me & ren went up to checkout the mood... but 2 pple couldn't high enough la. & not much pple on dance floor... so pai seh. keke so we all ended up at O bar... hip hop whole nite.... at least the bdae gers had fun. thank you very much. =D

last tue went vivo ate shabu shabu with neo, leong, tann, wu, and kudus. the jap steamboat was nice. thankful to gene. they bought this choc mousse from bakerz inn.. so nice la~ thanx for the prezzies too! then wed celebrated for my musically-talented fren. had dinner b4 going flyer! night view was great... with the lighted cbd view and never ending flyover. view from the top was breath-taking. was too busy taking pics that 30min flew past...

it would be great to hold a party in the huge cabin... but of course for a longer time. kekeke think flyer should change colour... y alwayz blue? i saw once... it was colourful... but y onli that one time? aiyo. anyway... it was a good experience, but maybe a little over-rated. =P after that it was durian cake time~ next, went to check out the new prive near closing time.. but managed to get a drink b4 they close! nice chillout place... but onli accessible with car ba. hope he enjoyed himself~

last thurs went to run some errands... so convenient moving ard... kekeke evening time went to meet up cheebongsters. ended up going blooie's for dinner. we were the onli customers indoors. so exclusive sia~ hahaha truely grateful that they spared me some time to have this dinner celebration.. know they got lotsa work to do. realli juz wanted a simple one... but they never fail to make it a good one. never 2nd class la... how can. all my frenz are important to me leh. grinz. jordie didn't succeed in faking me this time... kinda prepared aldy. keke so no tears... sorry. =P but i realli appreciate the thoughtfulness. mango chzecake was yummy & big~ keke thanx for the pressie~ realli love it loads. so high-tech! hahah for me la.. coz i not so it savvy mah. i will definitely use de... put all my fav songs & pics! thanx cheebongs! lub u guyz manz. =) yep yep... so celebrations were great. one more later.. with my dearies and guyz. woOo hOoo... a yr older is learning more. still young hor. 4eva young. wahahahha no deceiving... its factual. gona be back to studies soon. had a break too long.....

hi again~

2008-02-29T16:46:00.003+08:00

its blogging time! last weekend celebrated our 2 dajies bdae in seletar east camp. restaurant called sunset grill. wah.. finding the place was not the only task... its the waiting of food that was more unbearable! but nvm la... everyone busy chatting while waiting for the food... & kept ordering the mush soup which was the quickest.. to fill some parts of our stomachs hahah hmm... noticed my dear annie's mood a little spoilt.. with all the dragging... but she didn't say anything. but its okie girl! des did find a good place... food was not bad. hope is i think too much ba. =P at the end.. we all enjoyed the super spicy buffalo wings! its crazy.. they have 10 levels of spiciness. level 2 was normal.. level 5 was crazy already. i cannot imagine the upper 5. realli bites your mouth later on... madness! there were tears in suwe's eyes & faces were red red red. yes, that hot. the wings, soup & lamb chops were nice... i dunno about the rest. although yummy... not worth the 1hr wait. hope they do something about it manz. dunno is kitchen slow or wat. but staff also short-handed.. so difficult to catch their attention every time. can onli go there if u have plenty of time to spare... kekeke

after that a few of us went to seletar dam. so many pple la~ some fishing... some chilling... occasional some showing off their speed. luckily got the hump there now... limit those irrational vrOomers. haha had great laughs... all thanx to lisa's crazy laughter. kekeke

oh ya... last sunday went blading! & we blade for 4 hrs! can't believe it. my legs was damn painful manz... dunno how karen tahan so long. think its me la.. me & my lousy ankle. haiz. after that went to eat stingray, kangkong, lala all those... so yummy! think void off the effectiveness of blading aldy... hahha later end up going to ven's frens' pub. the usual chilling with alcohol, cards, dice and singing. can see ven trying to play as much as he can now... poor him. wish him all the best for his op... we'll still meet up de! u have nydc hv support! hahah must get well fast fast ok?

well.. i'm feeling the fun-ness of next week le. woOo hOo~ 23 onli ma.. still young. so many many things! excited... busy... but fun. yeah yeah yeah. can't wait manz. hope i dun jeopardize those SIMs's results. feel so sorry... haiz but other daes not quite feasible too. we'll make it quick. okok... i hope everything turns out well. =)

busy busy busy...

2008-02-23T16:29:00.003+08:00

so fast... its 1-wk break le. break means its time to catch up on all the work. many deadlines coming up in 1st 2 weeks of march.. argh. how miserable. i'm juz gona try to get lots done during the break so that i can enjoy that essential 1st week of march. juz can't wait. gona be fun filled... but super packed too.

juz went to support snooker competition todae.. i'm so not up to that. heng i neber join... if not my face dunno where to put. they all so lihai... wonder if js got win his opponent anot... touch match lo. after i left cue sports club... feel kinda sad coz can't play with them le. & that now snooker gona die... with onli a few pple left... maybe i did the right thing. coz its like recreational game.. so we can alwayz meet up & play rite? hahha nus mc is definitely more time consuming... but i realli learn more about organizing events. its a good opportunity coz liasing with companies and professionals is something new to me. juz sent some emails... hope i don't sound too lousy. hahaha good experience... good exposure. hope that this event realli goes well... it must! =)

recently, so hooked onto viwawa. keep playing whenever i'm free lo... mj & taidi... ahh! distracting! kekek anyway...later goin for my 2 dearies bdaes... their bfs planned for them. see how good. hahaha tmr gona blade! yeah... exercise... finally! hope next week i can work ny at least a dae more... so like not so bad. but gotta see my schedule ba.

oh... & my tag board. its so irritating that they keep sending me email now & then.. saying that its gona expire. its coz inactive for quite some time izzit? argh. so whoever views this crappy blog (if any)... please tag tag tag ok? of course tag some sane things k... not to the extent of flooding. =P thanx for your cooperation! it'll be greatly appreciated. oOopz... formalities formalities... kekeke

cny'08

2008-02-12T17:58:00.002+08:00

happy rat year~! seems good for the ox this yr... so i'm hoping its true! gona be a transition in my life this yr... graduation! taking the bold step into the working world. excitement or anxiety? i'd rather not ponder. but this cny was a real fun one. everything the same... except for some new clothes & a little more cash to spare. hahaha reunion dinner was a simple one at home... nice dishes... eating together as a family. juz the 5 of us. something that's so rare... something that i quietly hope for more.

cHu 1: it was the usual visiting where i get to hear a little dialect conversations which i can more or less understand. these once-a-yr dialect "lessons" are not effective. argh. i foresee dialects disappearing... at least in my life. how to learn?! after lunch at grandma's place... went home to rest. visiting may not seem tiring... but plus the scorching sun, yummy cookies, endless smiling... energy depleted. took a nap before nydc gathering! steamboat at vie's place. lesser pple as compared to last yr... but still as fun. too much food i think. some played in-between... which i siam-ed. that's a fast $$-flying game.. which i dun wanna play. easy to lose... easy to win. rather play ban luck & mj. wahahha yeah... played 2 rounds all thru' the morning till 6am.. cheaper taxi fare! kekeke some pics here... gotta chase kor for more pics!

cHu 2: went to dad fren's place for breakfast... before rushing home for lunch with relatives. eat eat eat... & more eating. think my breakfast haven't digest finish & lunch aldy entered. later in the noon.. cousins came by to visit. too bad little niece didn't come which i expected. went for dinner with parents at italian restaurant along thomson road. called rou- something. can't remember. same place we went for dad's bdae last month. their bread sticks are so nice la~ actually.. everything from the appetizers to main course to desserts... all nice la. hahhaha but i onli took salad.. coz reached quota liao. keke at nite went for last min ktv session with mr eo & mr wu. so many songs not out yet... kbox... wat u waiting for... =P

cHu 3: despite the holidae mood.. i forced myself to edit the survey to be shown to supervisor. hope the survey approved... then can start doing the "real" work (which i dread). then ordered pizza & yu sheng for the party about to start. my those darlingz and guyz slowly came at intervals... but the notebook movie kept us occupied while waiting. a romantic yet saddening movie... extremely touching. anywayz... we lou hei!!!then after our scrumptious dinner, started our mj session. qt is the number 1 "self-touch" that nite... heng untiL... hahhaa more pics coming.. next time. for now.. onli got this shot of the happy couples behind us. 2 singles still enjoying life... hOr? soon la soon la... must find 1st ma. wahahhaa too bad mich had another house to visit... see... got a space on top for them leh. alamak. neh mind... next time. awaiting "complete family" =D when? slowly wait loh... hahahacHu 4: relatives came over again for dinner... lou hei again~ their 1st... my 2nd. had the 7 treasures dish which my aunt prepared... so healthy & yummy! with a lot more food tah bao from ban leong. their food is real nice manz. after that went to watch ah long long long... so farnie farnie farnie! i laughed till breathless. mark lee is crazily farnie... & heng the dialects are understandable.. so i think it was real good. maybe not worth the $10... but i had a good laugh. maybe lost some calories?

so yah... that was the cny weekend blast i had. flew past juz like that. but cHu 5 still continue celebrating cny! after work... lou hei & kfc-ing with ny pple. then ban luck! played till late... & we still didn't wanna stop. ban luck was fun manz... winning at 1st but later lost. i regret not betting more the last round... i dun believe it. i split my bets... & i've got ban luck for both! incredible rite? wah... i was damn shocked. & wat's even more unbelieveable... bernie who was beside me got ban luck too! i think realli amazing lo.. can u imagine? 3 in a row..ban luck together... the probability of that?! woOo hOoO~ how coincidental can it get?

todae... cHu 6 got sch le. back to sch again... fri gona lou hei with mc pple... & sat go ard bai nian with nus pple. so that should be the last of cny celebrations for this ratty yr ba. hahhaa i've had my fun... back to studies. hMm....

cny countdown....

2008-02-05T12:11:00.000+08:00

have been kinda busy... so didn't blog. trying to read the thick ps coursepack... which seems to take 4eva. i read so slow... dunno when i'll ever finish it. sch have been ok... but the work is coming in pretty soon! my supervisor didn't approve of my survey... said it lacked structure. ?? tough tough. hmm... doing a survey is not quite as easy as it seems. tutorials start this wk... so its assignments time! but stress will come onli after cny ba. hahaha

yesterdae was sof gathering... if onli did was there... then complete five le. anywayz... met gladys earlier to accompany her shop... but unexpectedly bought a top. midnite blue! so nice la. kekeke ate billy bombers untiL exploding... portion so big! but neH mind... wahahhaha had a good laugh to lose a little calories. =P walked to digest... & helped bryan find cny clothes. so difficult to find la~! but end up... he bought a top he liked la... which we 3 galz think... neH mind. hahhaa he should have got the other short loh! so shuai.... but he dun like! haiz. walk walk walk... after some digesting.. went nydc heeren. yah...eat again. =P had desserts & drinks... & i dunno how they squeeze another baked rice in their stomach. it was great.... simple sof gathering. next time plus didi. =)

neutrality...

2008-01-26T14:48:00.000+08:00

no more ups & downs. i'm actualli feeling very neutral nowadaes. maybe after all those emo times and happy times... now comes the stable.. normal me. hahahaha coz i've started research on my case study... and have been reading the thick coursepack for my political science module. at some point in time.. i thought i realli should drop... but after last wed's lecture... i've decided to stay on. although its crazy to be taking such a taxing module in this last sem... i realise that its beneficial for me.. as a singaporean. having a parochial attitude towards sg politics for the past 2 decades of my life... i'm finally "forcing" myself to learn more... about such things that i'd never go & find out myself. of course the fears of essay and final exams haunt me... coz i'm competing with all those competent writers. nvm... at least i learnt more about my homeland. hahaha

so sch's still manageable now... ankle is not misbehaving anymore. feel so normal again. have a fairly packed schedule... but juz can't wait for cny! oh... & going V bash tonite... time to relaX~! next wkend is jc reunion... so long neber gather liao! argh... i couldn't fulfill my bet with zhenyan. to lose pounds b4 xmas.... now reaching cny & i've still no progress. oOopz. hope he don't remember. wahahhaaha oh ya... yesterdae was nusmc interview... so heng i didn't have to go thru' that. think i would have fumbled. hahaha in a few months time... can't run away from job interviews. time to be brave...i hope. =P

ok... some publicity now. Lee Sheng Jie's latest album is out! abt a wk liao... so my advertising abit slow. hahhaa anywayz... think he looks more boyish with his hair cut. can't wait to go ktv to watch the mtv. hope its in soon~! got the cd... no piracy! support royalties... kekeke so happie for radio... i'm his loyal supporter. hahaha not gona say which songs yet... coz wanna get honest feedback 1st. hope they become hit songs again. but i think there are more potential ones still in the publishers' list... they gotta make them known! reach the right singer... & it'll reach us! realli hope he goes far with that talent. =D

back to sch life...

2008-01-23T22:00:00.000+08:00

have been kinda busy since sch started. countless career talks.. and mc meeting! can't believe how often they actualli meet up. onli a few la...they how enthu!! hahaha but this is a totalli new thing for me... guess i should have joined them earlier so that i can contribute more ba. snooker should have started even earlier too... now have to leave them abruptly. haiz. feel so sorry. well... realli hope cnkc will be a success. can't wait for it to all happen! kekeke anywayz... getting a little stressed up nowadaes... kinda early though. maybe coz i've never set any expected grade for the past 7 sems. but this sem... i noe that i have to get at least A- for my modules & case study? thats like near to impossible. with mediocre grades all along... how can i not get stressed? but if thats not attainable... bye bye 3rd class. not even 2rd lower. i noe its nothing much... but thats the best i can reach.. for now. i so regret the fluctuations in yr2. hAiz. oh well... grades are not everything... that's how i should console myself rite... =P

i've been trying hard to think wat kinda job i'd want. i have no direction yet... should i go into the RE industry? or wat else can i possible do? i juz wanna do something i enjoy... which is...? i've no idea wat i want sometimes. how do i start applying... when i dun even noe wat i'm interested in? how lost can someone get. useless. argh. with all the career talks in sch... it juz makes me ponder. the leaders they're looking for... am i up to that? it all seems so great.. but i'm still new to the working world. wat i perceive now may not turn out to be wat it realli is. i've alwayz been veri simple-minded. no huge aspirations... no huge dreamz... juz want a stable, interesting and acceptably-well-paid job. abt moving up the corporate ladder... i've never thought of that...yet. so maybe... i shouldn't be so stressed after all? but i want a 3rd class.. at least! y izzit so-near-yet-so-far! argh~ dun have any great achievements so far... juz a simplistic, average graduate. & thinking of the interviews... shaky aldy... still must praise how good i am? how to?! hahaha life's short. so little time... with so much to do. why why why... why is time alwayz flying when u need it most?

oK.. more cOoL stuff now. so many events coming up! cny~ eat cookies.. bakwah... steamboat.. take angbao & ktv! hahaha then bdae cycles coming again. my galz... we can meet up regularly le! at least for feb & march. hahhaa then it'll be exams.. then grad... then find job? so fast so fast... another transition in my life. a change in lifestyle... hope i can find a suitable fit then. see hOw... =)

differences...

2008-01-17T00:41:00.000+08:00

ever wondered how come twins are somewhat spiritually-linked but yet so different? why do unexplainable commonalities exist in pple of no relation... with only similar horoscopes as justification? wat makes u similar? the time of the year u're born? or the source which u came from? how is it that pple genetically linked can turn out so different?

u said b4... inherent personality differences & similarities in subtle respects. i couldn't agree more. but i'm starting to think that the subtlity is fading. can't seem to find similarities in aspects i deem important. are we really thAt different? or have environmental changes altered the situation. in deed it was as if we grew up in two different worlds or somehow grew to be different. if i was given a choice, though selfish, i'd prefer u never left. i 'd rather quarrel/fight like how we used to... than have u now like as if u're still distant. its a pity we've missed out on each others' paths... important crossroads that we should have passed. such contrasting goals and piorities in life... i juz hope the important ones u'll realise. my respect may have led to expectations... of which u seem to let me down. prove me wrong so that my respect can go on. we were never close... bcoz we didn't have the chance. but despite all, i hope u realise that i am alwayz here for u. they deserve so much... & its my piority. juz hope it's yours too.

waiting for this uncomfortable phase to end.

Day trip to JB~

2008-01-10T23:59:00.001+08:00

at 1st i thought i was gona shop alone... while my parents shop for their stuff todae. bUt! yesterdae last min... glad & ren could make it! assumed that they couldn't coz of work & sch... but end up they set aside time to join the shopping spreee! thanx so much for ur time & company! =)

its been a long time since i went to JB... so near! hahaha previous drive trip to kl via 2nd link took much longer... so i felt that going jb was like going boon lay. hypothetically. wahahhaha anywayz... went to huge Jusco at tebrau city to shop. rushed quite a bit initially coz i thought after lunch will be going elsewhere... but end up the plan was onli jusco. hahah they 2 bought so little... i felt i was buying too much. but things are no doubt cheaper there... so can't resist rite. brands like esprit, levis and dorothy perkins all equally expensive... so.. nah. juz bought some tops & uH-hMs from jusco...irresistably nice & comfy wedge-heels for work (soon)...& shades which i don't need. glad couldn't resist too. onli 10 sing bucks... buy & standby loh. i'll use it next time ba... hahaha karen was like the advisor all the while... she hardly shopped... -_-''' hahaha

it was a very stomach-filling dae. ate cup corn at ard 10+am.. then 1pm ate at some yummilicious jap restaurant with my parents & their frenz. the salmon sashimi... wAh! shiOok la~ & cheap cheap cheap! hahaha walked a while to digest... then ate baskin robins! my childhood fav icecream! so many unique flavours... we 3 had a hard time choosing onli 1 flavour each. shared a waffle bowl of 3 scoops of colourful icecream... a conflicting variety of mint, sour & sweet! amazingly... it didn't taste weird. very nice actually~! hahaha walked more...then eat again! 4+pm went for secret recipe tea-break (cheap!). brownie (with thin line of chz in the middle) was a total let-down... still prefer the authentic kind. but caramel chz cake was great! then ard 7pm, ate dinner at hak seng. btw... the dinner was very interesting! the boss is so hilarious~! outrightly arrogant... natural... stern-look. but u will realise that his arrogance is not harmful but yet very entertaining. my parents frequent there so they told us how straight-forward he can be. his responses are juz so uniquely.... arrogant. hahaha it's like he knows he is... but he's not bothered by it. & when he jokes... his facial expression is controlled very well. great food. realli! quality dishes. no wonder my parents alwayz eat there. near customs somemore.. keke genuinely nice fella... juz don't ever try to give unpleasant comments on his food. =P

was really super duper full... filled to the brim. dunno why we ate so much... juz wanted to enjoy ba. have the feeling of being out-of-s'pore. and maybe that was all we could do besides shop. coz suay suay... todae was like a special dae for m'sians. so the cinema & ktv was closed! so wasted lei. gladys had a brilliant idea of going for menicure before leaving for dinner... so we searched for quite some time. when we finally found the place... it was fully booked. we couldn't even pamper our nails... haiz. see... very suay rite. haiyah... but bo pian loh. fated to onli eat & shop. hahhaa but it was still an enjoyable trip. fast, short & fun getaway... & a great experience! i am ready for sch now. hahaha =)

start of 2008..

2008-01-06T16:07:00.000+08:00

never realli thought of new yr resolutions... but this yr... we galz started thinking. & have to seriously fulfill them. so yah... for those who knows... will noe. =) lets jiayou to reach our goals set for this fruitful new yr!

gona do some data entry next 3 daes... an alternative source of income coz ankle prohibits me to work at nydc lately. hope to go back to work as soon as i'm back in healthy form. hahaha can't wait for thurs shopping with parents. been a lOng loNg time since i actualli went on holidae with them. although onli a short & nearby trip... but still... excited! kekeke i haven't shopped in ages.... its about time. woo hoo~

sch's starting soon... this sem's gona be different. onli taking 3 modules... including my case study which is more of self-project work. so most prob will officially have onli 1 or 2 daes of sch each week. shiok rite...bUT! still have to come back for case study research as often as i can. self-discipline... am i up for that? i have to pull up my CAPs! another new commitment will be nus motoring club. gotta try my best to help out... hope i'll be more of an asset than a liability... kekeke was briefed on the happenings in store for nusmc this yr... and it sounds real fun but also lotsa work to do. gotta plan my daes right. set aside daes for case study... fix daes to work ny... put aside fri nitez for mc meetings... plan outingz with impt pple in my life every now & then. yes! it seems like an exciting new yr~ hahahaha its gona fly past... with cny coming to shorten the studying sem. so much to look forward... but also alot to fear. i'm gearing up for this challenging new yr! stay hopeful lena~

end of 2007...bye~

2008-01-02T14:21:00.000+08:00

28th was des's 22nd celebration. it was full attendance. ate at sakae outside ps where we had super yummy choc cake after dinner. we had a semi-private enclosed space.. but i still preferred the waraku privacy we had for xw-cum-qt's bdae some time back. des had so many IQ qns for us... all of us cracking our brains & using up all our brain juices till we all got tired. conclusion: mui's IQ highest... accreditted to her great maths & logic skills. chimology. there's even modules on logic... & i wun ever take them. too chim & taxing for me.. =Plater... we went to old sch. way up mt sophia. nice place to chill in the cool outdoors... but some got kissed by mosquitoes.. keke dearest ann got us lotsa staff from shanghai... thanx for the pouch, earrings & chocZ! kekeke so b4 we left... took a pic of us with old sch~!met up with jord later... unexpectedly for hotel spree! b4 going for some supper.. went hotel by hotel to find availability for our 31st hangout. it was a period of excitement... disappointment & anticipation. so hoping to find available hotel rooms which could view the fireworks... but most fully booked.. then finally oriental & excelsior had rooms but prices so high. so we ended up kinda excited about all... can't wait for countdown to come.

29th went blading with ny pple. so long since we had an outing!! but some 4got to bring our xmas exchange... oOopz. hahaha we exercised round ecp... stopped at jetty for breaks... & got drenched in 2 rain intervals. it was so fun! lost some weight.. keke

after discussing for some time... finally decided to eat at ichiban for dinner. split into 2 tables coz too many of us... & we had so much food! & then surprised didi with belated bdae cake. kekeke 4got to bring his present! 4getful me...haiz. after so long.... sof reunite! when can we sof outing again? =Panywayz... wanted to watch movie but didn't have any nice ones to catch... so played arcade a while b4 our next activity. lan gaming! cheap & fun. long time since we all played cs together. the guyz so lihai la... i think i onli lasted on the battle field less than 50 sec each round la. died so quickly.

30th went to punggol to see some karting & car stuff... then later was at expo for car exhibition. nice manz. saw a white beauty..rush... nice leh! so suitable for girlz. but i think i still prefer mazda 3.. juz looks so nice. i think its a sign manz... it keeps appearing in front of me. when can i ever afford one... haiz. long long way more la. slowly wait. & wat's even more exciting was the drifting performance outside expo! damn cool manz. they drifted in the carpark... showcasing their professional skills. uP la. was damn impressed!

31st... checked into excelsior in the afternoon. the room was nicer than expected! coz externally... it didn't look very nice... so we were mentally prepared. but when i went in.. it was wOw!! the huge window.. juz wat we needed to view fireworks. hahaha the view was so nice... s'pore flyer & the 2 durians. or pineapples which jordiE calls them. hahawent out for avp2 b4 tah bao-ing dinner from newton. had a hard time differentiating which was alien, predator & the hybrid. so slimy & gross... think will have avp3 ba. eEek. newton was packed.. luckily no eating there. bought so much food la! including my favs. stingray.. lala.. kAngkong.. chix wings.. blah blah blah. super sinful... but it was the last dae of 2007.. so.. heck la~ haha watched on-the-floor-tv terminator before tucking in for a cosy dinner... sHiOk~the nite view even nicer la... with lights and all. the flyer was lighted red and there were many many balls floating on the bay which changes colour. blue... yellow.. red..green... etc. the whole bridge was filled with pple... tons & tons. i juz love to stay in hotels... so luxurious. feel so pampered. kekeke of course ignoring the price we had to pay. =P alwayz wanted to stay in a s'pore hotel... finally did it! & with a purpose so worth it... fireworks! so we were all by the window... awaiting the moment....it popped right straight ahead. best view... no crowd... so magnificent!! my camera played me out... took a video of the whole fws but it came out blank. onli can hear the sounds. argh! so disappointed. ya... i should get a new camera.. but its not top piority in my new yr resolution. wahahha the cam keesiao de... now i take video perfectly fine. parents gona send it for repair. aAhhH! y must it not-work at that point in time when i needed it most! haiz. heng jordiE took picz... so nice la!!!! it was a wonderful experience. best ambience.. fantastic company... wat a great way to start 2008!! & with the wishes coming from my galz...happy 2008! i missed the gal talk... but i'll show u all fws pics! keke too bad alex had to leave early... see the nice nice fws u missed! hahaha so...cheerZ to 2008! =D

xmas xmas~

2007-12-26T21:24:00.000+08:00

merry merry xmas to all~! last sundae so looking forward to paintball... but not fated. rain. argh~ i was all prepared... but so disappointed. realli feel so sorry.. coz couldn't eat steamy steamboat with my dearies at marina. sorrie mich! i realli wanted to... if onli i could split into half. haiz. so went for dinner at grandma's place. had sushi.. bread.. turkey.. ham... and lots more home-cooked dishes. although weird mix but i'd prefer to call it variety. hahaha after that.. rushed down to gardenz to get mich a cake... b4 going to her place. watched pirated legend.. which i tried veri hard not to watch. promised to reserve that movie for spf... so i didn't pay attention. tried my best la.. but with the response from them... i think the movie is overrated. esp the ending. keke they practically screamed at a part. so farnie. hahah well... the surprise logcake was a success! and we had a hard time planning the present exchange process. but it was hilarious... took quite some time but finally done! sat in a circle.. all obediently closing eyes. took turns to stand & pass the gift to the respective person. we drew lots b4 hand... which made our exchanges more personalized. keke i got a super soft pink cushion which can light up... changing colours! so lena la... was wat they all exclaimed. haha thanx charlene! so happie~ our 1st time doing gift exchange... think we'll be doing this every yr now. so fun~ hahhaaha pics pics!

it was all fun fun fun~! if onli ann was there.. it would have been perfect. next yr ba! =P for now.. another reunion coming up.. on 28th~! des bdae... where are we chiLLinG at? there should be full attendence if i'm not wrong. =)

xmas eve worked coldside... super many cakes to handle. cake collection was like one after another.. where i practically had to go up & down a million times. had a hard time fitting all cakes into the limited fridge space. but after that went to have dinner at spageddies.... so yummy! later.. we spotted a few lighted floats that drove thru' orchard... like chingay! then went to goodwood for durian pudding at the chinese restaurant. wah.. it was damn good! seriously. real durian manz... not the usual pudding. then that radio took 2 balloons and we walked down orchard... he is seriously not-pai-seh-at-all. but i was. hahaha when the streets got rowdy.. with snow spraying fanatics... we quickly detoured and walked along the outskirts of orchard to lido. the crowd was crazy... don't wanna recall that i was once in there. argh. so we watched dan in real life... veri farnie show! so meaningful & nice =)

xmas dae worked hotside. coz of previous nite's slam... alot of prep work to do. me & junyong had endless things to do... damn tiring. back & ankles killing me... & sweating like a pig. our kitchen machiam suana! argh. then went to amk hub to meetup with neo, leong & wen. had fish & co.. a little shopping & then gift exchange. it was all so fun... long time neber see them le. wen didn't "follow law" but it indirectly made things turn out better. she got an organizer.. which i could make-it-up for my underpriced gift to her. she =) .. i =) ... neo =) coz got her gift. leong =) coz like my gift. we all =) coz got kwok a gift too~ hahaha took pics at a magazine wallpaper... realli look like we were invited to some special event. will post more pics soon~

tmr jord will be back from hk... can't wait to hear his experience there. i can so understand coz hk memories still fresh to me! hahha most prob watching real legend tmr... finally! =P can dec daes please move slower? holidaes are like ending so fast! dun want!! haiz. hope to go m'sia again b4 sch starts... for more leisure & shopping! see how ba. oh ya.. got results todae. so happy! can say very satisfied ba. at least my cap UP-ed. wooohOo~ juz hope to reach tHat mark. onli 1 sem left... so risky! haiz. okok... this new yr countdown.. dunno where to go. torn between 2 groups again. sometimes i juz wanna split myself! although can take turns go both... but its not fun to go abit here abit there. realli so vexed. i'm very greedy.. both sides also want. aAhHh!~!~~

holidae mood~

2007-12-19T21:24:00.000+08:00

have been working as much as i can. although not as fun anymore... but still can la. the used-to-be fun-ness are gone. the daes where we used to have suppers.. ktv & movies... and everyone is so bonded... haiz. pple left... new pple come. everything is changing. pple are changing. the work environment is different altogether. although still fun but in a different way. also coz i'm more busy... my ankles & back getting weaker... so i guess work is juz different for me now.

mon met up with spf... & i saw my adidas jacket! its here in s'pore! should i buy should i buy? cutting not that right. so expensive. dunno which size to get coz both fit. have so many jackets already... argh. think i'll juz 4get about it. its not meant to be. hahaha went to chiLL at demsey... so nice la~ b&j was closing... so we went to quarubar. jazzy place... frenly staff. many other chill out places... but target customers are more like the working population.

went to trim hair... added purple highlights. so loving it! juz hope the colour dun drop. it's been a long time since i added some colour.. kekek so gona work work work. tmr & sat at suntec... finally get to try! they're short of staff. know how that feels. kinda excited... dunno how busy it'll be. hope everything will be ok~ =) my cute little cousin can't wait to watch chipmunks this fri... keep asking me when & where. hahhaa i leave it to her mum to decide.. keke

xmas coming!! so excited!! fun fun fun.... coming up! =P

Drive Trip'07

2007-12-13T16:32:00.000+08:00

I'm back from a wonderful drive trip! it was so much fun that i realli didn't wanna come back. 1stly.. gotta thank nusMC for organising this trip.. & thankfully the events director is my gooOod chee bong buddy jordiEee who jio-ed us to go for this trip. woOo hOo~! u all should have made it 4 days or even 5! hahaha it was realli fun travelling... although some minor hiccups here & there... but still successful!! well done~

since its a drive trip... alot of time was spent on the road. dUh~ haha snacking.. sleeping... toking... singing.. suan-ing & laughing. it was a fantastic driving experience too... being on malaysia's road... passing so many tolls. both rain & shine. the crappy guys kept me entertained.. while i kept them occupied by my endless voice. hahaha too bad... there's no peace & quiet.. except when i slept. i juz love to make them annoyed as much as they love suan-ing me... kekeke so... this is how the trip went..

1st day:

setting off from s'pore 5+am... after pumping enough to cross customs. those 3 goondus are my longtime buddies.. spf who can't stop crapping. countless jokes made during the trip... so farnie la!

total 6 cars convoy to malaysia... 5 of them rented. this was our fiat punto with faulty back doors which could onli be opened with special "skill". hahah so we made our way thru' 2nd link towards KL. the journey was long but we had many CDs for our private ktv session.. haha fantastic views of green, blue & white...walkie talkies constantly beeping. convoy started off abit luan... but later on.. convoy was totally cooperated. communication was damn important & looking out for one another made me feel the togetherness of convoy travelling. moving as a convoy... my 1st time experience. Stopped for breakfast at some R&R b4 continuing our journey. reached a shopping centre next to sunway lagoon ard 12+ for lunch. wanted to go for go-carting.. but was mislead by the website's not-updated info. no more go-karting at sunway! not much time left.. so we window shopped a little b4 setting off to our hotel at KL plaza. On the way... KL was so jammed. changing lane was tough & if u're too nice... u'll never get there. manage to take this Mac... think i've never seen such a huge "M" before. hahha our car took a wrong turn & got lost somewhere. made a big round & so by the time we checked into the hotel... it was nite time. 8 of us shared a suite... & this was the nite view..so nice rite! went to 1 of the new shopping centre, Pavilion, which was next to our hotel. was welcomed by a magnificent sight.. the xmas decors so bling la! the xmas tree changes colour.. purple, blue, green, white, pink. ate at nandos... chicken of varying spicyness. yummy & cheap! couldn't find any place to chill that nite.. so juz bought alcohol from 7-11 back to our suite for some chiLLing. chatted some time b4 going to bed.

2nd day:

drove up to genting next morning. so cold as we got higher.. winding down windows was like aircon blowing directly in ur face. stepping out of the car was like entering heaven. so misty & cold...walking thru' clouds. but the feeling was shiOk! since we're onli there for 4+ hrs... didn't have time to play theme park. see that ride? its a superman coaster outside the theme park.. so didn't need entrance fee. but there was not enough time & they didn't wanna sit. oH weLl.. maybe i'll go there again another time ba.

the indoor theme park was more like a shopping centre. the xmas decors were all nice & colourfully lighted everywhere. after lunch at cheaper pizza hut.. we went to the casino. played big small... which was so addictive. watched how some pros calculated their probabilities to place their bets. casino earned our $$. its hard to win... pure luck for those w/o skill. gambling is a cycle. u'll win then lose then win then lose. so its juz a matter of when u noe u should stop.driving down the hill... vision gets clearer. the steep and winding road... going left & right. took many shots to capture the downhill drive. made our way to bukit tinggi selesa hillhomes where we settled. suite not as nice as 1st nites'... but still alright. below shows the view from our window and us relaxing before setting off. these guyz can't stop their xiaL-ing.. & a "singh" appeared after his shower. see... damn hilarious la~ the colours so matching... wahahha confirm laugh everytime i see it... heeheehee chee bong kia. even milan can't take it. hahhaadrove to french village nearby for buffet dinner. so not worth it... relative to our other meals. but the structures were nice.. like machiam in angmo country. & we finally took group photos of the entire drive trip-ers!

went back for black jack session with the wish bunch... before ending the dae. the bankers so lihai la... ultimately won over all players. hahaha but it was fun la... not much of serious gambling... more like socializing.. crapping... & laughing.

3rd day:ate hashbrowns again for consecutively 2 mornings... i'm loving it! then drove towards malacca. on the way... passed by petronas towers! too bad couldn't take the nite version. did spot it the previous nite... but couldn't catch a good shot.stopped by teluk gong seafood place (not by the sea) for lunch. it was the most fulfilling meal manz! food was great & so cheap! clean too... coz we were all alright after that. haha they had this coconut alcohol... it was damn good... wonder how they mixed it. next, we continued our way towards malacca... some pics along the way...reached a familiar place...tan kim hock product centre! bought some famous foodstuff. got my daddy's fav cuttlefish & some sourplum in honey sweets! passed by the red church and huge ship... which i recall coming with my parents many yrs back. drove to jonker street.. which didn't have much stuff to see. but made our trip there worthwhile by eating chicken rice balls! yeah~ finally got to try them... so nice leh!convoy leader got lost navigating for a while... b4 reaching the huge shopping mall which i remembered as part of my childhood memories. ate baskin robins... sLurP~ too bad didn't have much time to shop. but i saw a damn super duper nice adidas jacket which i juz love so much!!! definitely not sold in s'pore. i hope it comes... or i'll go m'sia to buy. navy blue.. smooth silky jacket material... with lime green near yellow stripes. love at 1st sight manz. have a size which fits me juz right... but i prefer a size bigger. argh! i'll get hold of it somedae.. but i have too many jackets already. haiz. anywayz... quickly made our way back to s'pore to return the cars by midnite.

overall, the 3 full day getaway was extremely fulfilling. so much fun... much more than i expected. it was mostly travelling & eating. although couldn't shop much due to tight schedules... still managed to make the best out of our time spent there. made more frenz... & bonded more with those chee bong buddies of mine. another great memory stored. =D

here's the season to be jolly~

2007-12-09T15:52:00.000+08:00

holidaes have been sUpEr shiOK so far. have been working... but my back & ankles not used to the strain le. anywayz... many outings coming up~ bdaes & xmas... then new yr! so packed already. yesterdae met up my dearies... went to bottle tree restaurant at katib to celebrate suwe's bdae. its the 1st time that we ate in a chinese restaurant like a huge family. too bad no one took a pic of the bottle tree. but wat was more exciting was the prawning after that~! got 5 rods to share by 14 of us.. took turns for 1 hr. i felt the pull a couple times... but didn't manage to catch it. either it hasn't got hooked... or it's damn good at eating the bait off the hook w/o getting caught. missed it... argh. almost leh! but managed to see how suwe removed the hook from the prawn.. & plucking the "kiap kiap" out. kinda gross.. its sad to see the cruelty at 1st... but when u see everyone else ard prawning... it juz becomes a norm there. so if u can't take the sight of "killing prawns"... then i suggest don't go prawning. hahha juz see the cooked ones will do no harm. prawns is still ok for me... but think killing of other animals may not be as alright. btw... the bbq-ing of prawns is even harder to watch. saw their legs still moving b4 they turn red. so i think its better that its dead b4 it gets bbq-ed. but it was yummy... the freshest u can ever get. someone else gave us 1 huge prawn... so big leh! but total we caught onli 6... since $14.50 per rod per hr... 5 rods ard $72. meaning each prawn was worth $12... wahahhaa overall... fun experience~ =) gotta find more things to do at my place... to accomodate more pple. 2 mj not enough... poor ly so sleepy. gotta find a new plan... so that no one slacking ard.. hahaha

tmr setting of for drive trip le. gona be fun... according to activities planned. so excited!!! juz hope nothing bad goes wrong. may we all be safe thru'out the whole trip! gona play... shop... eat... & play even more! kekeke can't wait~ =P alright... i'm off. take careZ pple! take careZ lena. =D

tmr's fREeee & weEee dae!

2007-11-29T22:47:00.000+08:00

oh my god... i can't wait for tmr! last paper.... but a scary one. its qm...sorta maths~ argh. although steps & calculations not veri hard... but i heard past sem's paper was so unexpected. so afraid that he give us some sudden shock... i can realli imagine that scenario. hahaha juz hope i can apply it correctly ba... dun wanna be stuck in calculations. pls pls... i pray. =P

anywayz.. already in holidae mood manz. sat onwards gona be back at ny~! can't wait. miss working... miss the hv family~ hehehe got new additions too... & new menu. i foresee its gona be a fun-filled december! so may have fewer posts... too busy enjoying~ hahaha see how ba. alright... last mugging for 2007... yEaH~! woOo hOoo~