finally completed course 1. certified. spent much more than needed bcoz we learnt at a more expensive place. argh.. i overlooked the "materials provided" part. will definitely learn at phoon huat next time... coz all provided for.

oh well.. but it was quite an experience with BIY though. we had to go in search for materials and do homework before classes. with so much to do, i wonder how PH does it all in each class. anywayz.. finally learnt piping. have alwayz wanted to... & it turned out as fun as i expected! but the thing abt cake decor is.. its only for looking. can't really eat it coz its too sweet. here are the pics...


the rainbow made of stars...


clownies were fun to make.


my final artpiece.. that's it for course 1.


all students' creativity.

overall was realli fun. so much more to learn!! whether or not to continue course 2,3,4.. to be decided at a later date when financially able. for now.. juz gotta save up first. so lost now.. learning all sorts of things... but still not knowing what i wanna focus on. oh well... see how it goes ba.

saw a rainbow next to flyer last weekend. 1st time i get to see the real thing in sg. the other was in aust. made my day. dec is a busy month but i think it will be a real happy one.

everything happens for a reason. be happy. i sincerely wish u all the best. appreciate the good things in life. i do.

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11:48 AM;

oh manz.. the hole is getting bigger and bigger. the one in my pocket, or should i say wallet or bank acc. sharks! this is bad. the class requires so much more than i thought.. haiz. its so hard to learn anything nowadaes.. its all about the money. but it has been fun though. hands-on is a totally different story. well.. hope the final piece goes well. can't wait!

another lumpsum was out for next yr's class. prepared for another blow becoz i will eventually need a new lappy and the software i guess. aAaahhh.... i need to save more. but how to save when my essential need is to go out?! its a big sacrifice to make. can i? will i?

oh well.. currently sorting myself out. searching the meaning in life, apart from juz enjoying it. need time for myself. alone. its for the best.. trust me. hope that its worth it.

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9:43 PM;

recently heard many life stories. gathered lots of mixed feelings.kinda affected by these realisations. 1) some guyz can be such bastards. feel sad for her.. she deserve so much better. and it made me realise how idealistic i am. she was like me too... which is making me doubtful. i'm juz losing faith. 2) some guyz are crazy. yah but i dun believe in numerous occurrence. she is hiding stuff. telling some parts of the story. i've seen it, not surprising. i've felt it. felt wat it was like to be "lied to". not literally.. but somehow kept in the dark until realising later. feeling like a fool.

yesterdae was a rush of emotions. so affected but hidden. juz dun wanna tok. smile and go on. take away my feelings. i dun give a damn.

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2:22 PM;

body acheing badly from the run. this time couldn't run 5km at all.. only 3 and no more determination. jogged some and walked some... so overall timing improved by a few minutes. i'm juz not the running type la... juz join for fun. had some htht with ppgs after that.. thinking back of yester-years. so much memories... good and bad ones.

at nite was qt & xw's bdae at 15mins. cool place... food alright. the "bright" theme did not turn out very bright though... but who cares. coz we had a grEat time at marina barrage... chatting about interesting stuff. new discoveries made.. thanx to our dear des... online pro. kekeke super quick bdae cake-cutting due to the strong winds. it was the 1st time we didn't sing song! haha pple chatted... i mostly listened. whenever my "sexy" voice came out... it was a natural joke. i know i sound funny... but maybe i sound funnier than i thought. its so easy to "zao sia" with this sore throat. hahaha i seem to loooose it quite often... guess i'm reAlly heatttttyy. the lifestlye. the food. omg!

oct's ending. nov will pass in a flash. dec... yay! busy busy busy for now... i need my voice back... quickly! can't talk to clients with this kinda voice manz. argh. where is my life heading... i am still searching. arrow.. please come out.

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9:35 PM;

sometimes i dun understand. is there not enough job seekers out there? can't be. or is the boss's expectation too high? its so obvious how your staff is overloaded. i'm not realli refering to myself... coz there are others out there that are worse than me.. i know. but i guess i juz didn't expect my portfolio to increase so suddenly. oh well. i shouldn't complain. coz i still get to choose if i want to OT or not.. juz as long as i plan my time right. it sux sometimes.. having to multi-manage and not being able to produce good results. diminishing marginal returns u know?

last time.. i was so focused on 1 major proj. knowing it so well and producing gd results. now.. having 4 major ones and 3 minor ones. no doubt i feel my diminishing performance. i'll pull through... some are getting close. i juz hope no last min surprises. at least colleagues are nice... helpful and fun! thats already a good encouragement. everything's gona be ok. =P

so looking forward to weekends. next wk human race.. arghhhh! i'm gona run at least 5km if i still can... wahahha hopefully the full 10km, that will be an achievement! exercise exercise... how?! how to be motivated when i eat whenever i'm happy, sad and stressed~ omgggggg...

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10:44 PM;

i know what to blog aldy. i know y i feel funny. bcoz recently weird things are happening. not to me.. but to frenz ard me. y is it that there is a similarity in all their endings? its not juz 1.. its like 3 pple ard me. omg.. wat's going on. is it bcoz of age.. that these start to get common? no.. i believe its not. it can't be. juz coincidence. now i understand my down mood. not that i'm directly hit... but that those ard me are. i'm the pillar.. here for support. if i can survive for so long.. i know u all can too. come on! cheer up~ life is GREAT, as long as u want it to be! hahahaha

been trying real hard to finish Wuthering Heights. chimology to the max. i'm juz not up to this kinda standard. but bcoz it is linked to twilight.. i will finish reading it! starting to get used to the language.. but it realli needs more effort than usual. omg.. how can pple actually write so abstractly. heard its the greatest love story ever... so ya. i'll try my best to comprehend.

yoga 1st lesson was so calm, no sweat. realli did the oHmm thingy.. but without the sound. was laughing inside but concentrating externally. we were a little giggly in class.. but controlled. missed 2nd class as i went for a little retail therapy with parents at JB. shiok la. anyway, went to another group's class instead, which was the 2nd last for them.. so the techniques were all so different and me & ting were actually panting. tiring lo! back to our own group this week... we need to progress slowly.

oct babies bdaes coming le. seems like so much fun. i juz wish i didn't have to work. argh! monday blues is almost over. but next week will come again. manz.. its a cycle. nvm... more outings to take my blues away......

thiNkinG at;
10:13 PM;

hmm.. what should i blog. wat should i blogg. wat should i bloggg. let me think longer...

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9:00 PM;