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Sunday, September 30, 2007

last dae of sch break...

after so many stretched daes...finally had a long nice 10hr sleep. but a little toO long...coz now feeling so lethargic. juz feel like sleeping even more.. haha our system very weird rite...can't sleep too long or too little. haiz. anywayz...later gona go ktv!! finally...after sooOoo long! yeah~

last fri's games with st.nicks gers was so fun la~ the class was veri cute...noisy of course...but still very fun. was kinda stress coz their form teacher was there. but later i was too busy playing with them. haha some were quiet but some so enthu... but when games started...all so noisy. luckily all of them were cooperative in the games. the onli difficult thing was to get them to gather or lineup... which i 4got that i was given a whistle for that purpose. =P i hope they enjoyed themselves...coz i really did~! keke the organizing was a little disappointing though...coz they end up rushing us & i didn't get to play more games with them. argh. think i should work in childcare centre? playing with them...is so stress-less. but maybe taking care is a totally different story? hahaha juz love kids manz.

yesterdae's event was a success! 1st time being organisers...& it was so tiring. but the food turned out nice...& the games was so funny la~ hahah hope they didn't get any stomachaches after all those wasabi, balachan and organs forfeits. =P glad that all of them realli enjoyed themselves...woOo hOO~ went for frog leg porridge after that...so hungry can~ then after that watched balls of fury...so lame la~ realli realli lame. like simpler version of scary movie. not worth $9 manz. argh.

haven't realli been to club street...but have to go there some daE! i noe there's lotsa pubs there...but onli found out that there was techno!! if i didn't hear wrongly la. hahaha lets go there chill some dae...pple~! =P kk...gona eat crabby with parents le...cholestrol up!

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Thursday, September 27, 2007

in the midst of term break

juz when i thought i could take a break...this 1 week is so darn hectic. if i'm not out....means i'm doing proj at home. the TR proj is so time consuming! the event for that proj is this sat...& so much things to prepare...hope it'll work out well. cross my fingers. so much logistics to handle now. last mondae went to watch planet terror...only movie available at that time...so gross lah! wah kaoz. i read the newspaper...i thought its juz about a girl who replace a leg with a machine gun...but i didn't expect the "aliens" whom they were fighting. yucks. bubbling faces, flesh-eating beast & ripping apart bodies. oh manz. so freaked out. heng we didn't eat popcorn.. or else would have puked. hahaha tue went back for proj meetings...stress built-up. but later went for snooker to relac. but later at nite...the moon was not very round...only after midnite...big round ball. ate yummy durian icecream mooncakes..played with lanterns & crackers. so fun la~ felt like a kid again. keke

yesterdae the moon looked so low...& it was huGe...fwah~ haha went to cuesports chalet at aloha...quite shocked to see that only the usual pple. onli 2 freshies! oh manz...dunno izzit coz i was late or turn-up rate was realli miserable. supposed to be a chalet to get-to-know the freshies...but end up all didn't come. haiz. so we juz ate, drank, played cards and mj the whole nite till mornin thru'. hurried back home ard 6+am to sleep b4 kudus' lunch bdae today. feel so stoned...so left early. had to come back to rush sat's event preparation. so now here i am...online...multi-tasking...but not totally concentrating on my work. as usual. haha tonite yiru & ly gona ton at my place...coz tmr morning gotta go st nicks to be game facilitators. i'm soOoo excited! going back to my pri sch~ see how much it has changed since i left...10 yrs ago! gona take class pri 2 wisdom...play games with them~ its my 1st time doing this kinda thing...think it'll be so fun manz. i juz love to play with kids...so cute!! thanx to alicia for this lobang...3 hr work...pay:$60. wow...good rite! high pay & get to play with cuties...hope it turns out well...think they should be guai lah hor? hahha okok...enough slacking le...bYee! *pOof*

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Friday, September 21, 2007

i noe where my money is going...

ever calculated how much $$ u have spent on movies? i haven't...& its uncountable by now. i guess these are the small enjoyments that u don't really take notice. lets say if i watch movie once a week...i'm spending $40 per month & $500 a yr! arghh! they are earning all my $$$!! actually...i'm the one giving it to them. haiz. maybe i'm a movie addict...but s'pore is really dead after 10+pm. too bad..no nite mkts. there's onli so much u can do...eat, drink, movie and ktv. with non-stop movie launches...& tempting popcorns...how to resist?! i can't la. hahaha i should get a membership... unlimited movie entrance. got? =P

last wed watched the invasion b4 zouk-ing. it was about a virus that changed ur genetics somehow which makes u emotionless. damn yucky that it's passed thru' vomit. but its touching to see how loving mother & son are. they saved each other & the whole nation. a little grossed out after that...but it helped to pass time. like i said...9+ shops all close...& there was nothing to do after our late dinner...luckily it was nice. zouk was great. had our regular shotZ...apple & illusionz. with vodka ribenaZ. managed to get some mambo exercise & a little r&b b4 we got squashed in phuture. they should expand phuture...since its obviously so popular rite. my dear sis...next time will make sure we keep u nearby... don't let u run away. haahaha

yesterdae a beambalance met up with 2 pairs of fishes...thought hard about wat to do after dinner...ended up in swensens. they changed menu & its so nice la. new things to look forward to. kekeke yummy~ & i juz found out banana is high in calories. shitz. not gona eat that choc banana anymore la...haiz. i should realli go find out more about food & nutrition. anywayz...gotta buy cd casing soon. my room's in a mess! no time. next week is term break...but already packed. where got time to pack room!! watever la...postpone it till later. somehow i alwayz end up packing my room b4 my exams...in the midst of studying. maybe thats when i'm stress. wait & see if that'll happen again this time round. guai pi? kekeke my financial resources are depleting...like siao. aAahhHh!!

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Sunday, September 16, 2007

wah ha ha ha

last nite...i had a real good laugh. its been a long time since a movie can make me laugh so hard. so if u're feeling down...or juz wanna catch a good movie...i now pronounce u chuck & larry! it was supeR dUpEr farnie la! trust me...its hilarious~ i dun mind watching again... hahaha

met blossomz at cine...so happy! long time no see...when are we galz meeting up again? miss them so much. sch life...getting monotonous already. going zouk-ing on wed with ny pple...& sat will be 8-ball carnival. think i'm gona xia suay again.. hahaha

heard of 2 new songs..."wait for u" by elliot yamin & "till the end" by david tan. so nice la. this reminds me...i haven't gone ktv in a long long time.... hmMmm....lalallalaa

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Saturday, September 15, 2007

random thoughts...lalllaalallaa

its amazing how everyone's fingerprints are different. number of different fingerprints = world population? wow...that's alot! not 1 that's the same? disregarding clones...or do their prints differ too? maybe thats y there isn't anyone exactly like us...which makes everyone unique in their own way. like in the movie Alone...even identical twins can still be so extremely different. i can keep wondering...but it juz doesn't stop facinating me.

we often ponder...are we doing the right thing? does our decisions...have bad consequences on others? some might choose to ignore...some are juz ignorant...but some may acknowledge it as the result of unfairness that exist in this life of ours. nothing is a win-win situation...something mUsT be sacrificed...whether u like it or not...whether u know it or not.

wat if one dae u realise wat u have done...has put someone else in misery? wat will U do? u can make things right...maybe compromise. but somewhere out there...sacrifice is made. thats y... there's no such thing as zero poverty. i'm not making any political stands or donation offers...i juz realise that many times...we can't control the results of our actions...on external parties. no one is to be blame. life's unfair...& its a fact. juz gotta accept & adapt. no point crying over spilt milk rite? most things depend on timing...once u missed it...then u've cuo guo. but doesn't mean u gotta drown in ur sorrows ya? seek alternatives...find solutions...be strong & life will seem fair. =) things are alwayz not as bad as it seems.

enough of these...must be the tv shows i'm watching. had yummy beehoon & curry chix last nite after work. i didn't noe hadiq was such a good cook la. hahaha it was farewell supper for cute little jobel. she's going back to philippines...another one leaving us. y like that! one by one...come & go. the start is alwayz hard...but later they improve. & they're alwayz so cute & funny la. all of them is like that...is it the philippino personality? if onli their attachments last longer...

can't wait for wed...its time for some exercise & music. yeah~ =P

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Wednesday, September 12, 2007

projs projs & more projs...

tutorials projects...they are never ending. can't even take jobel to the zoo...b4 she leaves ny. haiz. juz gotta get things done...so much. this is how sch life pass so fast...keep meeting deadlines & b4 u noe it...its gona be exam time...& its the end of the semester. got a big event to plan for 1 of the projs...got super enthu & A-grade-aimers in my grp. hahah its fun working with them...but may take up too much time for doing this elective. haiz. anywayz...my electives seem to score better than my cores every sem... argh.

realised that the infra-mushroom actually requires battery to operate. no wonder it spoilt so fast. argh. i thought these kinda thing run on infra energy? so shocked to see a battery when i operated on it. anyway...good also la...then i can buy the battery & it will work again. thought it was useless already. heng ah.

after i've clarified...things are back to square one. but this time...firmer terms & conditions apply. clearer of my thoughts...& what i'm supposed & not supposed to think. i'm juz glad to be back. back to the same person i wanna be. no more lies...no more guilt. no more being the bad person. end of story. =)

finally got down to adding a slideshow here...from slide. so nice la! abit mafan...need some adobe flash player to view...but its worth it! bling bling...starz...i like! wahahaha enjoy~

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Sunday, September 09, 2007

tame-ing down...

maybe i've been thinking too much. after speaking to ah neo...i felt like i've found myself again. its not like i dunno who i am...its juz that i haven't been able to behave how lena would have. i was surprised by her immediate reaction...when she didn't agree. but it was farnie when i saw her analyzing the situation...so seriously. thanx for the advice... i think u will be a good social worker. hahaha

guess i've realli placed too much responsibility on myself...being responsible for others. thats y i felt doubly pressured. like as though my worries are not enough...i'm worrying for other pple too. not gona answer my own questions anymore...i hate to make decisions. coz apparently i juz made a wrong one. no one is to define other's happiness. i was wrong in doing that...in such a way.. s o r r y.

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Sunday, September 02, 2007

weaknesses..

this morning went for amore women's dayout. was a good experience...finally got some exercise. learnt aerobics (kick boxing) & belly dancing at the open atrium outside taka. now i noe how to fight...& how to shake.. a little. the goodie bag was a good motivation...got a new sch bag by exercising. great~

besides the ankle...back...ling ba & other internal problems i have...i thought i was alright. but no...there's also mental weaknesses in me. can't be firm enough? stubborn yes...but maybe not strong enough to be firm. going against ur ren ge...is a real torture on ur conscience.. when the things u do..is what u would not like to (but may have to). this "torture" is constantly haunting u...everydae u wake up...everytime u are alone. challenging ur personality...becoming a different person externally...while internally u still remain the same. its all unfair. life may be a bed of roses...but dun 4get to realise the thorns. life is also a box of chocolates...both sweet & bitter ones... hmm. yah.

how r u? i hope u're okie. its not that i'm happy that things turn out this way...i'm not better off like that. but i'll juz tell myself that its better for u. maybe not now...but eventually u will be. remember "wo dou zhi dao" ? i truely meant that. u must be strong. dun care abt me. i sincerely wish u all the best. as alwayz...sorry (101%) & thanx(100%)...

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Saturday, September 01, 2007

chilled at acid bar

fun level: HigH. not on the alcohol...but high on the experience and ppg companionship. juz came back. todae...met blossomz for dinner. thought it was gona be a crowd...but many couldn't make it. maybe its the weather...that makes health fluctuate.. haiz. next time then. =) anywayz...after dinner went for unsuccessful midnite shopping. it's quite a letdown...no enthusiastic-feel of midnite shopping. i still prefer taiwan & hk's nite mkt life. too bad s'pore lacks this...otherwise it will be perfect. but i still love s'pore la. hahahaa most places were close...those open was quite sian. a little dark coz not every shop is open. argh. but at least i get to experience it for once. maybe its the monetary constaints that dampen my shopping mood. no $$$ manz...seriously. i need to work more...haiz.

bubblez came to join us for a little shopping...& then later went for ppg cHiLL-out! my back was ache-ing...don't know why. only walked a while leh. kaoz. so couldn't wait to sit down. lucky enough to get a nice cosy...chiLLed place in acid bar...where we soaked into the jazzy mood. the singer was damn good la. her voice is so soothing & relaxing. both high & low notez were simple for her. her partner was a guitar pro...& also stepping on pedals which sounds off drum beats. he's like multi-tasking leh... realli amazing! he could test his cords to suit her tone (in-prompt-to-ly) and also figure out the cords with juz a few strums of the guitar. their coordination was there...what a good live band. so we drank our snowballs, margarita & heineken, while engrossed in her voice...& his instrumental excellence.

she sang many songs...mostly heard b4...even those which i haven't heard in a long time. & her singing juz makes me fall in love with the songs again...like "sometimes when we touch". her version of "fixing a broken heart" & "what if god was one of us" was so heart-warming...so nice! i think watever song she sang...made the song alive again. heard a new jazz song called "i wish you love". juz found out that the actual song doesn't sound as nice though...maybe 'coz i dun like the way the song starts ba... but she sang it in a better way. real meaningful lyrics...

Goodbye, no use leading with our sins
This is where our story ends
Never lovers, ever friends
Goodbye, let our hearts call it a day
But before you walk away
I sincerely want to say

I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this
I wish you love
And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
But more than wealth
I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best
I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love
I wish you love
I wish you love, love, love, love, love
I wish you love

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