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Sunday, September 28, 2008

urge to find...

woke up todae with a sudden urge of wanting to find the meaning in life. somehow demoralised by yesterdae's daytime work. thankfully neo & ying were here to up my spirits. did a little therapeutic painting. went for icecream after dinner... & watched mama mia. wat a light hearted show. makes you feel so happy after that. maybe that's wat made me wake up feeling like i've gotta do something about my life. stagnant... dreadful at times.

still can't make up my mind to stay or go. i've gotta do something about this part of me that's holding me back. wat do i want to accomplish in life? life is short... gotta make the best out of it.

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Saturday, September 27, 2008

fun flies fast...

obs was great. too bad didn't get to play those challenges that i wanted to... like climbing high, flying or jumping. it wasn't in the schedule which had to cater to the organization. but the games they prepared were interesting... not as crappy as i thought. veri meaningful actually... revolved ard "shared values". so there was evaluation after every game. the raft was the funnest! great accomplishment. pics of our grp f1.. crapz. (couldn't think of anything better.. hahah) then its a last shot b4 leaving obs... & all-in on the bumpy boat ride back. can't spot the trainers rite... dun need to try.

thought i could go back to rest... but was recalled back for work. but it was better than feeling bad i guess. anywayz... gona join lotsa sports. decided to go for badminton as soon as i get my worklife balance approved. volleyball have been great... so fun la. arms starting to season from all the impact. but can't wait for trainings... coz tournaments coming up. bowling also gona start soon... so rusty. 1 week is too short... really.

next wed is PH! tues will be real fun... can't wait kekeke librans' chalet coming up. it has been damn long since we chalet-ed together. everyone's busy nowadaes... difficult to plan for all to be present. but don't worry... coz it'll be great. take it as it comes... wat's meant to happen, will happen ba. when expectations are low... the satisfaction will be much more. so don't expect too much... otherwise disappointment comes. it will be juz fine.... =)

progression is slow... or is there even any? i'm subtly determined... but lack experience. pls show me a sign... pls return my efforts. i'll keep hoping......

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Wednesday, September 17, 2008

1 way... or another...

so amazed when i saw the new ipod nano. so light! its hard to imagine there's technology in that slim thing. totally amazed by how their products get better and better. its impossible to have the newest... so i'm satisfied with my nano. thks guyz btw. hahahaha went to some cafe near nus for dinner. alex must have had a great dae... getting punked by those goOd frenz of his. wahahaha definitely something to remember. was juz a simple celebration... at least better than the initial dun-plan-to-celebrate idea. i think bdaes are meant to celebrate. 1 yr once only. but presents are getting harder to buy! preferences... needs... wants... not easy k! especially the one whose bdae is coming. endless list of things that cannot be bought. argh. not wanting/needing anything doesn't mean we won't have to get u anything alright. no angpaos dun worry. u watch it... HA HA HA

yesterdae went for volleyball. despite daphne's endless nagging... i still insisted. hahahaha i didn't betray netball ok... juz so happen it clashes sometimes. by right it won't. but i'll go netball on other tues la... anyway i'm a liability there mah. kekeke i've alwayz liked volley. so fun! apart from the swollen & blue-blacked arms after that. parents got a shock... thought i kena abused. oOopz. oh well... not used to the impact ba. watching the pros play.. amazed. reminds me of the sega volleyball game i used to play so often last time. blocking the smacks... juz in time & in the right position. pple are so nice... coaching me along the way. i have so much more to learn. so.. after that went for dinner at kovan area. both indecisive... chin chai. so ended up eating hokkien mee & over-eating all thanx to the dimsum i ordered. time should have moved slower... wish i could have been more normal. unsure of the familiarities. kept wondering if intuition was true... that there's juz emptiness. felt it. pls tell me its juz tiredness.

is it the past that spoils wat can be? i'm impressed by how some can give their all. wat drives them... wat is the thing that hooks? wat makes them so sure? i realli want to know. karma is showing... but can only rely on fate. maybe its juz not meant to be.. juz maybe i hope. if you knew u didn't exist... will you try? even if it means falling again... will you even try? some admire the strength of pursuit. some are envious of the "lucky ones" whom are pursued ever so dearly. but others may not agree with the same "lucky ones" whom are seen as being the bad ones instead. i've tasted both sides & both are tough. its not easy to give.... when the other doesn't receive. its a no-no. its over. i should juz stop trying.

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Sunday, September 14, 2008

Nus-Mitsubishi Challenge

It took months of preparation.. nights of hardwork... lots of brain power... tons of planning... & it was over juz like that! realli think the hard work everyone put in was so damn worth it. of course the credit goes to a selected few... who put their heart, soul & effort in it. made sacrifices... endured irritants. anywayz... wat's impt now... great job manz! well done. li hai. pei fu.

i couldn't help much during the planning stage... so tried my best to contribute during implementation. hahahaha fri night joined them for preparation to event dae. after some final logistics touch-ups at punggol... went back to sch to put up banners to beautify the starting point. when i heard mr president's bad news... i knew that sleeping was not applicable. so we quickly rectified the problem.. & it started to drizzle. spirits were dampened... but not for long. as the sky got brighter... participants started coming in and our enthusiasm automatically came. for me la. could feel the excitement of the big event. the wet weather made things a little messy... but i guess heaven was on our side. drizzled on & off but it was good weather way ahead. there was the usual car horn-ing before start off and off they went! while completing some administrative details... a phonecall triggered our safety taskforce. they sprung into action. an unfortunate incident but luckily no casualties. slippery roads... that's y gotta be extra careful when driving!

i subaru-ed to src for a quick bath. luckily milan was free... otherwise i would've been so late. managed to reach there on-the-dot 10am. was it his subaru? nah... i didn't speed. did the set-up and thanked the man-y-zer for opening gmax especially early... juz for us! nash & peiying came soon after... and we slacked for quite some time. the guyz there so crap la... but veri entertaining though. keep requesting for their free kopi. some early teams came at 11+am to get their courage tested. some were realli onZ. dared to play... willing to pay xtra (at discounted prices) and simply did it as a team. at some point we were like marketing gmax... manyzer even said we could work there. hahaha later ard 2+pm.. slam! teams came in bunches.. queues got a little long. but the hype was definitely there. screams were genuine & fear was felt by looking. free advertising by the participants... as their screams drew many viewers. it was realli interesting to see participants taking up the challenge. all sorts of reactions... expressions & sounds. the FAQ : "which is more scary? bungy or swing?" well... i couldn't comment coz at that time onli sat bungy before. and the answer to that question was realli subjective. heard some say swing is more scary. but judging by the looks of it... some thinks the bungy is crazy. really gotta thank the gmax pple. poor guyz were so busy strapping & unstrapping the teams... one after another. under the hot sun... continuously for hours. had to treat them kopi & large bottles of 100+ to make up for the lost energy. realli grateful for their effort. got many galz ma... so i guess they're willing too. oOopz.

number of team-mates taking the challenge correlates to the number of points. some teams made their decisions by analyzing the screams... the visuals... the feedback... the price or even the points. mingled with some to calm their nerves or while they're waiting in the queue. feedback were positive and could tell they were all having fun. after seeing so many teams going up.. i'll still smile when i see them take off... feeling so excited for them. i realise viewers were all smiling too... its a natural reaction. well... lucky for us. manyzer was so nice to let us sit foc. sat bungy some time back b4 the event. it was damn fast & sudden. & the guyz can be cheeky... counting 5...4... then off u go. totally unprepared. screamed like siao... felt weightless up there. sHiOk! as for the swing... me & my 2 hyper volunteers sat the swing after all the teams have left. wOw i tell u... being pulled to the top.. was onli the beginning. if u're scared of heights... i warn u to think twice. but peiying was very daring... coz she sat although she has that fear of heights. she had no regrets after the ride btw. for the swing... it was not so sudden coz its manually operated. when the green light came on... 1 of us had to push the trigger to send us "viking" downwards almost vertically. that initial drop was madness... but dAmN super duper shiok! it felt realli good... real fast.. heading for the trees then the river. then u'll swing and enjoy the great view. personally, i felt the swing is definitely nicer. maybe its the view and the swinging motion, rather than the bungy's vertical thrust. felt so relaxed after the ride. will definitely ride again... but only if its not so ex. =P

after that... packed up & left. too bad my volunteers couldn't join the dinner that night. so made my way to orchidville at mandai. buffet-style function. the place was huge & the food was good! minor hiccups here & there... but we covered them up well.. i guess. hahaha dinner.. sponsor appreciation... prize presentations. pOof. before u know it... it's all over! participants left and de-brief. we all looked shag but there's that sense of satisfaction and relief. i'm starting to miss it already actualli. lastly, we split into grps to clear some logistics before heading home for a good rest. it was a real fun dae. re-play pls?

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Sunday, September 07, 2008

music is my life

been hooked onto some songs recently. maybe its the music... plus the meaningful lyrics. Here are some i'd like to share. tastes may differ... but watever. its nice to me la. --> Ina - I wanted you. Rihanna - Take a bow. Rascal Flatts - What hurts the most. Nina - Someday. Luthur Vandross - I'd rather. Deutschland - Cry on my shoulder. Taylor Swift - Teardrops on my guitar. Oh... so many many more. Thankfully for my nano... can indulge into emo-ness.

can't imagine a life without music. it has tremendous power... the next to "love". it soothes and calms... it hypes and excites depending on genres. it can exaggerate emotions... it can change moods. it can be used for all sorts of occasions... be it alone or in groups. it can make a baby sleep... but can wake others. it irritates some while enjoyed by others. it accompanies and expresses.. in moments of our lives. a mood determinant or even a catalyst.

i'm not crapping. simply reflecting. i juz love music...

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Tuesday, September 02, 2008

not peaking...

bad occurences... sad experiences. currently not at my peak... when have i ever been anyway. bad news came... juz hope its not as serious as it seems. having as much fun while i still can. sounding like i'm gona die soon? nah... not yet.

know wat? haven't had tHaT kinda feeling for a long long time. well.. i guess life's like that. wat u want u can't get... & wat u don't want comes knocking. some ups then went down down down. maybe it's all wrong. i've got it wrong. pls tell me i haven't. coz it seems so real.

lazy to update blog nowadaes... coz its work work work. i've gotta start to do work faster! otherwise.... consequences are dire. of course got outingz also la. but juz hope enjoying results in true happiness. not juz temporary pleasure.

outz.

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