sometimes i juz wish things are simpler. like how life was during sec sch. when everything is not given so much thought & circumstances juz turn out right. why is it that some see things so shallow-ly.. like how foolish they think i may be. i know there are some that are not on my side, even going against me for not making a decision they would most willingly make.

not accepting doesn't mean not appreciative. u can't imagine how agonizing it can get.. when either way doesn't seem right. i may be stubborn.. i may be selfish. but i guess i have my reasons for my decisions.. in which they may or may not be right. i wouldn't know. tell me who would.

believe me, i know very well how lucky i am. can't thank you enough in this lifetime. which all the more makes me wanna leave sometimes. why am i like that? there's something holding me back. not sure exactly what. but until i can let that part go.. then i may juz be able to take that step.

sometimes i question. & all thanx to my persistence.. i realise my intuition is right. how can i trust when each time something new pops up. but then again, u r free. everyone makes mistakes. but somehow it feels uneasy. the heart that is.

pls simplify things, so i can see more clearly.

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