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Tuesday, June 26, 2007

woOo hOo~

yesterdae's bowling was great! was veri nervous actually...coz big O, heeren & suntec got good players...so, kinda stress. luckily everyone was on-form...so all contributed to total score ba. i was damn shock with myself too...the 1st & last game...the last frame. woOo hOoO~ holland came in 1sT for bowling..again! 4th yr consecutively. hope it'll stay like that...coz this seem to be the onli thing we're good at. hahhaa guess its the team spirit ba. felt the encouragement & fun. it turned out well...it was really relaxing. but coz after that got other pple's tournament...we used 2 lanes each which speed up our competition. 3 games ended in 1 hr plus. so everything happened so fast! thanx to all who came to support! it was soOooo enjoyable. =)

so...holland is 3rd overall. its the best we could do. pray one dae our soccer & captains ball will improve & bowling maintain...then we can get 1st! but difficult la...haiz. anywayz...3rd good liao lah! hahhaa so satisfied. =P attachment is gona end soon...july coming...yEaH~ time for holidae & full shifts. gona be spending lOts...so it means i gotta work extra too. hMm....

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Wednesday, June 20, 2007

ache-ing...

body is acheing...from last mon's captains ball. it started out terribly. felt useless coz i wasn't contributing much. thanx to my butterfingers and my lack of exercise. was demoralised with other's comments... as usual. sometimes i dunno why i'm so affected by pple's comments. not that i wanna allow it to dampen my mood or wat...but it juz does. although i noe its unintentional... i'm juz so darn affected. maybe its the stress at that time...the expectations i had for myself. maybe i was juz pressuring myself. dajie..i noe its teamwork & i noe everyone has to play their part. maybe thats y i felt like i didn't play my part initially...so juz disappointed with myself. but later after the swop of strategy...i was put to a better use. at least i felt like i helped somehow. it helps when i have a great team. at least now we know we needed a proper plan...and if it was implemented earlier...we could have took 1 position higher. but its alright...3rd is good already. it was fun. lost some sweat but put on weight again after the fiesta back at ny.

bowling's next mondae. getting 1st won't be very possible this time...coz of the competitors we've heard abt. hMm...even if we get 1st...overall also 3rd or 4th only. nvm ba. juz have fun loh. anyway bowling is fun...juz enjoy + abit of stress. =P hope the other outlets put abit of water & give us face. hahahaha this week can't work coz too many things cropped up. i'll try to make it up in july. sat's the 1st csc committee meeting. later gona collect 1 of my spree stuff. 1st time experience. & the others still long way more.

hMm...everything's in a mess now. yesterdae's talk didn't solve anything. jing tui liang nan. cuo le zai cuo. bu zhi dao gai zhe meh zuo cai dui...cai zui hao. juz hope pple dun ask. dun judge either. july's holidae getaway is still unconfirmed. so lost...dunno where to go. dunno wat to pick. argh. leave it to spf ba...hor?

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Sunday, June 17, 2007

satisfaction...feelings of appreciation =)

come to think of it...i've been with nydc for 3 & a half yrs already. amazing how i've stayed there & never thought of leaving. although many changes now & then...it's been cope-able. kitchen staff gotta wear "shower caps" now...argh! thought it was suppose to be a place to "let our hair down"? hahha maybe for customers...not us. haiz. working lesser now...due to past sch workloads and attachment now, i'll still wanna work while i enjoy during holidaes. coz i realise i enjoy working there. seriously. because of the work colleagues...the homely-family-like feel we have among us. the attachment to the cheezy-smelling place & of 'coz the nice customers. & it juz makes me so happy to noe that pple appreciate us. thru' conversations or thru' comment cards. its the small little feedback we get (positive ones)...& sometimes thru' tiPz.

this family came last nite...regulars. cute baby girl...called Rachel (i talked to her...so pretty la!) they expressed their gratitude to us thru' a flattering comment card and it juz made us feel so appreciated. & their generousity extended to tipz too. another customer...i found him familiar...but can't realli remember who he was. only had vague memory of this uncle...& if i'm not wrong...it was a not-so-good experience. think he was unhappy abt something the last time he came...& it was real long ago. he came with his family this time...i was a little intimidated coz i couldn't remember how he was offended the last time. but there was no prob & b4 he left...while greeting goodbye...he said something like "u've been here veri long rite"...& so on. i was so relieved. luckily he didn't mention abt last time...meant that he doesn't "hate nydc" anymore. hahaha i'm still wondering wat happened the last time...hMm....

yeah...have experienced many like these. these are the little things that makes working at ny so satisfying. after all the nasty customers we've experienced b4...its the best feeling we can ever have. as long as our hardwork is valued by our happie customers...it realli makes my dae. =) & when frenz come to find me...its an undescribable feeling of happiness cum excitement...that they miSs me...kekeke oOpZ =P but realli...thanx! makes me feel i'm the luckiest...happiest...fren in the world! hahahha

anyway, later going for dinner...happie fathers dae to all the papas out there~! typically, my dad is the dominating person in my family...not those exaggerating kind. quieter type...but strict somehow. his love for us can be felt discretely...not through words but actions. maybe thats y the bond among us is all discrete...& not so obvious. well...yah...hope he'll like the mini golf set pen holder cum golf club pens i got for him. gona eat loads again tonite. hahha

oh yah...yesterdae went kill time at amk hub b4 work...lotsa things there la! & when i thought i was gona be alone the whole afternoon..psf came to the rescue! was realli telepathy! woOo hOo~ jam...walk... eat...tok... laughsSs. declaration of psf...need cert? lifetime guranteed hahhaha cruise? hk? genting? how??? can't decide...can't pick only 1. i want all. no $$$....

tmr is captains ball! so excited....but scared leh. so long neber exercise...& now gotta compete with other fiT competitors. nervous but still looking forward to it...juz wanna have fun! not getting the lowest 2 positions would be good. bowling will be even more stress! but can't wait. =P

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Tuesday, June 12, 2007

attachment ending soon...

so fast 1 month of attachment over. left with onli 1 more...3 weeks to be exact. its been busier nowadaes...coz we're helping out at valuation department. have been going on many site visits...from east go west...then go north...& everywhere. now we have a good mix of sitting in office & going out for some walking. valuation seems veri fun...but a little underpaid i guess. & if i'm not so lousy at it...i'll consider. but i hate calculations. hahha

went to watch oceans13...so nice! incredible how everythings flows juz nice...abit unbelieveable also la. but nice techniques. i still dun understand some parts ba...slow abit. keke captains ball & bowling is nearing...so happie! veri excited. but hope dun xia suay loh.

genting call me...but i can't go le...coz mum says bird flu there. hmMm...maybe hk ba. have the urge to go hk...realli! coz my colleagues have been saying how nice it is. disneyland! argh. gotta save up if i realli want. should i? can i? could i?

alright...i'm off to travelling s'pore. time at UP is limited. gotta enjoy my desk...the lunch times...& basically office life as much as i can! =P

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Wednesday, June 06, 2007

thanx...

juz when i was at rock bottom...all the right pple juz came . like as though they heard me. ppg 3-way telepathy. i realli needed that. hearing ur expert opinions, coming from ur vast experiences, it did help. thanx baobeis! furthermore, was kinda woken up by eo's "scolding"...& dajie so happened to be with me on those 2 daes of craziness. all ur consoling helped somehow. i no need to pay consultation fee hor? i noe u all are getting sick from all this...i already sick liao. but u all sick must see doc take MC k? i cannot take MC de...but me nvm one. sorry to seem like such a mood down-puller these daes...i'll pull myself up somehow. i'm okie la...i have to be. i will & u must too.

so sorry for all the hurt i've brought to u. u must have felt double of wat i'm feeling now. maybe even triple. i'll never understand wat u're going thru' & u'll never understand mine. maybe this is how it will be...it seems. for every thanx, there is a sorry that goes along. take gD careZ...

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Tuesday, June 05, 2007

wAtevEr

felt a sense of hope last nite. but went crumbling down again. "dunno what to say" has become a common answer to use. juz an excuse. juz a form of running away.

I'm weaRing out... too tired
I'm bloated up.... with tears
I'm losing it..... all feelings
I'm giving up.... on u. on this frenship we shared.
I dun have a choice...rite?
(u shut me out w/o hearing wat i have to say)

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Monday, June 04, 2007

utterly disappointed...

another emo roller coaster dae for me todae. was all excited b4 doing my hair...& so happy after it was done. abit not used to it...juz hope it lasts. met dajie go squeeze in PC fair @ suntec...sun bian went to find qt. so hard to find la...& she was so busy. hahhaa couldn't find nintendo there though...but anyway i dun wanna buy le. no $$$ le...after pampering myself todae.

ate at swensens and talked. heng i insisted...trusted my intuition...saw the expression on her face. plz dun hide anything from me especially when u noe how impt it is to me. i noe u'll tell me but i was juz hoping u didn't hesitate as much. thanx for telling me though... now i noe who. it does mean alot to me. i noe its hard for u...so sorry. its not that i didn't wanna control it...but i juz couldn't. dunno if i was too angry...or juz too hurt inside. how some pple's concern can turn out to be knives. stabbing or maybe juz adding in words into others. was it juz plain words of concern...pure innocent views which was misled to think i've implied that? i dunno. but u chose to believe them...so watever. i felt cheated...like how the stuff i admitted was twisted to be something i didn't say. dunno the exact words...but i doubt its important anymore. worse still...i'm not given a chance to explain. should i confront? i wanna make things clear but maybe i shouldn't. coz who cares anyway? fug it. was practically boiling inside...but the anger was slowly washed away. numbness...emo-tired.

but i did try...but the reaction i saw was as usual. avoidance. 4get it. if this is the way u want it...i'll juz go. didn't want things to turn out this way...but nvm. u dun care...so y should i. felt much better after letting it all out....thanx dajie & sorry again. mood was lifted... all thanx to eo & wu. their jokes & happy spirits juz influences me...had some b&j icecream & played pool. wat more can i ask. even had a "thrill ride" home. so fun. btw, genting is calling for me.

juz gotta get away from the wrongs that i can't make right. tmr back to work...haizzzZzz....

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Saturday, June 02, 2007

she'll be back soon...

its been almost like 8 months since she's gona to hk for exchange...haven't seen leong for so long!! & she'll be back this sat! yeah...hopefully will meet up on sundaY ba...hehehe from her updates...can see she's having tons of fun at hk...& can't bear to leave hk. guess u've had ur fun there....its time to come back to sg! hahaha can't wait to hear all ur experiences & ur new perm! =P

hmm...gona miss the messy & wavy hair of mine. excited but hopefully turns out well. did some shopping with blossom yesterdae...she bought tons! & we spent whole dae in far east...like practically 4+ hrs haha i'm still searching for the dun-have-my-size shoe that i saw in bedok interchange. un4gettably beautiful. haiz. anywayz...after went to eat @ fish&co suntec...shiok chezzy fish & chips & seafood platter. guess my cholestrol juz went up hahhaa slacked ard while waiting for others to arrive. bo pian went nydc coz no other place is still open at that hr...with good food & all. hahaha hesitating but for the sake of my fren's hungry stomach...our acheing feet and killing time...ny still the best. needed some hot EG tea to cleanse the oil intake too. thanx for the discount.

rushed off to catch 11.30 shrek...so farnie lah! simple but touching storyline. nothing much to expect from a cartoon...so its good enough for its target audience. went lakopi at hk cafe after that...toked abt teeth & laughed abt flossing. qt's past cca & some regular updates. well...looking forward to xw's concert coming up. juz b4 leaving...there was another lakopi session. so juz went ahead...wasn't sleepy yet anyway.

nintendo DS...almost wanted to go IT fair to check out the price...but hate to squeeze with pple. guess wat jord say was rite...i'd only play a while. maybe i shouldn't waste the $$. spent alot on shopping already...& ard $100 gona fly off on sundae too. so maybe i should juz save up. off to work soon...time to smiLez. =)

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