work has been crazy.. & dusty. so many site walks and appointments. hopefully able to close my 1st 2 deals.. after they sign. & no.. i have no commission. better to work like this.. coz not $$ driven. dislike materialistic motivations as it changes work ethics. but i've also tasted my 1st let-down. they say its common in this trade. say until the sky so high.. promise to do a gd concept. i supported it although there were objections. & i presented so confidently on their behalf, only to end up getting a change of mind. oh well.. just my luck. it happens.

commitment is so questionable. you can say it but dun mean it. only thru' actions will you noe if its truly there. trustably there. i'll juz have to take their words more lightly.. dun pin so much hopes until they have signed on the line. well.. work can be damn tiring.. but at least time pass faster. they're making me choose.. sooner or later. i'm supposed to go back to where my headcount is.. but they are hinting me to stay. i like both. pros & cons for both. i realli can't pick. pls juz give me an order & i will follow. i hate making choices remember... argh.

all that aside.. long wkend ahead! tmr ah neo's bdae. she is miss mafan. but at least she makes the choices.. after changing her mind a few times.. like restaurant, present, cake. after that maybe ktv.. maybe not. maybe df.. maybe not. but fri definitely df i guess. sat will meet up my galz liao! so wasted.. could have met my little blossomz juz now but didn't see her sms in time. argh. nvm.. we make it up on sat k? with lisa.. i've been waiting far too long. kekekeke

following wkend got concert to attend. so exciting! but am i still invited? oh well.. things can change. the mind is fickle.. the mind is playful. i shall not predict wat others are thinking. the onli thing i can ask for is.. truthfulness. that's all that matters. =)

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