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Tuesday, January 31, 2006

cny celebrations...part1

woOo hOo~ its been fun so far...visiting the usual pple & collecting angbaos. gotta start saving up now. been spending toOo much recently. =P yesterdae had steamboat with ny pple...really great! bought too much food though...but it was all fun but hot~ haha played a little mahjong & gambled abit. not veri lucky coz lost some $$. watched coyote ugly..which is soOo nice!!! i love that show...so sweet. & thats wat makes me so gian to be bar-tender...not that kind, but the way they swing the bottles...how i wish i knew.

anywayz...the red-shirts asked us to join them at zouk...but guess it was not the right dae for us. some weren't interested & we wanted to ALL hangout together. our young girl couldn't go in...so 4get it. we're all fine with the decision to go kbox. marathon all the way till 6am then made our way home. i'll never go ktv on a PH again...its crazy~ too exp! luckyily no more taxi midnite charge by then. well...guess my activities started already. tmr's gona be xw's house! so exciting! & i still haven't lao hei leh...oh manz. haha still remember a few yrs back...a cny which i lao hei like 5,6 times. & this time...maybe onli once. tmr? i hope so. keke so looking forward to it! haha enjoy the picz~

4 act cute guyz & 4 cute gerz =)

expensive ktv session on cny...haiz

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Friday, January 27, 2006

messed up..

was messed up one night...juz wanted to cry. juz basically drowning in self pity. didn't noe how it happened...it juz did...ever so suddenly. thoughts ran thru'...my tears flowed like a spoilt tap. i simply felt lost. thought abt too many stuff that i can hardly sort out. wanted to call pple to tok...but then dunno wat to say also. its not like i have a particular problem..its juz like everything's not right & didn't wanna wake ppgs up. i dun expect them to be there for me whenever i need them...coz i noe they've got their own busy lives. i might have disappointed them b4 w/o even realising until later. but as long as i have them in my heart..i noe they're alwayz there. rou ma? *bLeaHz* thanx to didi for calling at the right time...maybe not for u...but sure for me. sorrie for making u worried..maybe i juz needed someone to tok to but yet i'm speechless. it realli meant alot & i felt much better. i believe that nobody is lonely 4eva...there's alwayz someone..somewhere...who will be there for u. & be thankful for that.

i hate to say this but my ankle is misbehaving. hope its the last time i'm gona wrap it up...coz i can't take the hassle & hiding anymore. its cny...& y fall sick at this time? argh. when's the last time i went river angbao? can't remember. but anywayz...no use going this time...no voice to scream. i miss music dance though... keke cny brings back memories & creates new ones. this time..reunion dinner not at grandma's place...too many pple. simple dinner at home with parents & bro+wife. was thinking when there'll be little additions to the family. guess a long way more ba. tmr gotta do usual routines le...but when the sun goes down...its alwayz a different plan every year. so looking forward...gong xi fa cai everyone~

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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

new colour~

brown was wat i loved...but i decided to try red this time. maybe coz cny coming? hahah its darker...finalli something different rite? my frenz alwayz say my hair's alwayz the same...now its not~ keke but i feel farnie leh... haven't seen my hair so dark for a long time. but once the colour drop...dunno become like what. anywayz...veri satistfied actualli...coz its worth it for the price i got~ =) yesterdae went cny shopping but not fated with clothes ba. onli managed to get a skirt. thats all. its alright...i'm juz looking forward to the cookies~

juz read ppg's blogs. poor red one...suffering in her sch. teachers' not doing their job...turning out to be devils. makes me realise how impt teachers are. i'm veri impressed by many of my lecturers...coz many are actualli of high status in their expertise. sharing their experiences & making lectures interesting. especially the law ones. i've never slept in a law lec...coz they realli noe how to teach. these pple are impt in every student's life. they actualli affect how we "see" that subject. i'll alwayz remember my sec sch history teacher...whom i hate. ended up faile-ing all the way. unlike my science & art teacher who were fantastic...the grades were soOo different! =) hang in there girl...independent learning since those pple can't help. haha the blue one has got many tutorials to finish up ya? jia you ba~ & glad that u're enjoying urself too! hehe

i've been sleeping late nowadaes...so many activities...feeling quite tired. think i'm gona rest early todae. after cny...i gotta start on my studies...haiz.

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Monday, January 23, 2006

dunno where to start...

many things have happened...too long didn't blog. well...lets see. i bought a dress for bro's wedding le..yeah. went mos with jc frenz...it was fUn! my 1st time clubbing with them. learnt new games but end up drinking quite alot coz kept losing. haha danced alot & ate candy floss! & btw...every thurs...main arena is r&b. gd way to make their thurs earningz higher.. keke if onli they had techno...haiz. i'm still waiting to go doubleO.. rush.. liquid rm...& many more. not yet ba...my tutorials are pile-ing up. gotta clear them soon.

ankle kee siao again...giving problems. tried my best not to create more trouble by not changing sides..& i guess i made it thru' with a huge orhh cheh on my hip. ouch. incredibly painful & purple. ok..it looks damn scary. yucks. can someone tell me wat's wrong with my ankle? see doc but can't seem to get a definite answer. onli maybe this & maybe that. juz make sure dun come back... =P

sometimes stress can make one lose control...have negative & foolish thoughts. most importantly is talk it out..cry & then go to sleep. when u wake up...will feel better. it is tested & proven. never keep it to urself & suffer inside. i believe nobody can be lonely 4eva. feeling loneliness at times is unavoidable but there's alwayz someone...somewhere who is there for u. i'm willing to be there for pple whom i care...hopefully able to & not held up by other stuff. haven't met my girls.... like for so long! seems very long. my timetable totally don't fit theirs. argh! guess onli can meet when the sun goes down ba. sch...haiz. dun enjoy myself coz i feel that i dun belong. dun have my cliques which i used to have in sec sch & jc. i'm alwayz with leong & we've been gd frenz since jc. but this sem..no tutorials with her...i feel kinda weird. sometimes i realli dun feel like studying anymore. juz wanna turn back time & re-live those memories. dreaming again.....

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Sunday, January 15, 2006

mudpies...icecreamz..

been working many daes this week...starting to get so tired. i think its so unfair. but who am i to say. a leopard neVeR change its spots. someone irresponsible...others suffer. morning dun prepare properly...sabo nite staff. not like as if its a weekdae. wouldn't be so busy if he had done his part of his FULL TIME job. y do i feel like part-timers are even more pia than some full-timers? where's the logic? i realli dun understand how some pple can get soOo lazy...argh! everytime i think of it...i get so worked up. its not the 1st time...& i have to tahan the aches & cuts i get from piaing so much mudpies. when other pple juz get away with it. lucky for all of us... he's quitting. go! shoo manz...can't wait. anyway...he work like machiam neber work. okie..enough of my bitching...but its reALLy unfaiR. now i can finally rest from all the hard icecream. wrist+arms+back=pain. now u noe y i'm so pissed with pple who sabo others? anywayz...wait till my tutorial timings finalise then i can plan fixed working daes & fixed outing daes. keke

juz now went eat with parents...talked abt my bdae. guess most prob it'll be at my place ba. unless any sudden changes.. =P it realli puzzles me how busy life can get. i thought this week was busy...next week's gona be worse. unknowingly...made planz with many pple & ended up filling up my whole week. incredible. but i'm not complaining... =) many outingz are gona clash. like mui's bdae. that thurs-sat is gona be fully packed. guess i can't be at her party...but i'll join them after my bro's wedding k? i noe how tiring it's gona be...but then there's the fUn factor in it..which makes it all worthwhile. & some outingz/events are a MUST GO...so...ya. hehe i'm super girl! 1 more week of no-tutorial...must maximise enjoyment~ =) lalaalllaaalalalallaaa

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Friday, January 13, 2006

liFe...ooH life...oOoh liFe...

noe this song? kinda bubbly song...coz of the tone ba. nvm...not impt. juz thought of it. keke well...juz saw ly's bloggie. i must say...wELl doNe! *cLaP clAp* realli think veri well written. all my frenz seem to blog so nicely...but here i am...speaking so brokenly. i think ly deserve a place in uni. its not that she can't do it...its juz becoz spore's educ system is like that. based on tests & heavily on a major exam. wat if suay suay the exam period is not a gd time for a particularly brilliant student? wat if exams clash with some devastating event in one's life. wat if...juz too tired or not on-form to do well in exams..then ur path is fixed? wat if u could have treasured someone more...but u didn't? wat if there was a chance but u didn't take it? so many wat ifs...& yet certainty is sometimes so darn painful. many times...i say..if only i had...if onli i could turn back time...all these are juz things to make me feel all the more regretful. so y not lets try to avoid these words? it may make life less miserable rite? =) wat for live a life full of regrets & not looking forward...treasuring wat u have now..at this moment. pple who live in the past will juz end up miserable. no one is born miserable...we all have the right to be happie! yes..look at ly...so happie..peak of her life generally. that entry of "love tips"...i will refer next time when i need it. keke that advice comes with many yrs of experience leh...keke oOopZ~ but i must say...i'm realli happie for u! u've finally found him. =)

1st wk of sch...slack. but i've got many choices to make now. think i realli have to drop a module...may not be able to cope with 6 mods. with 1 being law & another being history. the science is realli realli interesting...but maybe next sem? i'm lazy to get up early for lec too. or maybe drop history? but it actualli seems fun too...& its a new module! fresh. i wanna take both...but can i cope? doubt so leh...with the uncountable events happening this sem..risky. can i take this risk? but which one to drop...i'm soOo veri veri mAo dUn! indecisive la~ argh. my hair...should i dye or highlight for cny? rEd.. duno y...juz feel like it. bdae...my home or chalet? argh. how how how. tutorials gotta plan...alamak. cny clothes! oh manz. bro's wedding...i need dress! oh no. all need $$$..jialat. been taking taxi too often nowadaes...pOck! decisions decisions decisions...!

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Sunday, January 08, 2006

wonderful weekend~

well... fri after work had last min outing again. went mistro to eat desserts...mine was so heaty~ nice..nutty but heaty. should have ordered the peach thingy instead. after that watched derailed. i was the light bulb. =P kk..dun say le..if not karen's gona blush again. oOpz! haha nice show abt adultery & criminals with a good twist. it realli made me realise how vulnerable gerz can be. i saw the helplessness & the pain she can go thru'. it was not a scary movie...but more or a mentally torturing show...that's the scary part of it. maybe after the twist...i felt relieved coz it was all fake. but the danger is 4eva true.

i spent my whole sat afternoon lazing at home. argh~ supposed to go jamie's chalet earlier but then timing postponed. was realli a bored couch potato...waiting to go out. luckily parents came back...so i visited my granny with them. raining & raining...they sent me to the mrt...so fated. if onli i had a car =P jamie's party was so nicely decorated...with a nice corner for photo-taking. haha felt so sorry that we had to leave so early...in order to pia to xuwen's party. all 21st bdae...this yr's gona be hectic manz. juz hope no more clashes..keke xuwen's chalet was so crowded when we got there...made it in time for cake-cutting. =) every grp was entertaining themselves ba...so i guess this is how big parties work. bbqing at midnite was fun but tiring... xuwen was making himself drunk by mixing yucky drinks. haha but it was hilarious watching him. all lazing ard but not sleeping...juz toking & toking. went into room to disturb fren's slp...my fault? =P couldn't slp so i decided to learn mahjong! not bad...i noe how to play le! but onli beginner. i'm not hooked to it...but realli can stay awake leh. 7+am then left for home...overslept & late for work! so tired....but i was kept awake at work todae by the holland idol derrick... oh manz. i dun mind his toking...juz need to give my ears a rest sometimes k? haha he's unbelieveable...can realli tok nOn-stoP. realli.

okie...i'll go have a gd long slp now..tmr is a super long sch dae. this sem's gona be fast...6 modules...4 months. cny coming...bro's wedding...then my bdae...then examz. i dunno how it'll turn out. hope for the best~ =)

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Tuesday, January 03, 2006

5 precious daes to go...

i count myself lucky that i have 1 more week. being in nus & not ntu. but after this week of bidding...sch starts le. 3 lects squeeze on mon..higher chance for a shorter sch week. hopefully. lucky me...gotten a shift on PH last mon...& lucky me had a chance to walk less in hot side. ankle plz be strong..dun wanna poke needles in u again.

isn't it weird...y most of the time...u're looking so hard for something but juz can't seem to find it? for stuff & maybe even someone? i choose to believe that things happen when u least expected. & it does. eg: been searching hard for a new bikini. but when i'm not shopping for it particularly...i juz found one. one that is so nice that i juz bought coz i didn't want to search anymore. & coincidentally...its the same as karen's! except the colour la. how qiao can it get...& how blurr can i be. haha

went town shopping for present todae. i think i've realli got intuition. izzit female's instinct? pisean's intuition or lena's 6th sense? kekeke its scary how sometimes i can guess others' thoughts. may be luck... may be chemistry with certain pple...may be some unexplainable feeling. think i should stop wondering & thank god for my special gift? wahahah anywayz..quite excited abt sat.. 2 chalets in 1 nite. guess me & leong have to pia? but i feel its gona be fUn..like our last partying b4 sch start ba. =P tmr 1st time working with bAhpO at hotside. nervous. no idea how it'll turn out. stress~! keke

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Sunday, January 01, 2006

1st dae of 2006

well...its 2006~ hmm...dun realli feel anything different. maybe coz this yr no celebration..for me. didn't get to see fireworks...haiz. it was a normal working dae. thought that 12am..we'll countdown ourselves...but guess everyone was not in the mood ba. onli vie banging pots & pans. haha fri nite was great...wait side was all the galz. it was fun manz. from 6pm it was busy...all the way till midnite. but it was managable coz everyone was cooperating. nothing went wrong...it was a gd dae. but yesterdae...abit disappointing. if fri's staff was working last nite...it would have been great. but well...sighz. morning was fun coz we had nice breakfast together. keke at nite...many things went wrong. maybe i realised it coz of glady's sianness. i guess she, gloria & allen was doing most of the work ba. imran was creating trouble? i was shocked that serene & imran still can't recognise the items. they r not trainees anymore. enter same time as allen..they should be able to noe wat is wat already lah. cashier had many problems...think it started with me ba. i helped to do a bill & i made a big mistake! argh. didn't check wat number i pressed & did a $555 gift voucher! the "5" key veri sensitive~ argh! oh manz...thats the worst mistake to make k? i noe its serious...thats y i was kinda sian after that. was juz pissed with myself ba...& rahim had to settle it with more bills coming in. i felt better after rahim "forgive" me. yah...thats when slowly...wait side started to tense up.

there was some celebration outside but in ny...juz normal working. debbie & ash called to wish us...& we shouted back..that was the onli "high" part? hmm...no one was in the mood to go crazy ba...coz its not a gd wait side combi? my ankle is starting to give me problems again. i thought its over. i juz hope its temporary. realli dun wanna go thru all the trouble seeing doc again. glad & glor was tired & sian...heard karen scolding imran until...i juz felt the whole atmosphere was so tense & my ankle was not helping. i was looking forward to going out after work. but the galz didn't meet up. & breko..tcc all crowded. had to spend $$ & all tired? the most logical choice was to take transport van home. i fell aslp in the van...even while smsing. haha reached home relatively early & slept till 2 todae.

maybe new yr countdown is juz a normal dae after all...juz that previous yrs i see it as a big thing. past nye celebrations was all fun to me. all memorable. crowds..high spirits..relaxing...happie. but this time all had own planz...maybe next yr? haha this one's memorable to me too...but its juz different. anywayz...debbie's farewell at mos was fun. pure room was so comfy! big beanbags & circular sofas.. all white! mos is huge & toilet is fantastic. its a great place. fUn! can't wait to go there again. sch's starting in 1 week's time...i've gotta pack my room! kk....haPpie nEw yeAr everyone! =)

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