haven't blog for so long... but gotta at least update this dead site for the new yr! life's different now. with more pressure at work... sometimes it juz makes each day like a battle. testing my limits on how much more i can take.

sometimes i think its in my genetic makeup... not like i love doing other pple's work... but i juz wanna make things right. can't juz let it go and say thats not my job scope! oh well... when a company doesn't hire enough & exploits the staff.. wat can i say? work is all linked & u rely on pple's cooperation. it gets fustrating when that does not turn out the way it should.. and i end up on the losing end. there's no fairness at times. even my buddie at work cannot take it aldy. things are so shaky... maybe i should be my own boss. but money is alwayz the issue. not sure if i will ever live my dream.

one thing's for sure... i have support and encouragement.. reminding me of my worth and not to be so selfless. i am thankful for his presence.. his wittyness. my life is definitely different now... with the choices i make & the words i say. its not alwayz a bed of roses... although its almost 90% of the case. hahaha at times... i juz wish there is more integration. i think i have done my part... juz hope for more willingness from your side. like a natural want for u to join me & things impt in my life. everytime i wish for that... i seem to be forcing u. guess its juz different expectations and way-of-life. i respect that... so i'll not force u anymore. because only when i see u willingly want to... then i'll feel the warmth.

when two pple come from different lifestyles... there bound to be changes in each's to compromise & work out a new route together. i know i have to make sacrifices but my principle of frenz foreva still remains. thank u for understanding that. i noe u are not as patient but i noe u are trying. the way we are... somehow i have a feeling that u are the one. :-*

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