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Saturday, October 31, 2009

emo affected

recently heard many life stories. gathered lots of mixed feelings.kinda affected by these realisations. 1) some guyz can be such bastards. feel sad for her.. she deserve so much better. and it made me realise how idealistic i am. she was like me too... which is making me doubtful. i'm juz losing faith. 2) some guyz are crazy. yah but i dun believe in numerous occurrence. she is hiding stuff. telling some parts of the story. i've seen it, not surprising. i've felt it. felt wat it was like to be "lied to". not literally.. but somehow kept in the dark until realising later. feeling like a fool.

yesterdae was a rush of emotions. so affected but hidden. juz dun wanna tok. smile and go on. take away my feelings. i dun give a damn.

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Sunday, October 25, 2009

run run run...

body acheing badly from the run. this time couldn't run 5km at all.. only 3 and no more determination. jogged some and walked some... so overall timing improved by a few minutes. i'm juz not the running type la... juz join for fun. had some htht with ppgs after that.. thinking back of yester-years. so much memories... good and bad ones.

at nite was qt & xw's bdae at 15mins. cool place... food alright. the "bright" theme did not turn out very bright though... but who cares. coz we had a grEat time at marina barrage... chatting about interesting stuff. new discoveries made.. thanx to our dear des... online pro. kekeke super quick bdae cake-cutting due to the strong winds. it was the 1st time we didn't sing song! haha pple chatted... i mostly listened. whenever my "sexy" voice came out... it was a natural joke. i know i sound funny... but maybe i sound funnier than i thought. its so easy to "zao sia" with this sore throat. hahaha i seem to loooose it quite often... guess i'm reAlly heatttttyy. the lifestlye. the food. omg!

oct's ending. nov will pass in a flash. dec... yay! busy busy busy for now... i need my voice back... quickly! can't talk to clients with this kinda voice manz. argh. where is my life heading... i am still searching. arrow.. please come out.

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Thursday, October 15, 2009

portfolio expanding..

sometimes i dun understand. is there not enough job seekers out there? can't be. or is the boss's expectation too high? its so obvious how your staff is overloaded. i'm not realli refering to myself... coz there are others out there that are worse than me.. i know. but i guess i juz didn't expect my portfolio to increase so suddenly. oh well. i shouldn't complain. coz i still get to choose if i want to OT or not.. juz as long as i plan my time right. it sux sometimes.. having to multi-manage and not being able to produce good results. diminishing marginal returns u know?

last time.. i was so focused on 1 major proj. knowing it so well and producing gd results. now.. having 4 major ones and 3 minor ones. no doubt i feel my diminishing performance. i'll pull through... some are getting close. i juz hope no last min surprises. at least colleagues are nice... helpful and fun! thats already a good encouragement. everything's gona be ok. =P

so looking forward to weekends. next wk human race.. arghhhh! i'm gona run at least 5km if i still can... wahahha hopefully the full 10km, that will be an achievement! exercise exercise... how?! how to be motivated when i eat whenever i'm happy, sad and stressed~ omgggggg...

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