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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

2 down...3 more to go~

hahaha amazing how i can be so relaxed this sem? i thought i'll be all stressed up especially with so many events which happened this sem. well...i am quite amazed that i'm still cOoL. maybe not a gd sign...but i'm not that stressed. maybe i noe that i've reached my limit...studying more won't help...will onli make me more tired. so i juz sleep early at midnite (also 'coz i'm scared i overslp for my early morn papers..haha). hmm...is my limits too low? is the standard i set for myself too low and easily reached this sem? think my frenz all realise how slack i am when we study together. or maybe its coz they're so hard-working that it makes me seem slack. haha i onli noe they keep pushing me to study more...& i have to thank them for that! if not...i'll be even more relaxed. =P

todae's paper was mcq and structured qns...which was so damn difficult lah. hahaha mcqs in uni are not easy at all. so tricky! 1 thing i learn in uni exams...open bk exams are much harder than closed ones. unbelieveable?....believe it.

So now...i'm left with the last 3 paperz...all open-bk and all essays. oh manz...time for crapping~ hahaha juz can't wait till its all over...outingz are calling for me! with 21st bdaes once every week...i think its easy for me to have fun! hahah lets hope my gals' exams are doing fine...mui & ann are enjoying their trips...i miss u all so much! think haven't met for almost a month? aHh~

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Saturday, April 22, 2006

numberz driving me crazy...

oh manz...how i hate finance. i can never seem to get it right. actualli its not very difficult...coz pple can get it. i juz can't. guess its coz of my weak foundation...darn. should have understand it earlier on in yr1...then i wun be so lagging behind. well...kinda too late now to do anything...juz have to figure out & hope the exam question not so twisted & tricky. haiz remember those times after finance paper...where i feel like i flunk terribly coz i realli couldn't answer most parts of the qn. juz hope i get sympathy marks for my workings ba. argh...i'm drowning in numberz! i wun be surprised to be dreaming of numbers these few daes. 1st paper is finance...argh! can't wait to get it over & done with. still have another continuous module in yr3...oh manz! i think i'm stuck with it.

well...weird that i wake up so early todae? wanna noe y? coz i drove! drove my mum to market...& went to do some mkting with her! hahah seldom i go wet mkt leh....quite good experience & trained my arm muscle. haha dad went overseas...will be back later...so i get to drive~ ('coz my mum don't like to drive). but she keep asking me to becareful...keep instructing! i juz kept telling her to relax! make me so gan chiong... aiyoh~ haiz. at least i got to drive.

tonite got 2 parties to go to...well...feel so bad that can't enjoy the wHoLe party for each...but...at least they get to see my face....good enough ya? hahah try to stay as long as possible ba....keke must jia you le! examz coming!! =PpPpPp

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Sunday, April 16, 2006

currently down...

haven't logged on for a long time. thats coz many things have been happening. i dunno where to start. onli can say that my mood is juz going haywire. i'm realising many facts of life & experiencing them at the wrong time. maybe its the exam stress thats making it all worse.

i realise how some pple's words can make me feel so bad. like as though i've let them down or did something wrong and that i'm obliged to make it up to them. it makes it all worse when the person is nice and u feel all the more pressurized coz u've disppointed them. do u know how that feels ? and juz when i'm feeling all sucky & got lotsa stuff on my mind...others are cracking jokes & making fun (which is normal for them to act in such ways..not their fault)...but they dun realise its the wrong timing. how am i to react to all these? alot of shit is bothering me at work. i didn't have so much problems until this ambassador thingy started. i shouldn't have taken it in the 1st place. end up chan left..& rico so unconfident and now quitting. karen backed out. now i'm left in the spot. i wanna back out too..not to follow suit but due to many other reasons. but sadly, pple are misunderstanding my reasons. i juz hate explaining when pple dun seem to understand and convey wrong info to others. blame me for being emotional...but i juz can't control it.

maybe sometimes i should juz shut up and stop toking. the onli right thing to do is alwayz wat makes others happy. this is the sad fact in life rite? i'm not totally unhappy with the outcome...but i'm not happy either. either way...i lose out rite? izzit true that in order to make others happy...it has to be at our expense? our expense of time...energy...and feelingz? sometimes i dun wish to explain myself...coz i noe i'll break down in front of them. so i choose to shut up.

ppgs...its not that i don't wanna update u...but its not the right time now. we're all having exams soon...& i think its enough stress for u all already. dun wanna add on extra pressure at this point in time. maybe i'm juz super worried abt my exams. after 2nd may...we'll be free. i'll be free...then i'll have time to sort out my problems k? for all of u mugging for exams...continue to jia you! coz we're all running out of time.....

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Monday, April 03, 2006

too much things to do...too little time...

fri after work met some montfort buddies. many couldn't make it last min...but some still came. so gan dong. hahah went for coffee at tcc and basically chat. hmm...it was quite a weird combi i felt...but it turned out okie~ went cine ard 1+ to catch Ultraviolet...which i think was nice! but veri chim though...still don't realli understand. ahahah they were all so tired after that...i was like the radio & they were the listeners. it was simple but fun...hope can meet up again with more pple turning up ba. hahah maybe go chiong one dae...as soon as i can psycho that stubborn vinc. hehehe

sat's work was fine...but made some stupid mistake. i shouldn't even have explained...maybe i made things worse. but can i not explain? guess not rite. the pressure is there...esp 'coz of rico's expectations. more power comes more responsibility...the phrase from spiderman? so true. pple tend to put added pressure...w/o even realising. may even be juz a comment..or juz a remark. maybe i should juz heck care. yah. makes me more comfortable. sometimes telling customers the truth...may make them all the more unhappy. so maybe its lies that they wanna hear...i should juz stop being honest & make everyone happy. well...juz a small matter lah...but well...i'm sensitive. & i realli happy to be a piscean. maybe its my intuition which helps. anyway...i noe wat i'm feeling & now i noe its true. its alright...i'll juz take it as that. juz hope that sometimes pple understand that everyone makes mistakes. if i have a choice...i'll wanna do things right too. juz glad to noe the reason now. feel like i've found an answer to my qn. its okie. i can 4get things veri well. =)

anywayz..nowadaes after work sure go out. jialat. shouldn't have started gaming...kinda addictive. last nite was the last for now. 1st time played maple controlling a yandao cartoon. yah...i noe i abit slow...dun laugh. cute lah...& the mush so big! haha & toking abt taxis! b4 6am soOo many taxi waiting ard...but after 6, all goneZ! can't some juz travel to town?! so difficult to get cab home...especially when u're so tired. well...i won't be spending my nite cum early mornings out like that for now. my sleep clock is going crazy. wait till my exams r over...then i'll join u all ba~ =P okie...exams nearing le...i'm starting to worry. & my next few weekends are packed...when its supposed to be free for studying. oh manz...bdaes..must go. haha i'm gona start soon...realli too far back. shitz. tmr have a test...haven't started on any lec notes. how much more dead can i be. hahaha but i made full use of my dae todae...spent it well & fun. so its alright...better go now... =)

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