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Thursday, June 30, 2005

i'm back~

whew...finally the camp ended...sooOo long and tiring! haha didn't noe that logistics cell suppose to do sai kang one... haha thats wat made the camp even more shag ba...haiz nvm ba.. overall the camp was successful can le hahaha was quite fun seeing the freshies enjoying themselves. even more fun to scare them during fright nite...wahaha but duno if they enjoyed themselves as much as my batch enjoying our camp last yr. i'm also wondering wat they think of our planning and organizing.. hehe anyway... i'm back! hahaha feels so good to be home...went to my comfy bed & slept like a pig! especially when 3 nites slept on hard table..for 3+ hrs..and 1 nite on sofa. haha glad its over...i got my bed! on the way home... i felt like i'm back to where i belong... like i'm away from home for so long. from work. from my frenz. miss all of you! *hUgZz* todae sleep whole dae...tmr onwards got many planz...so exciting! i enjoy going out each individual dae...rather than a long camp ba. not so hard on me physically & mentally. haha yeah...gona enjoy my last month of holidae...to the FULLEST! heheh b4 i start sch...i must enjoy enjoy enjoy~! okie...cya pple soOn! =)

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Sunday, June 26, 2005

^_^

watched initial d last nite with work frenz...2.30am show..1st time watch so late show...cinema full full one hahah many chiongsters ba...especially those subaru drivers. the car racing was shiok...the sound..woO hoOo! i must say that jay was cute there...maybe its the bo chap yet cool character. edison...so shuai~ & the ending quite fast. hehehe hmm..couldn't sleep well..maybe coz it was already morning. anyway...going camp soon...dunno how fun it will be. last yr as a freshie...i had fun. this yr as part of the committee... feeling different. abit stress especially when i'm from logistics cell. hope that we got everything well prepared... dun think 4get anything ba. hahaha it will be a tiring camp..running ard preparing stuff. but it'll be fun..i guess. hahah lets wait & see.. =) for now...cYa!

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Saturday, June 25, 2005

changes in my life...

actually..something abt me...i dun like changes. dun like changes in my environment...i like things to stay as they are. the good things of course. maybe u say i'm boring..but i juz like things the way it is. BUT...i can't stop change. everyone's life change..including mine. i was in a daze in my younger yrs..1st change in my life was him. that was a gd change. but then came another change...which i hate & regret for too damn long. maybe i'll tok abt it some other time. yah..some parts of my life quite dead..misery definitely..but there are frenz to save me. if not for all my frenz...i won't be who i am todae...really. another change came when i started working at nydc..knew a new grp of frenz. quite amazing but lucky to fit fast into that environment. easy-going & fun working environment. could clique very well with karen especially...went out often for dinner too..with bryan. thats when i realli put on weight. haha plus chris..we are sof. this change..i like. outingz and hanging out with sof was ever-so fun. so far..these changes are good..so i'm fine with it. i tend to take things for granted..things that aren't obvious but present. when lost..then i realise ba. well...was once so close..then came the change. everything happens for a reason ba..the change was destined...i'm happy for that change...but juz not used to it ba. dunno if i like the change...but juz have to get used to it rite? the immediate effect was quite a battle for me..my mind & heart..twisted. plus the studies stress...the change in sch environment..without my PPGs with me in sch. lesser chances to meet up with close frenz due to different lifestyles and changes again. all that added up to my troubles. basically..trying hard to get used to changes is the hardest part ba. thats wat i'm afraid of. this is why i feel that something can be gd this minute...and juz suddenly flop the next. all i can do is accept the fact now & juz live on rite? yeah...this is my life. i'll accept it sooner or later. think it over...laugh it away. hehe =P

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resting time...

wow..finally got a dae to rest. but gona pack stuff soon..coz tmr onwards will be at camp..until thurs leh...haiz never been to such a long camp. hope no kok ups.. keke well..after that nice surprise that nite...when zouk to join those great frenz of mine...& tried apple shot..which was so nice! sweet & shiok~ must try! but not much kick ba. next 2 daes full shift..experienced my most slam nite at hotside yesterdae...kaoz. orders juz kept coming non stop for 1 hr & 40 min...sHaG! luckily got karen & ash in kitchen to help us with the topping up. good exercise though...since i've not been doing any recently. haha

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Thursday, June 23, 2005

surprise!

wAh...i never knew i could be sooOo lucky. i am damn serious when i say frenz are the best things that can happen to me. last nite..got a great surprise from my bestest frenz~ working halfway...dunno y happen to look out & saw familiar faces~ my mouth juz dropped open with joy! they succeeded in making me believe that the clubbing at nite was cancelled...then they showed up at my workplace with a beautiful rose..so nice~!! thanx! i am super duper touched loh... *gAn doNg*! its realli sweet of them to come find me...i realli didn't expect it. wOoO hoOo~~ hope they liked the food i made for them...had my love...care... & thanx in it...wahaha yeah..i was realli happy. frenz since sec sch...& many many more...this is wat i call frenz 4eva! *mUaKz* love ya all "capna gang" <--faster change name! hahaha realli love surprises...sweet surprises...tHaNX!!!! *hUgZ*

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Sunday, June 19, 2005

haiz...family dae...

going thru' todae have made me think alot. woke up late..went to relative's place to send another relative off. anywayz..the new house i went to...damn huge..saw a racing mazda car! dunno wat model...but i see le...wah kaoz. new house..new dog...new pond...new car...that relative of mine is a pilot! no wonder...haha after much thoughts...so many stuff..high maintenance..onli for pple who have too much $$$ ba. so i'll not want a pilot. btw, one said i put on weight as a compliment...but no thanx. i'll be dieting. hahah after that made our way to TTS hospital to see my grandma..coz of infection..she gotta be admitted again. sighz. was getting stronger & speaking up...then this must happen. now she's weak again & not speaking at all. haiz...how i wish i noe how she feels & thinks. does she even remember me....? y does she have to go thru' all these when she have been such a gd grandma to all of us? saw my grandpa & started having lotsa thoughts again. then..my daddy brought us to a fish farm at pasir ris...lotsa lotsa fish..so beautiful..my fellow fishes. birds signifies freedom..can fly to anywhere but might get lost? so maybe fishes are better...can swim freely as well..but in a familiar place ba. juz like how i wanna be free in familiar places so i wun get lost. went for father's dae dinner at pasir ris fisherman village. great food as alwayz...had my all time favourite cereal prawn. no prawn nvm...juz as long as there's cereal..sHiOk~! being there reminds me of all the memories i had there...so mAny maNy memories which are all over ba. can't turn back time...haiz sms i got todae also made my heart & mind twisted. too many thoughts going thru' my mind the whole dae. enjoyed the family dae todae...especially when its so seldom nowadaes. but mummy told me in the end that this should be often & that made me guilty again & again. quite a mixed feelings dae ba...happy yet depressed. juz makes me realise how life can juz twist ard suddenly. u can be happy now & sad the next. anything can happen & its so unpredictable... never noe wat's gona happen to me ba. i'm seeing pple ard me..some happy...some suffering...some juz so xingfu..makes me feel so lost. especially when these pple are impt to me & affecting how i feel. never thought abt so much stuff in such a short day b4...well..think until i headache le...haiz.. may all be happy...

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Thursday, June 16, 2005

fun few daes...

well..went chinablack last nite..great manz. hip hop was not bad...but some was quite sian. but its the frenz there...that made it all fun! could have been otherz...if not for the age limit..keke anyway...squeezy at 1st...but heck lah..juz enjoy..haha we didn't drink much...so crowded..ran out of cupz! managed to drink a tequila shot..some vodka 7-up..heineken & carlsberg. lamboguiny so exp...not veri gian to drink ba. not there to get drunk anyway...hehe many of them went up...but i wasn't as daring..haha since went there after work...so felt that it was a short clubbing session...but nvm ba..other time! hahaha went home slept for a few hrs..& back to work~ haha poor deb & will suffered hang-overs...see they so xingku..haiz all i can do is ask them to sleep & rest. after work..went to see mr & mrs smith...so nice & touching! after watching...made me have lotsa thought abt relationships...love...& complications. well..i'm free from it i guess... =P yah...this is my life. the more planz the better...i wanna be kept occupied..shag nvm..as long as i have fun. there's alwayz stuff that makes me feel down...like when my mum asks me to stay home more...i noe thats wat i should do. thats y i feel damn bad abt it...i make sure i go home for dinner when i can...but other daes..i rather work than slack & be potato at home rite? when i'm home..they're not...when they are home...i'm not. haiz. difficult.... *siGhZ* guess its me ba. my time management...my piorities. part of my selfishness i guess. thought alot abt my life...got my parents to thank for...giving me a comfortable life. i'm grateful 100% but i'm not a gd daughter ba. aiyah...think too much le lah...i'm tired le. tired of all my thinking..sometimes...argh~ nvm...sleep & i'll be fine tmr. =)

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Wednesday, June 15, 2005

somemore to say...

test ur eyesights ba...wahahha no lah...save space lah...too big then fingers veri xing ku...have to keep scrolling down.. =P see...i so thoughtful for u all. whahaha yeah...come back from that bintan trip...then work for the next few daes... then following weekend i got chalet! it was SOF chalet! hahah if u noe wat's SOF good...if not then nvm...haha anyway...it was real fun...as we seldom have sof outingz nowadaes le. haiz. i've been looking forward to this chalet...1st dae "book-in" then went to wild wild wet~! hmm...overall was quite fun there...but the slides were not veri exciting...not thrilling enough! but i guess its coz of the safety factor ba. anyway...got ourselves chlorinated for ard 4 hrs...then went back to wash up. i was the slowest i guess...=P went out to buy dinner back & ate while watching tv. wanted to go out watch movie but changed to renting xbox game to play in the chalet...(in deluxe rm got xbox leh!)...but the ants were scary...so fast appear...i killed many ants.. haha jie got so "itchy" by the sight of ants. so back to xbox...we rented 2 games. 1st we played some fighting game...which i kept losing... then we switched to sims in the city where kor dozed off after a while...haha me & jie were so addicted to the game that we played all the way till 5.30am! after kor went to dreamland...didi was still awake...watching & occasionally playing. but he was busy with oThEr stUfF..more iMpOrtAnT stuFf...wAHahAHAHa then...he also joined kor in dreamland. the next dae...we woke up late...& went for lunch. wanted to bowl but so expensive! anyway...ended up playing arcade then xbox again. sadly had to return it b4 dinner...so ate nice "lau pah sat" dinner at pasir ris then went back to chalet juz in time to watch iron ladies! haha damn farnie loh the rEn yAos...haha after show...walked to pasir ris park to chill at a "pub". played fantastic songs! onli thing missing that dae was wind...there wasn't any~ haiz. anyway...didi tried to drink..but think better not. so relaxing that nite...so comfortable with sof...so satisfying...but got late...so walked back. kor slept so much during this chalet! hahaha i ate alot though... =P thats wat i'm best at mah! hahah heng didi neber snatch with me for the bed...*bLeaHz* yah...so this was it...our SoF chalet....fun...simple yet fun... =) sOf 4eva... *hUgZ* *mUaKz*

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oh manz...

argh~ i can't stand it...computer language...i dun understand! chimology lah...haiz i'm getting lazy...dun wanna figure it out anymore. for now...u all gotta rEn my this piNkY blog...wahahha wait till i figure out how to modify it...if i ever lah...coz i may juz be lazy & continue using this pink blog of mine...keke my fav colour is NOT pink hor...haha no favs lah...any nice light colours...all i like. prefer silver to gold though...thats y my napha test NEVER get gold b4.. coz i dun like =P no lah...is i not fit enough ba. hahaha hmm...i'm gona start story le.
5th june...me & 5 other close frenz(mich, husni, xiuwen, ann & des) went to bintan! my 1st trip..out of s'pore...with frenz! veri happy that my parents allowed...keke the ferry ride there was bUmPy! heng ly didn't go...if not she'll feel so sick manz. imagine even us...feel abit dizzy...oh manz. anyway...it was worth it...reached there...was greeted by the frenly pple there & brought to our resort. but! we couldn't check in coz it wasn't time yet...so played frisbee to kill time. we caught 6 hermit crabs namely..H..E...R...M..I..T. & we each chose one...my "great" idea to keep as pets for the trip hahaha but let it back into the sea on the last dae...dunno dead or alive..oOopzZ! my fault...sorriE hermitZ! =P
once in our villa...."FWaH~!!" all came out of our mouths...the place was fantastic! a one-storey villa...with private pool...& 5-star facilities...even a well equiped kitchen! we spent alot of our time in the villa relaxing...& cooking our own meals..which coincidentally had a colour scheme for different daes...hahah 1st nite hang out in the pool till 2 or 3+am..took photos like siao & juz chilled...keke 6th june...relaxed & made full use of our villa. poor guyz were sick...but there was a fantastic first-aider..aNn! haha 7th june(last dae) was a mad rush...ate buffet breakfast..then hired a taxi to town...1 & a half hr ride...sHaG! shopped for gifts at 3 malls...in 2+hrs..rush like siao! managed to catch our ferry back to s'pore in time...wOoO hoOOo! lOtSa fUN! although a few setbacks did occur...but its alright coz we're lucky they're minor ones...yeah. so overall....ENJOYABLE~ =) can't wait for the next trip...kekekeke =P (wanna upload the picz...but dunno how to! argh...sorrie sorrie...frenster will have some ba...)

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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

finally created...

wow...finally got down to setting up my own blog...after toking to ly last nite...make me so gian to create one hahaha well...alwayz wanted to create an avenue for me to write down my thoughts...maybe not all but at least something to keep me occupied when i'm bored ba. haha i hesitated for quite some time coz i think that sOoOo many things & events have happened...have past...so i couldn't possibly write down everything now....but its okie. as wat ly said...start from NOW loh...hahah ok loh~ i guess the past is not meant to be brought up...even so...naturally it will come up in my thoughts now & then ba....so...watever! 14th june...the day i start my blog~ keke so simple...i will try to make it nice nice so that i see also happy...hehe well...todae worked hot side...so many prep work to do...& also got burnt on my thumb.. cute bubble i must say...hahaha a few mistakes here & there... argh~ but nvm ba....i'm known as clueless anywayz... =P tmr going chiong...wow...its been quite long since i went chinablack. okie...should be quite fun ba...we're going partly coz shirlene is going...& its her last dae at work! so give her face lah hor...keke yah...so....see how it goes ba...hope that got the mood...

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