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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

clearing projs...

wow...feeling a sense of peace nowadaes...my pace can slow down already. 2 time-consuming & info-demanding projs are done & gone. left 1 more due this fri...& another to continue w a later deadline. feel so much more relieved! watched our cq video todae....it was a success! all the trouble and worries we had during the editing process...all overcomed & the result was more than satisfying. it was the most hilarious video among all we've watched todae...& we even had applause! hmm...so much for the effort put in...onli 20% of final mark. well...its the process ba. was demoralised by that grp at times...but eventualli it all worked out well & everyone contributed ba. its amazing how every proj grp can be different. have been grping with frens i already noe...but this time its all strangers for this cq proj. so.. it was challenging coz everyone was so different. good experience...& i'm glad i was put in this grp.

snooker was great yesterdae...know wat i've been doing wrong. hopefully can play better so as not to disappoint my coach ba. training stopped for a month...for exams...hope it doesn't rustify me. hahah halloween's coming. wondering if can finish decor in time? skeptical but attainable. after all projs...time to start mugging...but meanwhile...outings here & there to recharge myself k? girls girls....when are we meeting? =)

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Sunday, October 15, 2006

piorities...

hmm...life's been crazy. i can take a deep breath for now. although still busy & sleeping at 5+...i'm much more relaxed now. 'coz wat i'm busy with currently is much more fun and enjoyable than schwork. previously was getting my allocated part of projzZz done...its was madness cum stressing last week. with that done...wait till we complete final changes..& its done! 3 proj deadlines 1 wk later...& then another 1 more to pia again. by the time the last proj is due...its exam time. woOo hOo.~ fast-paced ya? time flies not onli when i'm having fun...but also when i'm so occupied with stuff to do. guess its like that for everyone. there're tons of work in everyone's life...many commitments. sometimes its hard to pioritize. which 1st...which 2nd...which last? well...different pple would pioritize differently...but i think its all up to choice.

after sch projs allowed me a break...now i've got a new "project" from nydc. no obligations...no proj leader. i thought this yr would be different...with new pple taking charge. but guess w/o experience...they don't realise that its alot of work & time needed. was busy with sch..so didn't get a chance to have proper discussions. but heard news that nothing has started...i got worried so i began. its an annual event..a fun one. i don't have to do it...no one forced me. but its something a grp of us has been involved in for the past 2 halloweens. its the sense of belonging...the responsibility...that triggered my involvement. i wanted to be a helper...but with only a theme, w/o plans...engine has to be start by someone. my ideas are not terrific...& simplicity is due to time constraints. i like it when pple give opinions and suggestions...which i think will realli help. i'll feel bad if the results isn't nice...but i guess i'm trying hard to do my best.

yes...its true that if i channel this energy to my studies...i might be in dean's list. but the commitment factor is juz not the same. u can onli commit to something u enjoy ba. i don't deny that the cruelty in life is sometimes having to do wat's right even if it means opposing ur wants. like i noe i have to study...even if i don't enjoy it. i'll study...juz that the piority is lower. can't seem to get it higher coz everything else is more impt to me. i've gotta get my piorities right...but wat's right? wat's correct? the norm...or the way i want to live my life? i'm a dreamer...maybe thats y my piorities are not set right.

luckily i have great frenz..with occasional "you arh!"s...who understands, accepts & believes in me. i'm aware of their concerns...that's wat makes me strive harder. don't wanna let my parents down too...they've given me more than i can ever ask for. okie...veri hearty post...but i hope life turns out well...for everyone. set ur own priorities! & is my blog messy? hmm...tahan 1st...till i change skin k? sorry! =P

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Friday, October 06, 2006

dun worry =)

sorrie for the previous post. juz blogging down things i felt at that point of time. but i'm okie already. thanx for ur concern glad! & ven too~ =) i juz can't keep the uneasiness i feel sometimes...so juz blog it down. juz treat it as a story to read ya? everyone's life is a story...all different somehow.

projs requirements are pushing me down. there's so much i haven't completed. but i have to 'coz i don't want to slow down my proj mates. so much to do. sometimes its so stressing & then i'm ok. like how i so-want to quit sch...but later i noe i have to carry on. after projs are over..its exam time. argh...how much faster can it be. had a sudden urge to get a tattoo. alwayz wanted one since sec sch. if its not for the many objections from so many pple...i would have got it long ago. i understand their objections...& i'm aware that pple will judge me. its a work of art...on skin rather than on paper. of course not those dragon kind...maybe something simple & nice for me. juz for the experience. like why i have multiple ear-piercingz and often dye my hair. tattoo-ing...want it coz i'll onli live once. so juz thought of giving it a try. todae's urge may be caused by wanting to do something for myself...to reward myself so that i dun feel so lousy. but i noe this is not a solution. anyway...there's so much to consider and its a decision i can't go back on coz its permanent. i noe its reversible...but i'll not consider that. & its pricey too. well...dunno wat my decision will be eventually. vexed to the max. since i'm alwayz regretting...maybe i shouldn't make such severe decisions. sighz. i hate to regret. i've been regretting all my life.

regret not joining snooker earlier....but at least i have 2 yrs in nus left. haven't been to orchard in a long time. haven't been working for a long time too. good fren bdaes to attend this wkend. it'll be real fun. so looking forward to them! =P alright...lights off.

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Sunday, October 01, 2006

rough dae

yesterdae was full of ups and downs. good....fun...bad...pissed-off...busy...happy. supposed to go iceskate but coz onli few pple...went to watch movie instead. rob-b-hood was damn nice. hilarious...heartwarming...exciting. & the baby is sOoOoo soOoo super doOper CUTE lah! all was good until reached ny.

mood was totally spoilt. so pissed when i saw other's behaviour. i dun understand how some pple can be so....~! argh! f-ing pek chek. juz lost all mood to work. sometimes others juz dun realise how hurtful their actions/behaviours are. then orders kept coming...bad timing. kinda messy at 1st...then later settled cooperatively with ren. after the slam, when it was more calm...my mind started to wander off again. couldn't supress the hurt i felt anymore. tried veri hard not to break down...but failed. didn't want to be noticed but ren was aware. thanx dajie. it really helped...& i felt better after that. feeling sucky after that...it juz turned into uneasiness. felt restless and rough. juz felt like punching...but of course it was juz an urge. if i had a punching bag...i would have. definitely not ren or vie who offered to be punched at...jokingly. haha thanx.

after the emotional clear up...i was back to normal. i had to be. mich came by...which brightened my mood. ppg meeting pls. it's been a long time. lotsa updating i guess. last min met jord to have supper. alex was uncontactable...wonder if he's okie. had a nice chat with jord. haven't say enough for the last topic...but i guess the main info was conveyed. thanx for ur sensible advice... but i'm confused by the possibilities u're implying. kinda glad to hear some stuff...but overall...everyone has changed. nothing will be as sweet as the past. i've moved on....

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