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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

over...finally over!!~

after so many daes of trying hard to stay awake study...go library study...its over! my eXaMs are OVER! yeS! i am soOo relaxed........... hehe but actualli...not as happy as i thought i will be. coz the last paper really sux. sux to the maX! haiz. i dun care if its other papers...but the last one was the most important...1 of my core modules...and its wat i am majoring in. real estate. argh. i've realised that for the past few sems...i've gone through this module w/o realli understanding. i still cannot understand the concepts & todae's calculations were unbelieveable. i practically didn't noe how to do all leh. ALL u noe? can u imagine? i realli wanted to juz walk out. but i noe i'll regret. so i juz found aNy value that i knew how to find...w/o knowing wat they're asking for. siGhz. i am suprised if i get a "C" k? & guess my CAP score wun be pulled up....haiz. continuous like that...& i'm gona be kicked out soon.

damn demoralised after the paper...but then went out with sch mates to town...felt much better now ba. watched harry potter...which was dAmN nice! realli. i enjoyed it. =) i'm not gona think abt it now ba...juz enjoy when i still can. juz that the problem will come back again for the next few sems ba. when the results are out... HAHAHA lets see.................... keke

okok...gona go shopping!! its been too long liao...sometimes even lazy to try clothes. so lazy to shop. but i'll have to! i realli need new clothes...hahah okok...enjoy enjoy no matter wat...

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Monday, November 28, 2005

its the final countdown~

wOoO hoOo~ 1 more paper left! i've been waiting for this dae to come~!!! wahahaha actualli i went out to enjoy last weekend already...but still have something to worry abt. as of tmr..29th nov...11:00am...i'm fReeEeEEe!~ heheh todae's paper was not gd...practically scribbled anything that came to my head...luckily onli 50%. i pray for miracles manz...hahah

this week all planned already... can't wait to pack up next week.. =P i'm gona go...shopping!~ ktv! vRoOminG~ exercising (i hope)..eating~ chionging! & working! hahaha yeah...basically outingz...relaxing & enjoying to the maX! 1 month onli...argh~ too short! nvm nvm...lets juz go out!! keke

final countdown..this song is nice! reminds me of the new yr countdown to 2000. it was fUn manz~! remember walking down the middle of orchard rOaD...& this song suddenly blast nearby...sHiOk! it was a great start to a fantastic countdown party! =P mEmOriEs...sSsHhh...keke well...its been a long time since we've gone to new yr's countdown. but i guess that "era" is over. hahah now we enjoy in other wayz...more private! hehe xmas coming...means mich finally gona be 20~ didi also... HA HA HA. on par le...cannot say me old anymore. =P mich...wat u want for present?! me? okok..i'll pack myself up & u'll get a big..fat.. present! haha here's the season to be jolly.................falalalallalalalalala.................................... =)

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Sunday, November 27, 2005

too relaxed..

oh manz... i am getting too relaxed than i should. but...i dunno y. can't help it. in my blood. haha last nite's balcony was relaxing & the margarita was good. ren was so enthu...saying imran..imitating sue...& her horoscope anaylsis. hahah so farnie. guess calvin learnt alot from our horoscope expert.. haha well..this kinda thing...sometimes quite true...but who knows to believe anot? -_-'''

todae...went fren's bdae. end up toking in the room...like we're anti-social. but bo pian..other frenz dunno mah...so "hide" loh...hahaha went town for dinner with mich. walk ard..then vinc joined us. ate sakae...but didn't feel like eating so much ba. met up edwin & char soon after...they 2 so cute. like so..cute & loving? haha then mum's sms made me feel guilty...so i went home early. dunno izzit coz of vinc..but i'm alwayz reminded of *hiM*. haiz. but believe me lah..seriously...i'm okie. its juz that...on the way home todae...kept recalling our past. the past that we've shared. b4..during...all the memories. its at the veri back of my head...but it all seems so clear to me. argh. can't i juz 4get it like how i am able to 4get so many other things? pls dun shake ur heads...maybe it was the slight drizzle...or something that i saw or thought of that triggered my past. no harm "re-living" the past at times ya? dun worry...i dun recall him onli...sometimes i go down memory lane of different phases of my life. other pple...other meanings. so maybe its the way my brain works? when too sian...i'll start pondering...

anywayz...can't study now. i'll go sleep...tmr then study. Thanx to everyone for all the memories & changes in my life. i truly treasure them... =)

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Sunday, November 20, 2005

4 more papers to go...

well..yesterdae my soci paper not that gd. 1 qn was alright but the other i dunno wat i answering. nvm that. haha went to work...finally saw the new trainee that they all say cute de. ok lah...not bad loh. i expected a small little boi..but turned out to be taller than me~ haha guess he's the youngest in ny now ba...not gladys anymore. ahaha quite hardworking...we juz gotta help change some of his "actions" kekeke now gotta see the 2 other trainees...but only next next week? haha gona work onli after exams le...have to pia liao.

went to the balcony at heeren...great place to chill manz. & we also had "free-show". bryan couldn't believe his eyes...wahaha since open 24hrs...another new hangout place for us ba. yeAH~ todae went out for dinner. my grandma was so happy. haven't seen her for so long...looked much better le. my cousin's bdae...but i didn't have time to buy her anything. shitz. i'll bring her out somewhere in dec ba..i promise~ =)

well...gladys ah..maybe u realli should learn more about dreams so that u wun feel so disturbed by them ba. some dreams may carry meanings....but i guess when u overly-think in the dae...u may have weird dreams at nite? hahah aiyah...i also dunno ah...i haven't been sleeping well these daes too. but for me...maybe its coz of studies ba. i noe todae i had a dream..veri weird one too...but i cannot remember wat izzit! the thing abt dreamz...its veri easy to 4get...& veri hard to recall. all i noe its abt some creatures. eEee...i dunno lah. watever. hahah i dun mind having sweet dreamz though....but haven't had any for a long long time. hahahaahah okok....i go try my luck tonite! keke

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Friday, November 18, 2005

1st paper...

hmm...1st paper quite relac ba. coz like english. juz tok cock...but i guess i didn't write formal language enough ba. realli not enough time lah. crazy leh...write a report & a letter in hrs? i managed to finish...but mostly not enough time to think. so juz anyhow write something briefly. haiz. nvm lah...next few more impt ba. y i still so relaxed ah? abit scary leh...i'm taking it very easy leh..oh manz! y ah? too slack already lena!! argh!

todae parents sent me since it was raining so heavily, ended up so early in sch. this sch-mate came to tok to me. she said something u all should noe! she say me guai~ hahaha see...how come she noe...u all dunno? she ask if i got go clubbing...i say,"yah...y?" noe wat she say? "you dun look like those type who clubs". wOoO hoOoo~ wahaha see! & she was not kidding loh...realli serious. so farnie! i can't believe it at 1st...but...hahahahha i'm a good girl! =D realli lah...i am.

after that...she started toking abt church stuff. i went b4...so i've experienced it. but she wanna pull me go. oh manz...i thought she juz say say. but she seem quite serious. wah liao...i abit scared le loh. now i see her..got phoebia leh. haiz. i can't accept it when pple suddenly behave in certain ways which make me feel uncomfortable. i will fAn gaN. super. maybe its a mentality...but it really affects me. & i had to take a paper after that? hahah tok about affecting me. sighz. nvm lah...not a big deal lah...its not that i dun like church, i'm juz not someone who goes/commits to one. i prefer to be a free-thinker & believe in watever i want. i love freedom. i have freedom of choice rite? so i hope she doesn't force me into going against my principles. yeah. sat...i'm gona have fun after paper~ then sunday pia again. zZzzz...........

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Tuesday, November 15, 2005

study period....

well...been studying these few daes...i guess. =P feel quite weird staying home. i miss working manz...miss outingz..when it has onli been 3 daes... haha jialat rite. i noe. =) sunday went thomson with liwen & xiuwen to study. good coz they are pia-ers. haha motivate me manz & they're veri encouraging. tHaNx! hehe then had dinner with papa & korkor at swensens! while mama go college's wedding dinner. its kinda weird coz normally my mum's ard...& she's the one toking. haha so i felt abit weird but when papa started toking...it was all so nice~ hehe i felt that i learnt more abt my papa & korkor...finally!! its never too late~ keke thats wat i call quality time. made me recall the times when i was still young...our family outingz. now me & my bro so busy...haiz. coz we're growing up? guess its a transition of family life ba. & i can see that my parents are used to it le..hahha

yesterdae i stayed home...too comfy manz...difficult to keep awake. but i managed to study lah...duno if got absorb in anot...coz maybe half-slp. keke i definitely can study better at nite. like more awake. but halfway...dunno y i suddenly drifted & thought abt wat i was doing in life. i'm studying a course that i am not very enthu & excited abt. and my grades are barely making it. seriously, i still dunno wat i'm interested in...no particular course that catches my attention...even until now. i was not very stressed out....but dunno y started to wonder.

y am i studying this? wouldn't it be nicer to do something that i realli like? but then again...wat do i like? i began to think how fun it was to be able to do bar-tending. something that seems to interest me but i dunno how to? hahaha or maybe decorating cakes...juz some hands-on stuff that i can enjoy w/o stress. but then...when it becomes a job...will i still enjoy it or will i get bored of it. argh~ the thought of enjoying life realli made me wanna quit sch leh. i almost wanted to talk to my parents already...but i kept on thinking. my parents would ask me wat my alternatives are...& i will say dUnNo. so i guess...it'll make them worry unnecessarily & me going back to studying eventually ba. conclusion is...like wat i've said to myself from the start of uni life, i'll get a degree for the sake of getting one. coz many never end up working in their related field of study rite? anywayz...i shouldn't give up now...coz i'm quite sure i'll regret. & if i stop now, my a'levels cert is not worth much. since i've entered jc...its a commitment to continue to uni ba. if i didn't want it...i shouldn't have gone to jc in the 1st place..but i did & i don't regret it ba. coz it was fUn! gained experience & was a gd part of my life. so, rationally-thinking...i'll continue my struggle thru' ba. hahaha hope it'll end up gd somehow. =P

yeah...so coz of boredom at home.. me & mich went to ly's place to study~ haha ate pizza..watched cartoon. sounds more like relaxing hor? keke but i got study lah....juz that alot more entertainment. it was fun studying! haha kk...tmr i'll stay home to pia for thur's paper! oh manz...ven ask me to replace him thurs nite...so tempting!! i almost wanted to...but was stop by my guilt..conscience...& xiuwen. haha anyway...thurs after paper will be going out to study with frenz loh..sorrie ven. hehe

yeah...guess i've been missing out alot in ny. hope they dun miss me? bLeAhZ. hahha its weird that i'm not stressed out yet. normally at this point...i should be damn stressed..but i'm okie~ wow...amazing! keke i think maybe coz my papers are so widely spread ba. so can relax in between. 6 paperz to clear...wait for me frenz! i can enjoy in 2 weeks time................exactly! hahaha =P tAke caReZ~

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Saturday, November 12, 2005

just like heaven...wOoOow~

okie...juz had a wonderful dae. started off with breakfast bought by my mama..managed to study abit. but coz i woke up too early...so i slept in the afternoon. although i think i should have studied more...but its okie. i'll make it up from sunday onwards ba. anywayz...actualli last nite i was quite sian coz i thought todae's gerz outing was not a success. i could hear from ly's response that she had something on. but when she msged me she could make it...i felt so much better! maybe coz mui didn't recognise my number that made me all the more sad. but its ok ba...guess she expected my name to appear. realli hoped she & ann could come join us...but they couldn't make it. but at least i noe that they realli wanted to...which makes me feel happier.

so its 4 of us in bishan...at sakae..with my stack of plates being the highest. (as usual) haha talked abt stuff but i was lost at some part...coz they saying abt tv shows...which i lost touch with. haha then walk ard... & all were so excited abt watching just like heaven. & i was actualli very very overjoyed that mich & ly could watch it tonite coz love movies should be watched with bfs? i'm realli glad they have such understanding bfs...kekeke =P well...its been a LONG LONG time since we watched a movie together...especially in biShaN!~ it felt like in the past...like it was back to our sec sch daes...juz that we were all much older. keke 1 of our usual hangout after sch. those were the less stressful daes...more fun & innocent daes... haha

just like heaven.... it was an incredibly toUchiNg movie!! MUST watch!! oh my god...its for fate-believers like me. so sweeet....i juz melted in the seat. like everything's planned..love is fated. some hilarious parts & its juz soOoO nice! aHh~ i'm so glad i watched it...& with the company of my bestest best frenz! well, the plot is too perfect for reality ba. so i should stop this now. but realli...its a good show. =)

managed to catch the last bus home. after watching such a show..dun blame me for thinking okie. hehe walking back home alone was difficult...especially past midnite. while listening to 933...i can't help but miss the times when someone used to walk me home. the someone that didn't mind although later has to walk out alone. that same someone that i didn't hold on...but then have changed to a different someone. i noe i am blessed with so many great frenz...thats y i won't let them down. i've put aside something i wore for so long, that its mark is still there somehow. it's normal to recall past memories...but i noe i still have to look ahead. so dun worry abt me ok? i've been fine for the past 5 yrs...i'll be fine from now onwards too. juz have to find my aim in life...& wat my future is going to be like. sound veri poetic todae...dunno y. siaoz. anyway...i'm going dreamland now...tmr(i mean later) gotta wake up early! niTeZ!

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Tuesday, November 08, 2005

proj finally over!

wOoO hoOo~ finally i can sTaRt on my studying! keke last nite pia powerpoint until 6am...end up overslept...missed todae's lec! argh~ veri sian leh...i realli wanted to go that lec. haiz dunno is alarm spoil or i sleep too well. wahah well, this is last wk of sch le...also means that exams coming~ okok i promise tmr last outing...then i start studying le. i'll start studying tonite! so that i won't complain that i haven't start. haha

last nite go with didi see doggy...the seller was veri "special". speak & write funnily. dunno trustable anot. anyway...heng end up glady's mum dun allow. i think its realli a blessing in disguise ba. nvm hor ger...next time u got ur own family own house...u can yang as many dogs as u want. so must study hard hard & earn lotsa $$$$~ haha reminds me of my nabit. so sweet of mich to buy me a small white furball with red eyes... irrisistably cute! everytime i think of it...i feel so bad. so sorry to mich. i realli appreciated it & wanted to keep it~ but couldn't. haiz. wanna say a biG tHaNX to mich again....THaNk yoU!!! *mUaKz* i'll never 4get nabit! keke miss u galz leh...jia you for exams leh! we all jiayou together~ while ann fly around wait for us. haha after exams...go out go out go out k!!!

to do list...shopping!!! i haven't shopped for months! its amazing how long i've tahan. hehe & ktv!! as long as go out can le!! okok....after exams.....mugging time! *hUgZ* everyone! miss ya all~

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Thursday, November 03, 2005

updates...=)

well... halloween's over. was quite uncomfortable...considering wat i wore + the makeup...& being restricted from smiling. act fierce...how can! so difficult to serve customer w/o smiling...so gao wei leh...hahaha anyway...it was shag...but all worth it. put in alot of effort...wait for results to come out. hope to get 1st for decor ba. hehe was shocked when ash suddenly appeared beside me...with all his makeup still on. hehe wanted to go eski bar that nite...but they closed le. but managed to go there on mon after closing. so cold! wah liao...felt like eskimos. haha the -15 degrees room was cool manz~ but think can't tahan long inside. unless drink more tequila shots? haha deb came with us...& she's such an entertainer lah...especially after she drinks. hahah kena suan that nite...but its okie~ xi guan le...hahah

last nite went clark quay with deb. too bad bryan couldn't come. went cafe iguana..drank nice margaritas & toked so much! gossip? ahhaha but it was all fun. glad that ash could join us & vie was quiet...sEh liao? his face was so red. haha wanted to try atica..but guy's gotta be 25 to get in! too bad...maybe next time. keke nachos...was craving for it~ but no more food at that hr liao! but todae i managed to eat it...from cha cha cha! hahah fantastic lah! so sHiOk manz....yUm YuM! =P~

hmm...this week working alot...but pls 4give me. i noe i'm being punished by the cut, burn & splash...haiz. its double pay manz...i'll pia this last week then next few weeks won't see me much le. i promise to start mugging this weekend! i noe exams r coming...& i dun even dare count the daes...but i'll study. i must! gotta improve this sem...if not i'll be veri depressed...& this cannot happen! okok....i'll study! & i miss the galz! haiz. guess all pia-ing...exam period...aiyoh. after exams....we go paRtY!~!!~!!!!!! can't wait...kekeke =)

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