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Tuesday, March 28, 2006

everyone has feelingz...

hmm...where should i start? juz read the blue one's...think she's so stressed up over sch work. seeing others enjoy...& yet u've got worries all filled up inside u...i understand. its juz a sudden feeling u get...unexplainable. maybe we should meet up to study some daes? can realli help motivation(for me) and relieve stress ba. as soon as u noe...it'll be over & we'll enjoy for the next 3 months~ haha i alwayz look forward to the holidaes...so that i can study harder & get it over & done with. (my tipz...keke) well...can't realli blame anyone coz some pple may juz be innocently unaware of other's "down-mood". most imptly...wanna talk...i'm alwayz here! k? =)

i understand how it feels...when u see others laughing...& yet u juz can't laugh along. my case was slightly diff. but luckily i had 2 great pple in kitchen with me...to help brighten my mood. i was so looking forward for that dae at work...coz it was 1 of the few times that sof was working together. but little did i expect...the facial reply i got from kor...when i enthusiastically said hello. i thought maybe he was playing...thought maybe i was too sensitive. i waited a while...& observed. no...he wasn't in a bad mood. laughing away with everyone else & juz ignoring me. ok...when it got pretty obvious...i noe i was not overly sensitive. until todae...i still dunno wat happen...dunno wat that lOoK he gave me...meant? i was veri uncomfortable & upset. it juz totally spoilt my mood.

do u noe the feeling when....u were so looking forward to something...feeling so very happy...& then something juz made all that feeling goNeZ? yep...it felt like that. & it realli sux when he's going ard toking to eVeRYoNe else...& simply ignoring u. u can hear laughters everywhere...& yet u're not involved. i realli wanted to noe wat was going on...wat did i do? dajie was sensitive enough to realise my abnormality...& didi was trying to make me laugh...& they realli helped. w/o them there...i think i'll be juz drowning in my sorrows.

i'm wouldn't care if it was someone else....i hate this feeling coz its happening with me & someone close. 1 thing i realli hate is to quarrel with someone close. thats y i don't quarrel with my galz. when i have a tiff with my parents...i feel equally lousy. if u're not impt enough to me...i wouldn't feel so affected if we quarrelled. so....yah. i was hurt but didn't wanna piss u off more...so juz kept quiet. when telling me takeaway orders...u couldn't even look me in a eye for more than 2 sec... well...i realli hope i'll never quarrel with any of my close frenz...coz it's realli painful....

anywayz...u noe how sometimes u start to realise that certain frens are slowly fading out of ur life. maybe close ones...maybe not-so-close ones. but somehow or rather...they are significant enough to make a difference in your life. i guess it juz takes the effort of urself...to send a msg... to ask how are they & to even meet up. some may reply...some may not. if no reply..u can deduce that they can't be bothered with u....or maybe they're juz busy with their own lives. either way...u noe u've tried & there's nothing more u can do. hmm...i've been losing contact with the montfort guyz...coz we've all got on with our individual lives. still remember the times we went sentosa...badminton...movies...billiards...kopi...& all the outingz we had so many yrs ago. besides seeing them at my bdae...didn't have much time to catch up & stuff. finally meeting again on fridae. yeah! so much updating to do...& so much memories to uncover. =)

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Thursday, March 23, 2006

nice talks...

well... last nite after work went with karen & gladys to town for a sinful supper. but its been a long time since we ate stingray..lala...veggie...pLuS rice at that kinda hour~ keke it was superliciouS =P~ ended up toking for quite a while...on how political nydc is becoming. maybe we're over-reacting...maybe things are not as bad as we think. juz that pple are starting to drift away...our unity is starting to separate. but nvm...as long as the right ones stick together...we'll be the unbeatables. wahaha tok cock.. =P overall...i still think holland is da best la...compared to others ba. coz heard their politics are wOrSt! hahah every place will have their own politics de lah...especially in workplaces. i guess it'll get more extensive in the real working world in future ba. anywayz...not for me to bother now. take this as a chance for me to train my rEn-ing power...keep it inside...dun lose control & then say wrong things (which i'm best at)...making things worst. keke gladys...we fishes can do it! make the balance beam "cannot tahan" us more...waHahAHHA *bLeAhZ*

todae met up my galz...except mich who has got workload piling up...jia you girl! lets get over with this exams & rELaX.......haha had fish&co at wheelock...damn shiok lah~ its good food manz...& their service is great. speaking of that...nydc is involved in GEMS(Go the Extra Mile for Service). hmm...initially we were told to ask customers to write down our names if they're satisfied with our svc...but that's so thick-skin~ like..."vote for me!" oh manz...its not s'pore idol or wat mah. so luckily we can now juz pass it to them...& ask them to fill in whoever they think is worthy of their praises. juz to create awareness that we're starting it now. like that...much better...let them choose. pHeW~ keke anywayz...after that went coffee bean @taka for a drink+cakes. had a good chat there...updated each other on stuff...recalled some memories...& even a little into the future.

i'm so happie for N...i alwayz doubt that there wasn't any potential guyz for her...but now i noe! keke kinda expected...but its good to hear a story with a happy ending. =D u've got what u have alwayz wanted...feel so happy for u! now its balanced...3 taken...3 free. haha who's next? well...wanted to catch a movie but it was too late for them le. i've already given up on movies...coz missed so many. last time used to watch so damn often...but now times are different. don't feel that its impt anymore. i prefer juz sitting down at some place nice & toking. u'll come to realise alot of realities and life lessons thru' these casual chats...at least i noe i will. i alwayz feel so comfortable and happy after these talks...& the amazing thing is that...there's unlimited topics to tok about. 1 leads to another...& even if it started out slow...eventualli u'll end up in some interesting cum exciting discussion. this is y i noe....i'm happy. coz i'm blessed with many frenz who are in my life...changing my life & changing me. most imptly...u all make my life so much more hapPeNinG~! =) *hUgZz*

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Sunday, March 19, 2006

in my dreamz...

ever woke up feeling like..."oh shit...it was juz a dream...haiz"? ur heart juz drop 'coz u realise that its not reality that u're going thru' & that juz when u open ur eyes...u noe u're not tHeRe. the feeling is juz sucky. this is when u noe u had a good & sweet dream....

it was all sweetness & wonderful feelings...felt so involved like as though i was awake & realli experiencing it. all familiar faces and familiar emotions of happiness and excitment. i seemed so consciously in the situation...but yet i was onli sub-consciously in it. it came to a point where i felt it was so real...until i opened my eyes & realise i'm lying on my bed. i noe i sound kinda dramatic but i'm seriously not exaggerating...this is the 1st time i felt that this dream is so real. when i woke up...i was so upset that i juz forced myself to go back to sleep in order to complete that dream..to see the outcome of it. but i couldn't.

woke up remembering so clearly wat had happened...wanted to pen it down...but was juz too tired & wanted to finish my dreaming. guess its better like that....coz the longer i'm awake from that dream...the lesser i remember it. i onli noe that...part of that dream...was that i browsed thru' the web & found a blog. a blog that i've never imagined i would find...even with my name in it. the excitment and realness to it...was that i thought i realli had that website...and that i added it to my fav. but before i could read finish the blog...i woke up. argH! imagine that feeling u'll get....sOoOo uneasy! & i also noe my dreams are implying that i should meet up with those montfort buddies...coz i went for a thrill ride with them in my dreamz...hahah dreamz dreamz dreamz....its the most unexplainable phenomenon or even creation of human mankind. i'm so damn amazed by it.

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Thursday, March 16, 2006

clubbing phrase...

hmm...been clubbing a little too much recently. its been mostly for celebrations...which i'm getting a little tired. too much for something will make me sian. my mind clock is going all wrong...although extending the hours i'm awake...its shortens the next dae for me. end up sleeping alot...specially on long bus journeys to sch. feel like a pig leh...juz slp & slp & slp. hahah hope i'm not getting used to this kind of life...not healthy! too relaxed already....don't even feel like i'm currently a student. its 'coz of the few daes i need to go sch...& all the tutorials pushing further. my stress will set in later...not now. hahha

thats y i'm afraid when i heard i cried so terribly that drunken nite. its said that u show ur true feelings when in ur sub-conscious state. so i may not be as happy as i think i am. i'm wondering what my sub-conscious mind is thinking...it'll be good if i said lotsa things that nite...but i juz kept quiet. so i'm realli curious... =P anywayz...as long as consciously i'm happy...thats good!

well...look at all these apple shots & illusionz....that we had that nite. too bad didn't get a chance to take a pic of the flaming lambo. actualli clubbing is a gd form of exercise...but excessive alcohol to get high is definitely unhealthy. i alwayz like to observe pple there...see how pple lose their minds...grinding any guy who get close to them. come on galz...pls beware. saw a particular "uncle" at mos last nite....aiming at girls to get close with. oh manz... juz wanna sLaP him. but well...some pple may juz enjoy these "flirting"...so who am i to comment. different pple enjoy differently ya? hahah i'm still hoping for the dae to go club with all 5 of my galz...together. haiz. when when? haha not that its veri important...but juz think it'll be fUn.

kk... tmr nite is gonna be haPpEniNg in nydc hv's kitchen! like a family in the kitchen...onli short of our dearest kor. hahaha well....gotta start on my proj. ciAoZ!

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Sunday, March 12, 2006

a rest from bdaes for now...

ali's bdae at cultural nite was quite interesting ba...heard pple sing, rap & dance. think she realli enjoyed herself...being sabo-ed to go on stage to dance. wahaha she's daring...so its okie ba. haha yesterdae was at ping's bdae...4eva so hyper & beaming. didn't plan to stayover...but last min i was kinda lazy to go home. haha anyway..we had mahjong & gossiping to keep us awake all the way. guess we fishes have enjoyed our bdaes...& so fast over liao. but its okie...we're officially adults! still young though. =P many more bdaes to go....but can take a break for now ba. haha

todae went to work straight from the chalet...i was tired but couldn't sleep on mrt! so uncomfortable manz....argh! think i'm too used to bus. haha 1st time doing hot side ever since new menu...& it was not bad! so looking forward to next week's work...coz its gona be haPpEniNg in the kitchen! woOoo hOoO~ anywayz...mondae after nite lec...goin k-ing with my jc buddies...then tue meeting us some of the galz! =) wed is chan's last dae of work...y she leave us! aiyoh...how should we farewell for her?

hmm....juz some thoughts. think my cousin is so cute. juz innocently cute. sometimes the things she say...is juz so unexpectedly funny. wonder how her little mind works. & my aunties are alwayz asking me abt bfs...even more than my mum! oh manz...r they worried for me? wahahah aiyah...i realise i am realli greedy. everytime i say...for example..if this thing happen...i happy le. even after its fulfilled...i'll say i want something more. naturally most pple are like that ba? never satisfied....but i'll try to stop that thinking! coz i have to be satisfied to be happie! yeah... =) been toking too much todae...coz of lack of sleep. ok....zZZzzz....................................

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Thursday, March 09, 2006

over my limit..

hmm...well. yesterdae went for dinner at friends cafe with my "twin" sister...didi & ren. i was late...so couldn't watch movie...haiz anyway...had fun playing uno stacko....but the food i ordered...not veri nice leh. anywayz...went zouk after that. it was kinda like a celebration for me & glad...more of for her ba. finally 18! can go in w/o troubles...haha while waiting for the rest...we had many shots...which i ordered wrongly. should have said 4 instead. coz 1 shot=4 shots for that 1-for-1 time. end up ordering 4 illusions...& 16 apple shots. the guy told me 4 means 16...then he ask me again...so many i wanted. so i blurr liao. i thought he asked me for the total number that i wanted...then end up i got 30+ shots. oh manz! btw...illusion is nice! didn't noe how many shots i took...but was still okie. when the rest arrived...the party juz started. so it was time for bdae lambogini. ordered some heineken & vodka cranberry for them. juz a treat...coz the shots were all gone already. a while after the lambo...i onli remembered me asking them to go dance.

thats all i can recall. the next moment was when i sat up crying...saying i wanted to go home. then i was out again. sober enough to get into my house with karen's help. 1st time ever happened...& i'm thinking if i did anything stupid. i thought i didn't even dance...i thought i didn't vomit....until didi & glad told me todae. oh manz! so farnie! its like as though i was not even there...coz totally duno wat happened. argh. dun wanna go thru' it again manz....felt like i missed out on so much fun. & didn't noe if i spoilt anyone's mood. didn't even get to see ash...especially when he pia down to give face. if i was sober...i could have realised glad's hp missing. shitz. i hate hp thieves! wah kaoz...y do those pple dun have any heart ah? they dunno the feeling of losing a hp izzit. how evil. i realli curse them. they'll get their retribution! *bish*

i'm so sorrie to all of u! there won't be a next time. the feeling sux. woke up todae vomitting. not a gd start for the dae....but felt better after sleeping in tutorial. haha well...can't wait to hear wat happen...think we're all gona have a good laugh. & abt my crying....maybe coz i was spinning...maybe coz of didi's rocobaroco-smelling shirt..... *sHrUgz*

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Sunday, March 05, 2006

had the best time ever!

its definitely the most memorable & special bdae i ever had. i'm so glad i made it big...or else i would have regretted. its the 1st time having 80 over pple at my place...the sight of it juz makes it all fun & worthwhile. planning was not easy coz its my 1st time having such a big party. i was excited but also nervous on how it'll turn out. but in the end....it was absolutely fAbUloUs!

had my dearies to help me decorate my place into this! the theme was green...& some pple realise it! not my fav colour...but coz i'm the green ppg...& green is good for eyes too! hehe see...i'm so thoughtful for the 80 pple who came rite? keke after that went to get ready...& with the help of mui & xw...i had makeup on! i'm not good with makeup...& its also coz its hard to remove! wasn't realli ready yet...& the 1st guests came! excited my mood well...coz its been long since i saw them!

1st guests:
sj & gf
billy & sunshine boy vinc =P btw, sj juz had a surprise bdae b4 he came...so i had a present for him too! haha yeah...we can vote already!

the rest of the pple were late...so guess they were kinda bored...juz watching tv and eating. haha i'm still learning to be a gd host k? so sorrie! keke then my jc frenz came....& then the pple juz kept coming! more pics below....are u ready?

see these pple....thats y we have so much fun in jc...hehe

nus pple came in batches....biggest grp for the day!

capna guyz all made it...although i didn't get their replies~ thats their trademark. silence means consent. haha sof dajie & kor came early...but guess i didn't entertain them much...so they had quality time together with scv. haha didi & gladys came onli later....then they enjoyed themselves with jenga! gave glad her present...but reluctantly had to pass her receipt. argh! =P its late...& the rest of the montfort guyz not here yet! 4eva late...haiz. hahah too bad the 1st guests had to leave early...as well as delia & maria who came by. although didn't want anyone to leave early...but its okie. at least u all came. i'm happie enough =)

this 3 bball siaoz....from jc....had to leave early. i tried veri hard to keep them here....using mahjong....but they realli had other thingz on. haha like i said...ask long as u came! i appreciate it. =)

then the montfortians came! jordie & gf came 1st...but rest reached a while later. guess its a gathering for them too...hope they enjoyed themselves! if i had more time...would've sat & tok to them longer. so much to catch up on! & u all didn't eat much~ aiyoh. haha ann finally came despite her busy schedule...looking as well-groomed & fresh as ever~ hehe chinyuen & gf came with barry. so glad they could make it...even weixiong came down last min. everyone is giving me mian zi! so gan dong~ =) all was present....so.......cutting cake time!

choc tiramisu key...which mui helped to pick up. left it there a little too long...poor cake was melting. guess it didn't taste as nice as it should be. haha standing there & looking at the wide view of frenz in my house....i felt so damn happie! i was juz enjoying the moment of seeing all the pple who have made a difference in my life. each & everyone...including those who left early. then photo taking was so fun. took quite long though....coz of the many many pple i wanna take photo with. keke

my beloved family with recent addition..dasao!

my galz...as good as alwayz. =)

this is a mixture of great frenz

sof alwayz there for each other..sacrificing work to come to my party! =P

hmm...can't seem to upload jc classmates & montfort buddies one leh! aiyoh...weird manz...go friendster see ba. haha

finally...the huge circle of nus frenz!

wow....i was realli overwhelmed by the number of pple. i'm so thankful that majority made it here & extremely happy to see u all! i realli realli enjoyed myself...although tiring...but fUN! i hope the nite lasted longer...& everything went slower. so i can enjoy even a bit more longer. but well...time flies when u're having fun! hehe hope u all enjoyed urselves too~ sorrie if i didn't entertain much...coz i'm not good at it! hahah yeah...realli happy. over experience....i rate it a 10/10. =) *mUaKs* *hUgZ*

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Wednesday, March 01, 2006

new menu~

yoz yoz yoz! nydc has changed new menu! bigger & nicer~ new food & drinks....but same working staff. wahahah oh manz...help them publicize...think they should pay me extra~ =P but more items also means....more work. the 1st time i read the "kitchen notes"....i got so pissed off! so mafan~ so many things added on....& much more prepwork with little storage space! but yesterdae when we did the clearing & adding-ons...i felt that it was not so bad after all. maybe gotta do the hands-on. juz by seeing the wordy steps...makes it all so confusing. cold side is still alright...its hot side thats got lotsa changes. i "studied" the notes...& its so much easier & funNer than sch notes! see my bias-ness? hahah its kinda fun....can't wait to try all the new thingz~! hehehe

last sunday...gave maria a surprise bdae cake...it was a short but fun nite-out. played at her playgrd at midnite...but guess we were too excited abt the huge circular rope swing that we made lotsa noise. police came to shoo us. they were quite nice actualli...could tell that they were sian half...coz kept getting complaints by the same residents there. hahaha anywayz...todae went to shop for many many things. managed to buy all the decors & stuff that i had to...& had over-salty pasta at pastamania. oh manz....tabasco helped...but killed my ulcers further. i can't smile properly~! haha

kk...coming coming! i juz heard a voice that i've alwayz wanted to. wAHaHAhaHa =D words can't express my happiness right now. heng no one's home....if not they'll think i'm mad...jumping ard like a crazy dog hahahah sounded the same...but maybe not the same anymore. i acted normal...so anywayz...woOo hOoo~ =) =) =) =) =) =)

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