so after volleying, went for a quick bite with rog & christian. he & his wife-to-be so cute la. so xingfu... hahah & saw their newly decorated house previously. white & spacious.. so nice! hmm... can't wait to decorate mine. still long way more... hehe anywayz... made my way back to aranda for a chalet all-to-myself as some went www and others went fishing earlier. played psp & enjoyed time alone... felt super relaxed la! kekeke went to nyny for dinner b4 catching house bunny. the huge burger... candy floss... oOoo. movie was real funny... not as bimbotic as i thought. kinda meaningful actually. wanted to mj that nite... but short of 1 leg. bdae gers were too tired anywayz... so all were lazy bumz & slept.

couldn't make it for kudus's celebration which clashed with the chalet. so sorrie manz! how i wish i could be split into 2 sometimes. haiz. so ya.. ended that weekend with another LUP duty. next was yeefi's turn on tue. me & veda met her for dinner to celebrate... can't seem to surprise her. i give up. hahha ended up writing her card in front of her. & she couldn't stop decorating the comment card later. had ok-food and superb-dessert. wed met up with yiru... her new perms & braces! still so pretty & motherly. keke had yummy bread for dinner... was called pani or something. can't remember. my memory is getting worse day by day. went to union sq... so interesting la! u see pple all enthu-ly dancing salsa. also saw that kiap-kiap dance... eEee.. kaoz. although i dunno how to appreciate such music... but the dance was nice. teacher yiru & pat taught us the basics... but i was still pai seh.. as usual. may consider learning next time... maybe onli. depends... hahhaa after that.. .me & mic had further plans... guess...?

yep yep... see the huge tiger? went to st james for some chilling! she hasn't been there b4... so we went touring for the nite! sat at boiler for a while... with the oldies performance and the funny gay man. moved to dragonfly for some canto pop. sylvester was not bad. loved the techno and r&b during the intervals. think dragonfly was like the best la. power house was good too... but too many pple. managed to danced abit... but we juz gave up after the squeezing. thurs went for volley training. wanted to stay for the 2nd part of training but had "errands" to run. ended up in miscommunication & i missed all the fun post-its. argh. but the final product was impressive. think jordie must have been so touched with his decorated "present". hahaha anyway... rushed off to a wake. ate peanuts and more peanuts. heard some supernatural stories which i found veri amazing. knew radio would turn up.. knew he would hide. maybe i juz wish it would be different. so.. to make things easier... had to leave. i hope it helped. sorrie.

fri was alex cum john's bdae at brewerkz. had huge servings by the river. sweet chocolatey liquory cake... which made some tipsy. nah.. not so exaggerating la. so the 2 bdae gays.. oOopz.. i mean guys.. took pics like as if its their wedding. went to lunar for some canto pop. loud & high performance on level one... and pole dancers on level two. too bad upstairs no space... guyz only could watch the pole dancers on tv. the singers were good... songs picked were nice... mostly known. we played games in our cosy corner & managed to finish the bottle. didn't manage to get alex & john drunk... but they were high. still remember the moment of shouting from john... it was juz hilarious!

sat met leong, kwok & chris for some angmo ktv. hope chris didn't feel left out when we spoke in chinese. poor kwok... i would be lost if i were her. go with the flow girl... hehehe after that went hv for john's bdae with nus pple. i had a feeling that dinner would be at my 2nd home... & it realli was. although i had my objections... couldn't voice them out. didn't wanna go against the bdae boy's wish. so ya... quickly ate & left for walas. the unexpected jammed... great as alwayz. her voice is so powerful la. didn't have seats... so didn't stay long. not in the right mood anywayz.

am i alwayz busy? no. bdaes celebrations aside.. juz making myself real busy to seem occupied. if u think i'm busy then that's ur opinion. quite messed up. accepting the facts. partying like mad. seeing u just makes me ponder about stuff i shouldn't. wat happened? i dunno. i hope u see this... coz guess this is juz how it will be. i'd realli like to turn back. but when i think of the consequences... i'd think twice. u'll do the same... don't say u won't. it's really hard.. choosing between wat's right and wat's good. guess this is the best. i'm not as strong as u. u seem to be fine. i noe u can be. thanx for the gift... thanx for everything. its my fault. i'm sorry that i appeared... i'll try not to ever appear again....