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Saturday, June 25, 2005

changes in my life...

actually..something abt me...i dun like changes. dun like changes in my environment...i like things to stay as they are. the good things of course. maybe u say i'm boring..but i juz like things the way it is. BUT...i can't stop change. everyone's life change..including mine. i was in a daze in my younger yrs..1st change in my life was him. that was a gd change. but then came another change...which i hate & regret for too damn long. maybe i'll tok abt it some other time. yah..some parts of my life quite dead..misery definitely..but there are frenz to save me. if not for all my frenz...i won't be who i am todae...really. another change came when i started working at nydc..knew a new grp of frenz. quite amazing but lucky to fit fast into that environment. easy-going & fun working environment. could clique very well with karen especially...went out often for dinner too..with bryan. thats when i realli put on weight. haha plus chris..we are sof. this change..i like. outingz and hanging out with sof was ever-so fun. so far..these changes are good..so i'm fine with it. i tend to take things for granted..things that aren't obvious but present. when lost..then i realise ba. well...was once so close..then came the change. everything happens for a reason ba..the change was destined...i'm happy for that change...but juz not used to it ba. dunno if i like the change...but juz have to get used to it rite? the immediate effect was quite a battle for me..my mind & heart..twisted. plus the studies stress...the change in sch environment..without my PPGs with me in sch. lesser chances to meet up with close frenz due to different lifestyles and changes again. all that added up to my troubles. basically..trying hard to get used to changes is the hardest part ba. thats wat i'm afraid of. this is why i feel that something can be gd this minute...and juz suddenly flop the next. all i can do is accept the fact now & juz live on rite? yeah...this is my life. i'll accept it sooner or later. think it over...laugh it away. hehe =P

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