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Tuesday, August 16, 2005

lost........

i've juz experienced the worst feeling i ever had. the feeling of losing stuff & never getting them back...wanting to replace new cards but yet waiting & hoping that stuff might come back. but yet again maybe impossible...onli can wait. facing the after-effects of losing SO many things! so siAnZ lah! its such a torture to call & hope the thief would answer my call. but then my hp was switched off after some time. that was when i noe i wasn't gona get my stuff back. the 2 most impt thingz to me...wallet & hp. the wallet i loved so much & the hp full of memories. sUx! i dun feel comfortable without them...VeRy lost. i've never felt so lost & helpless b4 manz. that thief is so lucky...i juz hope he's/she's got the heart to send me back the thingz that doesn't mean anything to him/her...but means soOoOo much to me. haiz. cards can be replaced...hp can buy...but some things are irreplaceable... i'm praying so hard that i'll get some thingz back............. argh. y can't there be more honest & kind-hearted strangers ard. or am i juz plain sUaY. nono...i'm simply careless. i've been careless my whole life. pri & sec sch keep making careless mistakes in exams...jc onwards careless in wat i say & do. misplaced my stuff a few times le...so heng i got them back. but this time.....realli goneZ. all i can blame is myself...for being so 4getful & cArEleSs! i've lost too many things to even think abt. my many yrs of memories...plz dun juz go down the rubbish dump. i realli hate myself for 4getting my stuff. i felt like shit when i woke up this morning...1st thing i think of is my stuff. how i wish it was all a dream...& i could learn from the dream itself. y reality?! aRGH! being angry at myself...weird but true lah. having to face my parents is terrible...they won't scold the hell out of me...that's wat makes me feel all the more BAD when they juz sAy me. i feel so sorry...feel like i'm causing so much trouble & wasting so much of their $$$. haiz... i've lost sOoO much IMPT things in my wallet & hp!!!!!!!!!!!! aAAHHHhhHHhH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz...................................

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