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Tuesday, November 15, 2005

study period....

well...been studying these few daes...i guess. =P feel quite weird staying home. i miss working manz...miss outingz..when it has onli been 3 daes... haha jialat rite. i noe. =) sunday went thomson with liwen & xiuwen to study. good coz they are pia-ers. haha motivate me manz & they're veri encouraging. tHaNx! hehe then had dinner with papa & korkor at swensens! while mama go college's wedding dinner. its kinda weird coz normally my mum's ard...& she's the one toking. haha so i felt abit weird but when papa started toking...it was all so nice~ hehe i felt that i learnt more abt my papa & korkor...finally!! its never too late~ keke thats wat i call quality time. made me recall the times when i was still young...our family outingz. now me & my bro so busy...haiz. coz we're growing up? guess its a transition of family life ba. & i can see that my parents are used to it le..hahha

yesterdae i stayed home...too comfy manz...difficult to keep awake. but i managed to study lah...duno if got absorb in anot...coz maybe half-slp. keke i definitely can study better at nite. like more awake. but halfway...dunno y i suddenly drifted & thought abt wat i was doing in life. i'm studying a course that i am not very enthu & excited abt. and my grades are barely making it. seriously, i still dunno wat i'm interested in...no particular course that catches my attention...even until now. i was not very stressed out....but dunno y started to wonder.

y am i studying this? wouldn't it be nicer to do something that i realli like? but then again...wat do i like? i began to think how fun it was to be able to do bar-tending. something that seems to interest me but i dunno how to? hahaha or maybe decorating cakes...juz some hands-on stuff that i can enjoy w/o stress. but then...when it becomes a job...will i still enjoy it or will i get bored of it. argh~ the thought of enjoying life realli made me wanna quit sch leh. i almost wanted to talk to my parents already...but i kept on thinking. my parents would ask me wat my alternatives are...& i will say dUnNo. so i guess...it'll make them worry unnecessarily & me going back to studying eventually ba. conclusion is...like wat i've said to myself from the start of uni life, i'll get a degree for the sake of getting one. coz many never end up working in their related field of study rite? anywayz...i shouldn't give up now...coz i'm quite sure i'll regret. & if i stop now, my a'levels cert is not worth much. since i've entered jc...its a commitment to continue to uni ba. if i didn't want it...i shouldn't have gone to jc in the 1st place..but i did & i don't regret it ba. coz it was fUn! gained experience & was a gd part of my life. so, rationally-thinking...i'll continue my struggle thru' ba. hahaha hope it'll end up gd somehow. =P

yeah...so coz of boredom at home.. me & mich went to ly's place to study~ haha ate pizza..watched cartoon. sounds more like relaxing hor? keke but i got study lah....juz that alot more entertainment. it was fun studying! haha kk...tmr i'll stay home to pia for thur's paper! oh manz...ven ask me to replace him thurs nite...so tempting!! i almost wanted to...but was stop by my guilt..conscience...& xiuwen. haha anyway...thurs after paper will be going out to study with frenz loh..sorrie ven. hehe

yeah...guess i've been missing out alot in ny. hope they dun miss me? bLeAhZ. hahha its weird that i'm not stressed out yet. normally at this point...i should be damn stressed..but i'm okie~ wow...amazing! keke i think maybe coz my papers are so widely spread ba. so can relax in between. 6 paperz to clear...wait for me frenz! i can enjoy in 2 weeks time................exactly! hahaha =P tAke caReZ~

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