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Saturday, February 25, 2006

busy but having fun!

its been long since i last blogged. so busy these few daes....& its not coz of work. actualli i've been working so little...but realli can't afford the time. so many bdaes within these 3 weeks...1st is was mui's chalet. then ann's ktv. vie's bdae was spent at ven's house playing mahjong..& eating goldmine cheezecake! yesterdae was ash's @ mos. next gona be mine...which i've been planning & preparing. after mine would be my nus frens'...ali then rong ping. see! so many celebrations! i'm overwhelmed manz....but veri excited! trying my best to squeeze in time for projects & test studying.

my parent's going on holidae tonite...i'm sure gona miss them. think they go for another honeymoon. haha thought that i can take this chance to use the car...but i was wrong. juz gotta see the car sit there & not being used. i'm tired of asking already...& think my dad is tired of hearing my nonsense. i give up...wait till he offer me to drive ba. my mum asked if i wanted silver or gold key...i said silver of course...dun like gold. after some thought...i said...y not car key? hahha she said it is expensive to maintain a car...& its veri true. so was juz trying my luck loh...but i noe its impossible. i'll juz wait till i earn & save up...which will be a long long way more..hehehe anywayz...went to see key with her...but all so plain. & its getting out-dated...onli can wear this yr. so she ask me pick my own. actualli i prefer the feeling of her buying for me...but guess she wants me to pick something i like ba. & since no time to go shopping with her....i'll pick my own 21st bdae present! hahaha okie....hope my bdae will be fun~ =P

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Monday, February 20, 2006

time flies~

oh manz...so fast~ many events over le! the exciting week has ended! time to face my studies...hopefully tmr. haha last week onli went to sch for 2 daes. mon full of lects...& tues full of tutorials..then it was self-proclaimed break for me~ keke quite good timing actualli coz i'm having my study break as of todae.

last wed after work went zouk. last clubbing with shirlene b4 she goes back to australia. i had to follow my self-set curfew...so i left 1st. sorrie~ =P thurs went for my fac's bash at momo...which was not bad! much more fun compared to the previous one. it was a success! & i found out abt leong's little secret...hEeHehEhee. fri went to mich's place for some art & menicure..=P then went to mui's chalet to help decorate for the party. the demure lady wore her dress...& made a bdae speech. it was great manz...so enjoyable! couldn't stayover although i realli wanted to.

sat woke up early coz it was a fully packed dae...my bro's wedding! started with a church ceremony as dasao is a christian. followed by tea ceremony at my grandma's house. after a short rest, got ready for the dinner. all the girls had our makeup & hair done..then off we go.. to the hotel. well...i was basically the receptionist the whole dae...which was quite a new & gd experience for me. not as easy as i thought..especially when many pple came at the same time & couldn't find the names! haha i didn't get to sit at the vip table coz my parents had difficulty planning the sitting arrangements. i noe they tried to but end up no space to fit me in..so they kept apologising. i realli didn't mind.. but i would love to though. i ended up sitting at the furthest table...luckily with my cousinz..together with my dad's ex-colleages. seeing the bride all gorgeous & admirable...i was thinking when is mine..wahaha kidding =P the end result alwayz makes things look so happy but the process was the tiring part for the newly weds & my parents.

during the video...saw many cute babies(including me)..=P wahaha but so many other picz from younger times where i juz wanted to hide my face. i was kinda touched by some pics...which reminded me of the past. & their speech during the dinner helped me learn more abt my bro. they shared how they met & btw, his speech was hilarious. & i found out that i'm not the onli one who thinks my bro is weird! haha being total opposites & growing up apart, i don't realli noe my bro. we were alwayz quarrelling when we're young...then he went overseas to study during my teenage yrs. we lacked communication basically. now that we're both grown-ups, i speak politely to him...kinda feeling there's a barrier. but this barrier is slowly fading as we tok more. sadly, he's seldom home & now he's married. although he's lesser in my life again...i'm still happie for him. my bond with him is different...not like close bro-sis kind...but somehow still special.

all this said...i think my parents deserve more credit than they got. dun worry...i'll give them lotsa credit at mine...wahaha i'm dreaming again. argh~ didn't expect my aunties & uncles to make fun of me...asking me when's my turn. "still long lah!" was my reply. haha they're great relatives & not those "nosey aunty" kind..so i noe they're intentions are all good. maybe they juz think too highly of me. hahah well...yah. all over. sitting there after everyone has left, i think back & find it extremely fast...how time flies. especially when u're having fun...it will all end...so seemingly fast.

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Sunday, February 12, 2006

many thoughts...

my mind's so filled up.. dunno how to voice out. i'll juz blab it all in here. todae saw a possible li xiang qing ren. maybe i didn't even see properly...but i noe the outline was nice. as in the build & all. aiyah watever. juz eyecandy. well..didn't feel like going home so early...but its okie. should control. so i did. i noe my galz want me to rest more...i noe its gd for me..but its one thing i'm trying hard to control. i realli dun enjoy myself in sch...i juz hate it. if i could quit w/o regrets...i definitely will. i go to sch juz coz there's frenz there. but anywayz, those in my fac.. little are considered real frenz. i'm simply lost in my sch work...sometimes i juz dun wanna face it..that's y i dun study. finance is the worst. i tried doing the tutorial...flipped & studied the notes for so long...& couldn't even write a single thing. i've studied it in yr1...did badly then. guess the problem's juz brought forward till this sem. i can't seem to get it right...& the lecturer alwayz starts off toking rubbish in the front...elaborating on the wrong stuff & rushing thru' the impt parts. he thinks everyone's so smart? sorrie....i'm not. especially when it comes to application. & to make it worse..had a surprise "quiz" yesterdae in lec. totally lost..since my application sux...i didn't noe a single answer...so i'll be happy to get 1 mark.

i seriously dun enjoy myself in sch...but its something i can't avoid. haiz. this is why i alwayz work. coz it can get my mind off schwork. when i work...i'm enjoying myself so much more. i noe its hard for pple to understand why i work so much. actualli its simple. i juz enjoy myself. & enjoyment to me is important. i am myself when i'm working & when i'm out with frenz. i will do anything else but study...as long as exams are not nearing yet. i have a bad feeling abt this sem...too short...too many events. i'm prepared for the worst. anywayz...juz wanna let my galz noe...its not that i dun wanna heed ur advices...but working is an avenue for relaxation. i can't expect u all to be free so often & to accompany me all the time. i noe everyone's busy & have their own lives too...so i enjoy my life by packing up my daes with work & outingz to prevent stress from finding me. so if we can meet up more often...i'd love to. more outings like todae...with all 6 of us. did much thinking to help mui "beautify" her celebration. next wk will be fun...many events...which also means putting my sch work piling up for later. also hoping ann's gona wAnT to celebrate at her comfy home...which i predict will be absolut fun.

i've gotta get down planning for mine. everything's all coming...no idea how to study. i'm realli worried but yet i'm irritated & dun wanna care. todae had a great time with them. past few daes all slept at 5+am...all enjoying myself. i noe its bad for me...but the difficult part is controlling. like todae...i told myself i should go home early...but when go-home-time realli comes...i totally changed my mind. but in the end..i managed to mentally force myself to go home. yes! succeeded. (with the push from frenz). feeling kinda bad for not going to a fren's bdae party todae...haven't seen them for quite some time...& sort of hoped to be able to make it. but todae's not the right dae. our outing was planned long ago...& i wouldn't give it up for anything. 6 galz...nah. too valuable.

vdae's arrival makes me recall my past few valentines. all good. with or w/o him. got many surprises which made good memories. its gona be such a busy dae at ny & short of so many staff~ guess i should go help out after sch...since i'm free. although gotta see many couples tian mimi....but its alright lah. i can tahan. haha okie...enough said. juz enjoy next wk 1st. after that...next time then say.

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Sunday, February 05, 2006

my 1st chingay live-telecast

yesterdae sof went to karen's place for afternoon mahjong. juz spend our dae there "swimming". can't blame me for being slow & not playing $$$...i've onli juz started. & lucky for didi...beginner's luck! none for me. keke well...maybe coz i was busy eating my "bing bangs" haha so nice! then later we made our way down to orchard...eager to watch chingay! got tix from gladys coz she was in 1 of the doggy bladder. couldn't see her though. but we had a gd view...sitting on newspaper on the road. kor was so high....hahah chingay was fantastic. 1st time i see it real life. the dances were great...floats were impressive...little monk boy was so cute! weird costumes...different kind of lion dance with strings attached...& the last spray of fireworks which ended it all. the cheerleading performances were WOW! i'm so gian to join leh! i realli miss those daes...haiz. but i can't bring myself to join the nus team...so pai seh. i dun wanna go alone. & our jc team was not say veri pro...it was all fun coz we were all frenz & started it together. learnt from each other & improved ourselves. that's how we felt the satisfaction after our successes. =P still remember how high we were after they announced "cetus 1st"...we all went totally crazy. i couldn't get that high while watching performances...not like kor. hahaha

well...went swensens for my choco pop & wanted to catch a movie. but there wasn't any potential ones...so played arcade for a while b4 going home. hmm....i've gotta start setting a curfew for myself...can't carry on reaching home onli after my parents wake up. everytime i see the heater on...i noe i'm in trouble. been going out many times for movie after work or ktv sessions. & onli home after 6am. this is bad. i'm going overboard... & i'm so guilty for that. got a call from my angry mum at work on fri...which realli made me veri upset. i felt her anger & i hated my lies. felt so down that i juz wanted to leave. but then...it started to slam. did orders like non-stop until i didn't know when. felt so hurt inside with her words repeating in my mind that i wanted to cry but controlled. with pple asking if i'm alright...i wanted to reply that i'm fine..but i juz couldn't coz their concern made me feel like crying even more. the sudden burst made me feel so much better. & that nite's after-work-program...I Not Stupid Too...was so suitable. gave me the permission to cry it all out. its a great show. so real...so singapore. yeah...i'm serious. gona set a curfew of 3+ latest. i dun wanna make them worried anymore. being my parents is certainly not easy...sorrie & thanx. =) there's nothing more i can ask for in a mum & a dad. & i've learnt something 5 yrs back..."give moRe & expect leSs".

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Wednesday, February 01, 2006

cny celebrations...part2

yeah...juz got back from another cny with frenz~ this time with my girlz. mui had sch...couldn't make it. so 5 of us lao hei at xw's house. it was so nice! long time no eat...keke & we had fantastic home-cooked food which is simple yet delicious! jia chang bian fan! (my chinese improving) haha thanx xw~ =) had a nice chat in the warmth of her room...gd laughs...gd talks. didn'

t realli come to conclusions for any of our topics...but well...continue in our next outing? next wk ya? hehehe b4 leaving her place...we managed to catch some fireworks from afar...so nice! i've gotta go marina some dae...wanna see the close-upz! well..most couldn't stay late coz got early sch next dae...so i slowly made my way home. haha rare that i'm back early...but its gd though. saw my parents. =)

hey...no more "act blur, live longer" hor...not gd excuse! not allowed k....ly especiall

y~ haha blueey...we fully understand. realli. *gRiNz*
i love my special power.....my intuition. =)

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