hmm...where should i start? juz read the blue one's...think she's so stressed up over sch work. seeing others enjoy...& yet u've got worries all filled up inside u...i understand. its juz a sudden feeling u get...unexplainable. maybe we should meet up to study some daes? can realli help motivation(for me) and relieve stress ba. as soon as u noe...it'll be over & we'll enjoy for the next 3 months~ haha i alwayz look forward to the holidaes...so that i can study harder & get it over & done with. (my tipz...keke) well...can't realli blame anyone coz some pple may juz be innocently unaware of other's "down-mood". most imptly...wanna talk...i'm alwayz here! k? =)
i understand how it feels...when u see others laughing...& yet u juz can't laugh along. my case was slightly diff. but luckily i had 2 great pple in kitchen with me...to help brighten my mood. i was so looking forward for that dae at work...coz it was 1 of the few times that sof was working together. but little did i expect...the facial reply i got from kor...when i enthusiastically said hello. i thought maybe he was playing...thought maybe i was too sensitive. i waited a while...& observed. no...he wasn't in a bad mood. laughing away with everyone else & juz ignoring me. ok...when it got pretty obvious...i noe i was not overly sensitive. until todae...i still dunno wat happen...dunno wat that lOoK he gave me...meant? i was veri uncomfortable & upset. it juz totally spoilt my mood.
do u noe the feeling when....u were so looking forward to something...feeling so very happy...& then something juz made all that feeling goNeZ? yep...it felt like that. & it realli sux when he's going ard toking to eVeRYoNe else...& simply ignoring u. u can hear laughters everywhere...& yet u're not involved. i realli wanted to noe wat was going on...wat did i do? dajie was sensitive enough to realise my abnormality...& didi was trying to make me laugh...& they realli helped. w/o them there...i think i'll be juz drowning in my sorrows.
i'm wouldn't care if it was someone else....i hate this feeling coz its happening with me & someone close. 1 thing i realli hate is to quarrel with someone close. thats y i don't quarrel with my galz. when i have a tiff with my parents...i feel equally lousy. if u're not impt enough to me...i wouldn't feel so affected if we quarrelled. so....yah. i was hurt but didn't wanna piss u off more...so juz kept quiet. when telling me takeaway orders...u couldn't even look me in a eye for more than 2 sec... well...i realli hope i'll never quarrel with any of my close frenz...coz it's realli painful....
anywayz...u noe how sometimes u start to realise that certain frens are slowly fading out of ur life. maybe close ones...maybe not-so-close ones. but somehow or rather...they are significant enough to make a difference in your life. i guess it juz takes the effort of urself...to send a msg... to ask how are they & to even meet up. some may reply...some may not. if no reply..u can deduce that they can't be bothered with u....or maybe they're juz busy with their own lives. either way...u noe u've tried & there's nothing more u can do. hmm...i've been losing contact with the montfort guyz...coz we've all got on with our individual lives. still remember the times we went sentosa...badminton...movies...billiards...kopi...& all the outingz we had so many yrs ago. besides seeing them at my bdae...didn't have much time to catch up & stuff. finally meeting again on fridae. yeah! so much updating to do...& so much memories to uncover. =)
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