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Sunday, June 11, 2006

my heart-felt thoughts...

yep.... i realli went to the library. it was kinda fun. picked a stack of books...& find a nice comfy chair. flipped thru' the books & read onli wat i wanted to. such a fantastic feeling. conducive for sleeping too. glass curtain walls allowed me to daze at the outside scenery...overall : super relaxed feeling. definitely will go again...when i have the time. kekekke

did some unexpected shopping recently...got a nice pair of sandals which i realli like...but its kinda high. still gotta find a lower one to replace my torn & tatted one. gotta clear away my old pairs soon...b4 my mama starts commenting. hahah taiwan's having floods again...shitz. think my parents having 2nd thoughts abt letting me go...but i'm gona settle accomodation tmr! haiz. hope taipei is not affected ba. wait & see loh...

have been working...many cold side. none hot side...& acceptable wait side. cold side = cuts & orhh chehs. hot side = cuts & burnts. wait side = ankle pain. so how? all got problem...hahaha maybe its juz me lah. butter fingers...accident prone...full of problems. thats wat i'm like at work. derrick is constantly the radio...tok non-stop & sing. sometimes can be farnie but other times can say things that irritate me. most of the time toking crap. but i'm getting numb to it...sad to say...but starting to get used to it. if one dae...he doesn't say anything...then tHaT will be weird. he's like a father to me...nagging & stuff. too bad he doesn't want a god-daughter. wahahaha well...besides the crap & singing lessons...he also share his views on life principles. comment on relationship issues...which many times makes me reflect on my life. izzit good to remain frens after a breakup? guess the best answer depends on how u broke up. full of hatred? definitely no contact. mutual break up? this is the hard one. i alwayz think that its best to contact but keep a distance. contradicting in practice...coz its hard to draw the line especially when u've shared a part of ur life together. nOt contacting sure helps...but its painful. although i can't say its easy to get over...but stranger-ing will make it easier. hmm...easier said than done. but i guess everything takes time...making time so important & precious. psychological control equally needed...this is wat makes human's minds so great. its complexity.

i've alwayz had a dream house in mind...with a pool for my pet dolphin. impossible it is...unrealistic definitely. actualli i juz hope for a happy life with a stable family. like what i've been given in my life. my parents have brought me up so unconditionally...spending so much $$$ on me to provide me with such a comfortable life. i wasn't born with a silver spoon...maybe juz a metal one? its unbelieveable how great parents' love can be. its realli unconditional. totally overwhelms me. thats y sometimes i don't wanna worry them. don't wanna let them down either. they're everything a daughter can hope for...thats y i dun ask for anything more. dunno if i'll ever be able to repay them back & give them a comfortable life like what they have provided for me. i really hope to do so. i want to. i juz hope that i'll have the ability to. i'm soOoo grateful & thankful to them...i hope they know it.

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