another emo roller coaster dae for me todae. was all excited b4 doing my hair...& so happy after it was done. abit not used to it...juz hope it lasts. met dajie go squeeze in PC fair @ suntec...sun bian went to find qt. so hard to find la...& she was so busy. hahhaa couldn't find nintendo there though...but anyway i dun wanna buy le. no $$$ le...after pampering myself todae.

ate at swensens and talked. heng i insisted...trusted my intuition...saw the expression on her face. plz dun hide anything from me especially when u noe how impt it is to me. i noe u'll tell me but i was juz hoping u didn't hesitate as much. thanx for telling me though... now i noe who. it does mean alot to me. i noe its hard for u...so sorry. its not that i didn't wanna control it...but i juz couldn't. dunno if i was too angry...or juz too hurt inside. how some pple's concern can turn out to be knives. stabbing or maybe juz adding in words into others. was it juz plain words of concern...pure innocent views which was misled to think i've implied that? i dunno. but u chose to believe them...so watever. i felt cheated...like how the stuff i admitted was twisted to be something i didn't say. dunno the exact words...but i doubt its important anymore. worse still...i'm not given a chance to explain. should i confront? i wanna make things clear but maybe i shouldn't. coz who cares anyway? fug it. was practically boiling inside...but the anger was slowly washed away. numbness...emo-tired.

but i did try...but the reaction i saw was as usual. avoidance. 4get it. if this is the way u want it...i'll juz go. didn't want things to turn out this way...but nvm. u dun care...so y should i. felt much better after letting it all out....thanx dajie & sorry again. mood was lifted... all thanx to eo & wu. their jokes & happy spirits juz influences me...had some b&j icecream & played pool. wat more can i ask. even had a "thrill ride" home. so fun. btw, genting is calling for me.

juz gotta get away from the wrongs that i can't make right. tmr back to work...haizzzZzz....

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