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Thursday, November 29, 2007

tmr's fREeee & weEee dae!

oh my god... i can't wait for tmr! last paper.... but a scary one. its qm...sorta maths~ argh. although steps & calculations not veri hard... but i heard past sem's paper was so unexpected. so afraid that he give us some sudden shock... i can realli imagine that scenario. hahaha juz hope i can apply it correctly ba... dun wanna be stuck in calculations. pls pls... i pray. =P

anywayz.. already in holidae mood manz. sat onwards gona be back at ny~! can't wait. miss working... miss the hv family~ hehehe got new additions too... & new menu. i foresee its gona be a fun-filled december! so may have fewer posts... too busy enjoying~ hahaha see how ba. alright... last mugging for 2007... yEaH~! woOo hOoo~

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Tuesday, November 27, 2007

here it goes again...

as much as i want to care... i dun wanna care anymore. contradicting? well... wat use is there to care when watever u say or do... doesn't change the way pple perceive things? so what for.. must i change myself... or restrict my behaviour so purposefully? i noe it seems the right thing to do... but pls la... there are too many "rights" in this world... juz which do u follow? some things are easier said than done... & not everyone can understand that unless u experience it urself. heard that some rumours went round... dunno by who... or exactly wat. aiyah... sick & tired already la. the more i'm affected by wat other pple say... the more miserable i will be. no matter how hard i try to justify... it has proven to be of no use. sometimes its hard to explain situations and convey emotions... but i've tried. sorrie if i've failed or didn't convince effectively.

i guess humans are simply naturally bias. once u set your impression on something... its hard to change it. coz subconsciously... u'll keep supporting that judgement u have. are things alwayz so explicit? like wat u see is wat u get? not all the time k? there are many possibilities... so never presume. i've decided~ i'm gona not-bother-so-much. like it or not... i dun care. spread watever u want lo. ultimately... u're not the one that's suffering rite? the effects of the rumours doesn't regard u right? selfish eh? hahaha

anywayz... met my baobeis todae. bubblez managed to buy all the things she was looking for... da bao xiao bao~ hahah studied abit b4 blossomz came. so long neber ppg liao. so happy! =P ate ichiban... oh i juz lOvE jap food. wanna go japan if i have the $$$ & chance... but there's still language barrier. argh. dec exercise... i try lah i try. kekek btw..(onli to my 6 darlingZzzZzZ)..i'm serious about my dream leh. it has been my dream ever since i was young. so i'll look forward to the dae where we work together! hopefully. or at least u all come my shop! hahah sell wat? secret. december then we tok about biz plan. wahhahaha no lah...faster meet up soon! =)

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Saturday, November 24, 2007

fairytale ending

watched Enchanted... & its realli as good as i expected. fairytale ending of course... where those who deserved it... ended up living happily ever after! its a mixture of fairytale and reality. of how she realised her true love... after getting a reality check.. in human world! her optimistic and happy spirits was so lovable... & the chipmunk.. realli so CUTE!!! her singing was lovely... her dresses were gorgeous.. realli brought out the little ger's dream in me. who wouldn't want to be in a fairytale where everything is perfect and happy. & it would be so great to "find" who your true love is... by the test of the poison apple. its fiction cum reality in this movie... feel so happy after watching it.

gathered some hidden meanings in this show. actions speak so much louder than words. they didn't express their hidden thoughts... subconscious feelings. but it all came juz naturally. that some things need not be said.. but felt. so perfect rite. all went to their respective worlds eventually... and all so xing fu. oh well.. juz a fantasy... kekeke

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Friday, November 23, 2007

hmm....

personalities differ... inevitable individual differences. but somehow i feel we're all alike. everyone has ups and downs, good & bad sides of them. its juz different extent of each side that we show others. how u portray urself to others. in fact, i know some who are realli niCe pple. but somehow... the way they present themselves is bad. so others juz hate them. only if u realli knOw them... then u'll wanna side them. so all i can say is... don't judge someone if u dun understand them.

our behaviours are affected by the extent of how you control your mood, perspective and perception on things. experiences also shape behaviour... so i guess it explains why u treat pple differently. some pple cannot control emotions well... maybe juz w/o that ability. or maybe juz bold in showing true feelings. or maybe juz simply ignorant. tolerance levels are in-born ba... in our genetic makeup.

if u're alwayz miserable & finding faults in everything...then your life will be so full of hatred. got a postcard from my jc daes,on my wall saying, "a positive attitude is a powerful force that cannot be stopped". this is so true. so watever u do, should u blame anyone? coz everyone has faults... so juz stay positive? yeah! but can't be over-optimistic coz might end up ignoring and running away from problems. so when to be neutral? when to raise up to ur expectations? when to put aside all those doubtful expectations and juz accept simple things that are juz right in front of u? juz feel that sometimes.. i'm caught in something that i dunno how to get out of. a situation that seems so obvious but hard to amend. juz carry on & see where fate brings me to? its bothering me all the time... like haunting me each time i'm reminded. maybe i shouldn't think too much or care so much? coz ultimately... there's actually nothing.

well... i'm realli crapping now. i'm not trying to prove anything... juz having some random thoughts. did a facebook colour test.. & i'm White! "You are the color of purity and truth. While you may often be considered naive, you know what is truly important in this world and are morally steadfast. While it could only take tiny interaction from another color to spoil your perfection, chances are you are going to remain pure and beautiful forever." dunno how true this is... but i juz love white. hahaha the xmas decor in town so nice la... common theme of abundant string of tiny lights from orchard all the way to suntec. so bling bling.. with snowflakes! its gona be a "white" christmas. =) okie... tmr's the day! i wish everyone having exams... all the best! it'll be over soon! i'm so glad dec is coming.... woOo hOOo~

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Wednesday, November 21, 2007

feeling harassed...

have not been sleeping well these daes... coz of the absurd phonecalls i get in the early mornings. its getting too senseless when i think of it. a fren that i knew 9 years ago... someone whom i thought i knew. i realli dunno wat's become of him anymore. i choose to believe he is the same person i know... by giving him the benefit of doubt. so i juz hope this stops happening.

i'm not awaken by smses. but calls... i am a light sleeper. with my hp ringing at 6+am & then again at 7+... can't i juz have a peaceful sleep? even if things are that urgent... can't u juz speak up? y is it that the caller has to call me at weird hours... & juz keep silent while i repeatedly say "hello?" its like i'm talking to the wall... u can juz speak up if u need to say something ok. we're still frens... so please dun change that impression i have about u. i'm started to feel tormented by all these... i even hung up once but u juz called again. wat's up with that?

in fact.. when i recall... this is not the 1st time. i remember last time... i received a singtel sms saying that u called at 4+am? i didn't have to use my hp alarm that nite so i switched it off. i did sms u the next morning to ask if anything's the matter... but u didn't reply. but nowadaes, oversleeping has become a habit... so i'm realli dependant on my hp alarm to wake me. my other alarm clocks are useless. now i'm getting annoyed that i can't sleep properly & waking up even more tired.

come to think of it... this has been happening on & off. juz that other times the calls weren't at awkward hours. initially i thought that it was accidental... maybe u didn't know. but my name starts with "L" not "A"... so i dun think i'm the 1st in ur contact list. wat is it? u can juz tell me u noe... juz speak up. dun stay silent when u call. want to call... no prob.. but tok la. alamak. i'll tell myself that u innocently didn't mean it. that maybe ur hp got stolen... & these are juz pranks. but i'm realli starting to question my doubts. so please stop it...k? =)

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Saturday, November 17, 2007

fishy yesterdae~

finally transferred some pics from my hp to computer... now i can free some space from hp. its so running out of space.. argh. anywayz... these pics are from A*mei's concert! abit late...but here's a peek at it! it was damn shiok la... she's pOwErfuL!!! her voice... live = cd. i've alwayz loved her songs... so many popular and nice oneZ. concert lights never fail to amuse me... so beautiful!

abit glaring sometimes though. & the onli problem is cannot take a*mei coz of my hp's limited ability & those lights were too bright~ hahaha but if u look closely...u can make out her glowing figure. Next pic... got a*mei!

glimpse of her on screen! sorrie ah... coz not near enough... so onli can see her clearly on screen. so might as well take a pic. haha she puts alot of feelings into her singing... so emo to hear her sing sad songs lo. got that iMpaCt! see how filled the indoor stadium was... b4 it all started. and also the lightsticks flickering all over when it got dark. regret that we didn't get any! haiz. fireworks shot up at climax point... so wOw! she's so li hai leh... got looks... got voice. & most importantly her stage performance is superb! its my 1st time going concert... & i'm so lucky that its her! she managed to continuously hiGh for ard 2 hr 30 min... she's realli got stamina! her humour is genuinely funny... and its realli a bonding concert. could sense how her fans were all crazy over her. haha & yes... she encore for 30 min or even longer. she is juz simply amazing! un4gettable experience. =D

yesterdae while in the midst of doing proj... i couldn't resist the temptation of tagging along to "feed fish"! so... went with yiru & guyz to Qian Hu fish farm. fish lover des came too... so he was like telling us all about fishes... like "tour guide" haha see the fishies! so cute rite. my follow species... wahahha goldfishes applenty. base of stingray was so hard to capture... had to wait a long time for it to swim up against the tank. the face so funny.. haha see the transparent fish... so cool la... could see the whole bone structure. & the 2 thingy on the rocks there... they're tiny winy stripped prawns. even smaller than diameter of 10cent coin~

so here comes the fish "feeding"... the pic may be abit gross la. coz they look like leeches. but its juz the pic. went to see the fish "doctors"... helped to remove our dead skin. many pple there... so they had to multi-task... hahah the lesser pple... the more they'll come to u. so ticklish lah! super! kept giggling initially... but after some time will get used to it. yiru so afraid of the bigger ones... so she didn't keep still. hahah juz stay still & they'll come. big ones not very scary la... as long as u dun notice them. their "cleaning" is not as ticklish... but more obvious feeling. the 30mins seemed too fast. quite fun la... felt that legs more clean.. but may be juz self assurance. hahaha

realised that yesterdae after paper had fish & chips for lunch... then dinner had fish& co also... even go see fish. so qiao rite. wat a fishy day. kekeke btw... went to buy "clothes" for my ds. purple glittery casing... so nice la! now i love it even more. hahaha didn't even realise the initial transparent casing broke.. until the shop guy changed for me. fated la. hahah

went to catch Hero... takuya so handsome leh... cute cute cute~! detective show... very nice! have to read the subtitles & follow the mistery. well plotted... smart arguments in court... incredible inference and reasoning. was so mesmerized by his intelligence... coolness & yandao-ness! hahaha go catch it... worth the $$$! =P

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Friday, November 16, 2007

updateZ...

last tue went to "celebrate" that hv got 2nd place for halloween... disappointed coz the amount of time & effort we put in... kinda not worth it. but nvm la... better than nothing. guess it juz re-affirms my opinion on my art. sorry hv... couldn't remake history. anyway...we went chomp chomp to makan. me, ren, vie & nie. ate so much la... me & my chix wings... heng nie helped me. hahha went to eat desserts at ice cube... so yummy! love the mudpie... but of course i still support nydc la. ice cube's mudpie is different... onli 1 flavour. but milo powder... shiOk! went for bee movie after that... so cute loh. its cartoon-kind-of-nice... so cannot expect much. meaningful... =) next day, wed went st james with ny pple. eugene brought us in for "tour"... but most of the time stayed in powerhouse...r&b. quite shiok la. long time neber exercise. hahaha rahmat so cute la when he dance. eddie's fruit punch had heinken added in...by somebody.. did he eventually noe? hahah dropped in dragonfly occasionally... but songs not veri nice that nite ba. it was fun though. long long time go clubbing.... quite shiok actually. kekeke

juz took HR paper todae... qn not difficult.. but think i screwed up. too eager to start writing that i realise halfway that i never answer the qn properly. so i tried to turn to the right direction but abit crappy. wanted to add in more points coz still got time... but already concluded... so any additional points will be so obviously unplanned. aiyoh. juz hope i dun fail la. alamak. now gotta pia 3 more project...1 due sunday... 2 due wed. can't wait to finish them... then finally can start studying to examz! last time got at least a week to study... now onli 3 daes. maybe coz my proj ends late & exams start early. 1st paper on sat... wat a spoiler. all exams 2 days interval. congratulationZ. i'm so screwed. its a blessing that all papers are open-bk. at least i dun have to memorise. heng ah... coz my memory realli cannot make it liao.

i love my ds... so fun! but still haven't got the time to put in new games. hahaha i miss ny leh...i wanna work! like super long neber work liao. but when... haiz. dec i'll be back! wait for my exams to finish k? sorry mods! =P

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Sunday, November 11, 2007

attention all road users...

please be very very careful alwayz. be it in car, bus, bike or pedastrian.. must be 100% cautious. on the road...danger lurks. as long as 1 makes a mistake... others' innocence are sacrificed.

last nite almost midnite... ger & boi on bike. travelling at normal speed with safe distance. lexus in front of bike. taxi in front of lexus. traffic flow normal... all vehicles was slowing down near bent... but taxi suddenly jam brake. lexus had to e-brake... bike brake hard too...but bike's brake not as strong. bike bang lexus... ger flew front a little b4 dropping to the left.. on the road. boi tried to keep the bike upright but not for long. luckily no car coming towards ger... she quickly stood up shocked. boi pulled bike up after fall. lexus scratched but bike's front cracked. exchanged contact info. notice where is the taxi? or whoever who caused everything? no where to be found. guess they didn't even noe what they caused. yet the pple left behind are unfortunately the scapegoats whom in the process are hurt. i noe its hard to say who's fault... its hard to determine the safe distance to keep. its all so casual & calm.. but when u least expect... any slight mistake or reaction can result in vast consequences. luckily they were all alright. & if hypothetically circumstances were amplified... things could have worsen.

i saw all that... wat an experience. this may have been a little accident... but it was enough to shock me. so no matter where or when u're travelling on the road...please xiao xing. to those with fast & furious cars especially...no matter how fast & cool your car is... how much fun u are having in ur vehicle... please dun 4get that there are other road users & have a sense of responsibility. coz if anything happens... as a result of ur actions... u'll live with grief and regret for the rest of your life! so please drive carefully. open eyes big big... check blind spots... & stay alert at all times. to all my frens who drive...must be veri careful ok? =)

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Wednesday, November 07, 2007

cold cold days...

rainy season is here... so cold la~ proj meetings also in aircon... so whole dae practically freezing. fluctuating body temperatures... sleeping late & waking up early... i can feel myself burning up. even swollowing is painful now. so heaty manz. argh. that dae go for foot massage... pain implying weakness. was advised to drink more water...& yah...i realli should. i can go a day drinking onli 1 cup of water & i still dun feel thirsty. but drinking so much... keeps making me go toilet... mafan loh. hahah ok...enough crap...

projs are all in the process now. no more presentations... only report writingzZz. projs are dreadful if u're doing it alone... but if u pia together with frenz... it can actually be very fun. thinking back... many projs passed have been really enjoyable. even those that suffered setbacks & problems... in the end we all learnt to pia together. i'll never forget yr3 sem2's projs... the craziest so far. me, yiru & pat stayed in sch till 3+am to pia... tiring but that sense of accomplishment was realli satisfying~! so sad that next sem ly won't be doing projs with us le.... but still must eat together k? hehehe fri gona watch lust le... think ah neo can't wait. r21...her favourite. wahahhaa maybe she can't wait to see her tony go naked ba. oOopz. =P

tmr's deepavali! yeah~ PH implies double pay! so happy... coz running out of cash. hahaha at nite gona watch A*mei's concert. so excited! its my 1st time going to this kinda concert... will it be high high high? i've alwayz admired her voice.. so powerful. but i've never thought of going to any concert... coz not siao over any idol. since david cooperfield let me down... then i shall reward my disappointment thru' her voice!

u noe wat? after so much hesitation.. i've finally got a white DS!! so happy~ actually i've decided to start saving up now... so i can buy in december (prevent all the distraction now). but radio got it from malaysia... cheaper i guess. so i'm distracted earlier...but i'll control! take it as motivation? hahha gotta pay him back thru' installments ba... since i'm still in the process of saving up. kekeke my mario & soniC! & so many more... oh manz! =D

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