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Sunday, March 30, 2008

long time no blog...

super supa duper dupa long no blog... endless report. have been working on my case study... analyze... dinalyze... trinalyze... & it goes on. reaches a point where i think i'm juz crapping. when i review back... what i wrote juz don't make sense. oh my god... wat's happeRniNg to my engLand! getting pple so do my survey is aldy kinda hard... now the analysis is worse. with vinc abusing that honour! u think everyone gets the honour to do my survey meh! be thankful that ur opinions are captured in my survey analysis ok! =P aiyah.. pai seh la... bo pian ma... must do means must do. i also help pple do so many~ thats sch life la... haiz. dun worry... that's the last of it all. time to throw the square-ish hat.

got a bad feeling about this last sem... case study seems to prove nothing significant. dunno if the marker will get lost in my confusing thoughts. i have a problem expressing myself... argh... wat a goner. exams coming... end of april. lost touch with politics readings... still working on nego assignment. the time will come... where i juz shake head and sigh. admist all this... no interviews yet. subtle waiting. application thrown to one side? or kept later for review after grad? y y y... i dun understand. maybe its a sign... maybe its not the industry for me. but wat is? lost lost... give me a sign! typing time.....

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Thursday, March 13, 2008

feelings of indebtness

ever felt like u owe someone so much that u'll never be able to repay in your lifetime? not implying monetary of course... in terms of kindness and graciousness. its that pure heart and makes everything worse. the indebtedness i feel towards this good fren... the inability to return the gratitude i feel... sometimes can be overbearing. its not easy on the receptive side... its not a good feeling to know u "owe" but yet you can't "return". anywayz... i'll juz focus on the tangibles, and as much intangibles as i can. thanx 4eva..

the last of my bdae celebrations was with my dearies and guyies. after event at rp.. rushed to pick some of them to romano. luv the bread sticks there. affordable italian food. it was a long table, hard to talk to the other end. maybe we sould opt for circle tables next time. which restaurants have huge round ones? besides chinese i guess. time to source for some.

i thought the sim guyz wouldn't be joining for our nite planz... but they gave me face! feel so honoured lo... they had papers coming soon... but still so oNz. thanx manz~ so we made out way to marina at keppel bay... where the new chillout place is. some champagne and beers to fill us while chilling at gastrobar. there was a function that nite... so kinda crowded. the staff there all very frenly... great place~!

the bridge behind us changes colour! so nice la~ qt wanted to take the different colours... but each interval too long le. hahaha i feel so glad to have found so many great frenz. i'm not a lucky person... i'm juz lucky enough to have found so many great frenz to share my life with. cheebongs included. so... thanx to everyone who celebrated my bdaes with me! & the presents.. oOo.. even more indebted. tHanx thAnX thaNx! i don't feel old... i juz feel so happy & fortunate to have pple around me who care. so rou ma... but true! so many of u has been with me thru' my ups & downs. helping me emotionally.. mentally... physically... acedemically.. socially... and simply juz being there for me. lUv ya aLL~

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Sunday, March 09, 2008

don't believe it...

is it the vehicle? is it the date? or izzit juz me? i can't believe how suay i can get. its like hit-and-run. wth. culprits run... victims suffer. life is sad. monetary difficulties. argh. i can't wait to work... gotta clear debts. wat an entry to 23rd.....

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Saturday, March 08, 2008

23 and counting...

the 23rd day of my life was not exactly normal this time. it wasn't a good day. how careless can i get. split second occurance... irreversible time. eyes should never wander. argh. i've regretted. i've sinned. but have learned. after that... the dae was kinda spoilt. the guilt. good mood turned mono mood. after much sighing... grumbling... and self-blaming... i slowly accepted that things had aldy happened. jordie's humour helped alot too... thanx manz! was so late for dinner at asian kitchen.. so sorrie to make them wait. luckily the other bdae ger entertained them...keke food was yummy... the suan la mian was so suan & so la! good good... better than crystal jade's ba. then it was cake time! 2 big for fish mei & 3 more small for fish jie.

big O yum yum~ after that... not all went clubbing. really wanted kor, shirlene & bernie to join us... but they had to work next dae. haiz. glad's mood slightly dampen too coz her other frenz put aeroplane. since st james music was trance... we switched venue. so apparently, the 2 pisceans were kinda down... but we consoled each other and that when we reached double O.. things will get better. maybe 7th was not a good day... but glad's theory that 8th will be better... was true! we came to a conclusion that... we should never expect too much out of something coz if we do, it hardly turns out as expected. better to think that things will be alright... & end up enjoying much more. tested & proven! hehehe

anywayz... O bar was shiok! & the best thing... got popcorn!! my fav! the dj was best manz. he's hyped-up & professional. songs he played... none boring. non-stop hits.... especially towards the end. hopefully lost some chalories there. haha double O was euro-dance, between trance & techno? i also duno nice or not... coz like abit techno abit not. luan... hahaha the rest didn't want.. so me & ren went up to checkout the mood... but 2 pple couldn't high enough la. & not much pple on dance floor... so pai seh. keke so we all ended up at O bar... hip hop whole nite.... at least the bdae gers had fun. thank you very much. =D

last tue went vivo ate shabu shabu with neo, leong, tann, wu, and kudus. the jap steamboat was nice. thankful to gene. they bought this choc mousse from bakerz inn.. so nice la~ thanx for the prezzies too! then wed celebrated for my musically-talented fren. had dinner b4 going flyer! night view was great... with the lighted cbd view and never ending flyover. view from the top was breath-taking. was too busy taking pics that 30min flew past...

it would be great to hold a party in the huge cabin... but of course for a longer time. kekeke think flyer should change colour... y alwayz blue? i saw once... it was colourful... but y onli that one time? aiyo. anyway... it was a good experience, but maybe a little over-rated. =P after that it was durian cake time~ next, went to check out the new prive near closing time.. but managed to get a drink b4 they close! nice chillout place... but onli accessible with car ba. hope he enjoyed himself~

last thurs went to run some errands... so convenient moving ard... kekeke evening time went to meet up cheebongsters. ended up going blooie's for dinner. we were the onli customers indoors. so exclusive sia~ hahaha truely grateful that they spared me some time to have this dinner celebration.. know they got lotsa work to do. realli juz wanted a simple one... but they never fail to make it a good one. never 2nd class la... how can. all my frenz are important to me leh. grinz. jordie didn't succeed in faking me this time... kinda prepared aldy. keke so no tears... sorry. =P but i realli appreciate the thoughtfulness. mango chzecake was yummy & big~ keke thanx for the pressie~ realli love it loads. so high-tech! hahah for me la.. coz i not so it savvy mah. i will definitely use de... put all my fav songs & pics! thanx cheebongs! lub u guyz manz. =)

yep yep... so celebrations were great. one more later.. with my dearies and guyz. woOo hOoo... a yr older is learning more. still young hor. 4eva young. wahahahha no deceiving... its factual. gona be back to studies soon. had a break too long.....

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