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Sunday, November 30, 2008

numb-ness

so numb towards these feelings. like a tape replaying the same track every now & then. reaches a point where i juz dun wanna think anymore. coz whichever choice you make juz seems so wrong.. & its impossible to think that anything is right. stubborn or intuition... can't differentiate its magnitude. y can't things go smoothly... y can't things juz be simple.

life is so unpredictable. some pple juz happen to be at the wrong place, at the wrong time. like the sporean in india. there's still so much ahead of her... but circumstances juz change like that. like the 20 yr old who died in an accident... with no witnesses to "avenge" her. she wasn't even given a chance at all. & yet pple like us... who have chances and opportunities right in front of us... choose not to take them. its juz so unfair.

i dun know what to believe in anymore. since when has simplicity became difficult. where do u draw the line of being nice to pple & yet not misleading them. i guess maybe there isn't such a line after all. coz the mind is wild no matter how pure the heart is. juz hope things turn out fine eventually.

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Tuesday, November 25, 2008

KL getaway..

it was quite a last min plan. but the short & fulfilling trip was so worth it. took luxury tours and travel's coach. damn shiok. chair big & comfy.. with individual tv to keep us occupied thru'out the 5-6 hr journey to & fro. so many channels! well... movie marathon goes like this...

On the way

1. She's the Man

2. Secret

3. Step Up

4. Just Follow Law

Coming back
5. Taiwan episodes with Ru Hua...hilarious!

6. Money No Enough 2

some mixed music tracks

although all movies watch b4 le.. but they were still so entertaining. reached hotel istana at midnite... & settled in. biggest hotel toilet i've seen... too bad we didn't have the time to soak in the bath tub. Saturdae was so packed.. luckily hotel was located centrally. after the wide spread buffet breakfast.. walked to Lot10 for quick window shopping. then sungei wang followed by times sq. sugei wang reminded me of lucky plaza somehow. pple say kfc is a must-eat in m'sia.. but we couldn't taste the difference. hahah managed to secretly buy a toblerone cheezecake for micky. its a simple surprise celebration for her... hope she didn't mind. guess she was more interested in shopping till she drop!

next, we went to times sq.. & was shocked when we saw the size of the shopping mall. at 1st.. we onli saw one side of it. like maybe 5 storeys. but when we walked to the other side... there was another 7 storeys up! it was amazingly huge~ & at another side.. there was a theme park within the mall. realli wanted to sit the roller coaster la! but we didn't have time~ haiz. must go there again somedae. so we shopped for shoes & clothes & more shoes. could see john's energy depreciating with time... kekeke we didn't manage to cover everything coz its madness... no matter how fast we shopped still canot conquer the whole mall. but at least we were satisfied with our "yield".

had cheap jap food for dinner & the waiter there was so nice. drew a map to illustrate our journey to chinatown by foot. so thankful otherwise we're quite lost. so we dropped off our stuff back in hotel & micky got her surprise cake from her daddy! he's so sweet la... made arrangements for the hotel staff to room service a pistachio chzcake! so yummy... hehehe daddy's little girl. =) then.. continued on our nite walk to chinatown. heard of the high possibility of pickpockets there... but we were prepared. it looked juz like our chinatown! same de la. but cheaper of course. we bought jackets & cardholders. great place to bargain. so value for $$... =D and we had herbal jelly & liang teh... so cooling~

after all that walking... we took a cab to sultan ismail. 1 of the popular clubbing area which was near our hotel. beach club... thai club... but we settled for aloha cum honolulu. rm30 entrance fee. went honolulu 1st. they was playing trance/house music. thumping loudly.. so much louder than the usual. & the lights... so nice!!

but the music was getting a little deafen-ing... so we went over to aloha. liveband! i'm alwayz impressed by philippino singers... their voices are so powerful & nice! they sang english & malay songs. enjoyed their vocals... even for the malay songs. sounded so meaningful... but left after some time coz didn't understand wat they singing... hmm. slept so well that nite. actualli both nites in the hotel... so shiok... no problem sleeping at all. juz went to lala land in no time.. while micky was packing. she's like packing every nite... u can imagine how many things she bought.

sunday was a short dae. after breakfast.. went to petronas towers. spend lotsa time trying to get the best shot of the twin towers. after many trial & error.. managed to take us with petronas! oh... didn't have time to go KL tower.. but we spent some time trying to "hold" it the previous nite. hah~

not easy ok... had to walk far & take from low. real low. wanted to go up for petronas view.. but the next tix available was 6+pm of which we would have been on the coach back to sg. should have bought tix the dae b4... too popular aldy! so nvm lo... went into KLCC for "ah-tas" shopping. machiam paragon. so we spend our time in the more affordable isetan. where john's shopping took place. his returns were the best la. the shirt... pants... clothes for his niece & nephew. all so nice! anywayz.. we were running out of time.. so did some food shopping b4 making our way back to hotel. got onto a taxi... rm15 back to hotel. along the way... the driver intro-ed this Cocoa Boutique to us & we managed to negotiate with him. choc factory and then back to hotel... still rm15. great deal huh. didn't get to watch them make choc... but we did some choc tasting & bought lotsa chocz back. the choc display was damn nice too...

had to quickly pack stuff to check out...so our lunch was hot instant noodles in our cold hotel room. shiokness. then... its back onto the comfy coach for the next 6+ hrs. jammed at tuas... so many coaches going back to sg la. so ya... home sweet home...reached at 11pm. went for frog porridge with long lost fren before turning in for the nite.

the trip passed so fast. missing it aldy. too much walking... feet sore again. lao mao bing. mondae on nite duty... so couldn't see doc. todae went to raffles tcm. wrong choice. usualli tcm is effective... so i thought go specialist to figure out wats the problem of my recurrences. to my disappointment.. juz 4 needles & a little heat. no medicine... no bandage. costing a bomb. $96 for that & not much of a gd explanation... felt so cheated. after some walking... pain was back. couldn't take it... ended up in polyclinic. muscle/ligament sprain. consultation so much better... clearer... mUch cheaper & medicine to rub. 2 dae mc even. oh well... guess i juz made the wrong choice. argh. great lesson learnt. juz gona rest... hope it gets better. oh well... the price to pay for walking too much or the way i walk? exert pressure on wrong areas? i realli dunno... haiz. wat's wrong with me... so much problemz.

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Wednesday, November 19, 2008

everything's gona be alright..

life is a mystery. u'll never know wat to expect. there's a saying... "yesterdae is history. tmr is a mystery. todae is a gift.. that's y it is called present." & so if i may... i'd change history to memory. coz watever happened before.. has brought us to where we are today. it is to be remembered and treasured (of course onli applicable to those worthy).

no matter wat happened in the past... stand back up. learn from it. & this is where the present comes. yesterdae leads to now & now will lead to tmr. we'll never know wat's gona happen tmr... so juz take it as it comes. i am not much of a planner.. but trying hard now to plan ahead. coz sometimes i feel realli lost w/o a direction.

enough nonsensical analysis on life. enough emo-ing. can get really tiring. but when the boat reaches the dock, boat will auto straight.. translate correctly? should be understandable la hor. anywayz... everything will be alright... no matter how tough. there's a solution to everything... its juz a matter of time. tmr gotta bowl again... hope we'll be on-form coz its the finals. after that gona mambo... its been a long time since we went there. so excited abt this weekend's getaway... not gona shop much though. juz go & breathe in some KL air. hmm... dec is approaching fast. can u hear the xmas bells ringing? i can.. =P

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Saturday, November 15, 2008

still in disbelief

lies... deceit. trust? how? i am speechless. didn't want to find out this way. if it were to come out from ur mouth.. things would have been so different. its not the topic.. its the channel. i'm fine with the info... very happy in fact. juz dun understand who u r anymore. but i guess there's no turning back. this time... its realli deep.

pls readers.. dun get the wrong idea. my past posts are not meant for who u think its meant for. after hearing the news... utter disbelief and shock. yet feeling glad somehow. hurt? wat do u think? guess i've juz wasted all my worrying on nothing. things may have to change now? HAH.. sudden change in thinking? u caught me by surprise. feel so disappointed that ur reactions change so drastically. all in a single nite. i applaud u.

since circumstances have changed.. some things can't be said directly. so i'll juz blog it down and hope u'll see this. i sincerely zhu fu. i have alwayz wanted this day to come... u dunno how happie i am for u. but maybe if u were more truthful... i wouldn't feel so pissed and uneasy. doesn't matter now... this is the best it can get. u will be fine.. i noe u will. u have juz affirmed all my thoughts. thanks. thanks alot. for everything. all the best

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Monday, November 10, 2008

choices

life's a journey. many times we take the wrong path to find the right one. applies to all aspects ba.. work, love, watever that requires a choice to be made. which is everything u do. some don't have to trial & error so much... but some juz keep searching. in the end.. its the expectations i guess. but things happen.. & u may reach a point where both paths are wrong. somehow. so wat to do? juz pick one & hope it turns out fine... as time goes by.

pple say "change" is a powerful word. but i think "choice" is the ultimate. coz everything u do.. who u are... behave... and turn out to be... is all about choice. & whether or not u want to adapt to change is also a choice. change is inevitable... but choice is even more unavoidable rite? coz eventualli everyone has to make a choice for everything. even stuff that occurs unfairly to u.. & u had "no choice"... u'll still have to choose how u wanna deal with it rite?

i admit that i hate making choices. coz i'm afraid of making wrong ones which will end up in regrets. but i know i can't run away from this freaking powerful word. so i gotta set my mind straight. know wat i want. been thinking hard on wat i want out of life... wat i wanna achieve. although nothing ambitious... but happiness is the key. I would never give up who i am for wat i do. & no one else should.

there's alwayz a choice. make the right ones pls.

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