Live with no excuses, Love with no regrets..

Sunday, January 04, 2009

start of 2009

1st post in '09. this yr didn't think of any resolutions. juz another yr went past. ended '08 by playing games at lisa's house. veri homely and comfy. food.. alcohol... taboo... pictionary & dvds after that. its the company that made a simple countdown so meaningful.

another major change. '08 ended with a signature and '09 with a tender. its quite coincidental... how all these came about. initially planned for this process to happen earlier... but fate intervened on its occurrence by the switch of the calendar yr. its hard to anticipate the uncertainty... but its even harder to say goodbye. despite the bad economy... still gotta grab this opportunity. coz i know i'll regret giving up this chance. guess the scope would definitely be more interesting and less depressing. but sure to have different challenges. i juz wanna be more of myself. maybe this is my new yr's resolution.

sometimes i feel so bogged down with the complexities in life that i juz run away from it. i see it in the decisions i make. but i know i can't shun from it all... so i'll do wat i think is best.

ever felt guilty for something that u didn't do? like the situation has unknowingly rolled you into being part of it when u didn't even want ur involvement in the 1st place. all i want is to return to a familiar environment where i can identify with... a place where part of my life was & still is. but i guess my presence would cause unhappiness to others. hurtful.. but its not within my control. i respect that.. so i shouldn't make things anymore difficult. don't like the feeling that i'm the reason someone else is suffering in silence. i'm a girl too.. i know its never easy. but i assure u.. there's realli nothing. nothing to feel uneasy about. coz if u know me well enough... u'll understand. at that place... i feel we're all juz one big family. we're all there for the same reason. hope u'll all see that.

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